Venga Bus is back (Bus 8)

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Big congrats to our girl @Sydgal22 🥳
18 BFPs in June so far who will be next!?

@noble89 - June 15th
@ss123456 - June 15th
@mich2020 - June 17th
@newbie9 - June 17th
@LV1987 - June 17th
@peanutbutterbrownies - June 18th
@sweetshop2020 - June 20th
@newbie0818 - June 20th
@chloedancer897 - June 20th
@Jodi3 - June 20th
@dontgojasonwaterfalls - June 21st
@maybe333 - June 22nd
@marshmallow123 - June 26th
@madz27 - June 27th
@skip86 - June 28th
@missgoldilocks - June 28th
@katao - June 30th
@vp91x - June 30th
@lucyrp - July 1st
@sausage1990 - July 1st
@lucie91 - July 2nd
@dipsy77 -July 3rd
@dkdk123 - July 4th
@amy00 - July 5th
@ltay2 - July 5th
@minster2012 - July 5th
@vil10 - July 6th
@franklydear - July 6th
@justmouse - July 7th
@blodyn91 - July 7th
@cocoblue22 - July 7th
@smileyT - July 8th
@jazper - July 8th
@littleRa - July 10th
@2020mission - July 15th
@DB20 - July 17th
@sarahttc2020 - July 21st

Not added anyone that I don’t have dates for but I’ve not forgotten you just let me know when you know you ovulate/ know your test dates ☺️

@Juno231 yeah I've got quite a bit of holiday, but going to carry 10 days over to use as an extension to mat leave hopefully ✌🏾 is your interview today... if so good luck 😘

@blodyn91 yeah it would be great to have mat leave together as she lives down the road from me and she is fab. she was so kind in telling me aswell as she knows I had a MC in March but said she wanted to tell me, even though she is only 9weeks and wasn't sure how xx

@lucyrp are opks getting stronger or just staying pretty steady, your body is a real mystery at the moment, really hope there is a nice surprise at the end xx

@Cocoblue22 Thankyou!! I also hate the word bitter!! It's not a case of being bitter it's just sometimes a bit like ahh come on when's it gonna be me! Thanks so much!

@blodyn91 it's called 365 days, tbh the film itself is shit!! But it deffo got OH in the mood🍆

@SmileyT yep I totally get you! We're so happy for our friends but can't help but feel jealous! Glad it's not just me!!

@SmileyT no they're not getting any stronger, they're just staying pretty steady il upload a pic now. so confusing xx

@Minster2012 wow what a journey you’ve been through! Hope you get the all clear to go ahead with the IVF soon x

@SmileyT sorry you're feeling down today, a holiday to look forward to is definitely a great pick me up x

@lucyrp how frustrating this must be for you. Fingers crossed you get some good news - you really deserve it after all of this!

So, looks like I definitely had my LH peak yesterday and really hope we've done enough the last couple of days. Looks like I'm now officially in my TWW - obviously the best part(!) 🙄 will probably start testing around 1st July I think x

@Vil10 ah this is exactly how I felt!! My friend who told me she's pregnant the other day already has 2 kids, and she'd told me they were thinking of trying for another when I said we were trying. Then now she's already pregnant and I'm over here popping all the vitamins, buying preseed and eating pineapple to help 😂😩😩 you're not bitter, it's completely understandable to feel that way 💛 I don't think men understand how difficult it can be for us sometimes, like the actual wanting of a baby is so consuming. Don't be too hard on yourself x

@Minster2012 I'm hopeful that your flashing smileys are a good sign that it isn't AF, everything crossed for you!! Will you just wait to see how today/ tomorrow goes? You've been through so much, you deserve a break 😩 x

@Missgoldilocks that happened to me the other night, dreamt I had two positives and woke up like ☹️

@lucyrp ah I feel for you!! Definitely put some pressure on to the doctors, it's not right that they aren't doing more to help you x

@SweetDreams92 thank you! it really is frustrating

@KateColx i have to wait until tomorrow when my doctors back in and she's going to ring relatively first thing. wonder what she'll say x

@lucyrp I can't imagine she'll be happy if she sent you to the midwife for help and she's just told you to come back in a month! I really hope she sorts something for you x

@KateColx no i don't think she'll be very happy either!
what is with these scams on MN at the moment 🙄x

@KateColx yess that's literally how I feel!! We're over here doing everything we can and they get pregnant so easily! You're right though it is so consuming because the more you try and the more you see others having babies the more you want one, every symptom just makes you want one more! I'm sure your time will come soon though!! What CD are you? I think you're similar to me aren't you, I'm CD12!x

@SweetDreams92 you use easy@home opks too!! Where did you get them from?! I can't for the life of me find any since last week, they're out of stock on amazon too which is were I got them from last time! I managed to get easy@home brand ones this time but they're a proper stick instead of a strip, and I dont like how it is on the app, kinda like I don't trust it, I'd trust it more if I was using the strips! I have 3 strips left from last time so waiting until I'm nearer my peak to use them!

