Just want AF to arrive so new cycle can begin...

[CaribouCarafe]

AF due in 3 days.

Am sure I'm out this month - negative FRER today and I have the usual PMS acne.

Just want my period to come already so that I can get this useless cycle over with and have a commiseration beer.

Just frustrating as have been taking pre-conception vitamins for months, cut out caffeine, no alcohol during TWW, have DTD every other day, tracked ovulation and with no success.

Anyone else fancy a moan whilst waiting for AF to show up?

Oh gosh @Sunbird24 hope the worst of it is short lived!

Light Bleeding since 4dpo and still at 6dpo anyone had same???

Not sure if people are still posting on here or not but would appreciate someone’s opinion on something:
TTC month 1 (now technically on month 2) tracked cycle using Flo after coming off the pill in November. First AF 15/12/20-21/12/20 so was expecting to ovulate potentially around 28/29th Dec according to Flo - all tests so far have been negative and I was due to start AF 2 days ago. On that day, I had very light spotting in the morning which I thought could potentially be implantation bleeding but then it became more bleeding rather than spotting, but nowhere near as heavy as last month. Last month was pretty heavy for most of the 6 days, whereas this month, I’m only on day 3 and already seemed to be getting a lot of (sorry for tmi) dark brownish blood. Is this just a regular period and last time was heavier due to it being first period off the pill? Sorry if that’s a long post but I know people have different experiences with implantation bleeding and I think I just need to get the idea that it’s implantation bleeding out of my head!!😂