@KateColx @Vil10 honestly it's so hard not to be consumed by it. Today I'm 3dpo but I can't shake the feeling that I'm not pregnant because what's the difference over these past 11months? Lol I just don't see how it's gonna happen. I had a cry this morning and felt to cry alllll day but luckily oh just gave me a massage and I feel better. You can't not think about it, you can't not care about it honestly 😩 I want it so bad it's heartbreaking and really stressing me out but we push forward still. My OH is very logical and complains when I feel sad but fuck me what am I supposed to do lol x

@missgoldilocks have you had your bloods taken and checked? or do you have to wait till 12 months?

@blodyn91 yep all clear and oh sperm all clear! I just want my tubes checked but been told I have to wait till january as that's the next available appointment! What's your story??

@Vil10 yes last month I got a pack of 50 from Amazon too - the only brand I've used so far and I think they are pretty accurate and work well. Can't believe they're all sold out! Good idea about using your remainder strips nearer your usual fertile time. Have you ever used/would you consider the Clearblue Digital tests?

@Missgoldilocks sorry to hear how you’ve been feeling lately. Your husband should be more supportive when you are down but glad you're feeling better after the massage. Can't believe the next available appointment to get your tubes checked is in January! Is it something that you are able to get checked privately?

@Vil10 @Missgoldilocks ah this is exactly how I've been feeling the last couple of days, i haven't even been trying for that long but it feels like I'll never get a BFP and it'll just be a constant cycle of trying 😩 and at the same time everyone around you seems to be popping out babies left right and centre. It's so so consuming 😩 some days it feels like it's all I think about.

I'm CD8 today so not too far behind you @Vil10! Started CB tests today so back into the FW soon 🤞🏻 whst cycle is this for you guys? X

I'm back and checking in, @Missgoldilocks I totally get that that feeling, even though we only TTC between may-nov last year & March to now Cos everyone around has literally said "oh no actually I thought it was going to take longer" 🙄I think DH is a bit sick of me saying it's not fair. But it's not fair & it is all consuming. I def would go get your bloods done for peace of mind.

I'm on CD12 too @vil10 not that it means much currently.

I'm still hoping my blood is ovulation, but don't know, I thought not earlier, been to loo twice since FMU, & the second had a bigger clot like streak of bright red blood but I did an IC strip & faintest LH line, & a full wipe of blood on the tissue so I thought oh that's it & put a pad on. But since then nothing really & just been again fully expecting more & only a bit of pink on the pad & tiny pink tinge wiping. Time will tell over today tomorrow if it is an AF bleed.
But why on earth day 6 of flashing CB smile then?

It's my one day of DS at nursery & I've just had a cookies & cream ice cream for lunch but I need to do pilates really 😩

I'm with whoever said let's hope it's a big surge of egg popping out from my eggs for my eggy dancing 🤞🏻🤞🏻

@Missgoldilocks Im just on cycle 3. But it's my last cycle till probaly next May due to wedding postponment. First cycle tracking. So I feel like I can't complain yet. That so annoying how you have to wait. Corona really has buggered so many lives up!

I worry that trying all of this plus the CB tracking will give me some sort of false hope this month 🙈

i've made it to half past 2 and now i feel like i need a nap 🥱 i'm so god damn tired at the moment😫

@SweetDreams92 thanks for your comment :) yeah he does need to be more supportive honestly, I think it's because he has no power over it so he can't fix it why it makes him annoyed. I have thought about privately but I don't have the £500 right now, perhaps in a few months time if nothing.

@KateColx yeah it's horrible isn't it 😔 hoping we all get bfps soon xx

@blodyn91 it is annoying trust me! I hope you get your bfp then before you stop trying :) x

@Minster2012 yeah exactly, I don't know how they keep their mind off it! It's totally consuming and I think it's just the not knowing of it all!! It's sad because years ago I wasn't in the correct situation and so I had a termination with an ex and it happened like instantly, yet here I am in the best position for a child and its not happening! Kind of cruel really. Yes bloods are fine, my cycles are on point but I am just scared about my tubes/scarring I need to get a dye test done to check. Do you think your bleed could be implantation by any chance??

@Missgoldilocks well that's good the bloods are ok and at least you are on the radar. Honestly I was talking to my friend who was in a similar position to you with the ex yesterday, it's feckin shit but try not to dwell, it will happen & I honestly think corona has had an impact on cycles & stress. It's highly likely to be implantation for me, my last AF was 4th - 8th of June so that must have been a "proper" type of period. That was 3- dats after last bleed. Of course i would like it to be something like that. I'd take anything to show it's mid cycle currently tbh. Just feel like crying so much. & eating shit, & drinking wine. Trying to do none of the above 😂

Our bodies & minds can be so cruel!

@missgoldilocks Im trying to be positive and optimistic, but also worried the pill has buggered my chances this soon after coming off. If only I knew about Corona sooner I would have come off at Christmas 😆🤦🏼‍♀️

@KateColx 😂 Im the same! With the added seed bags.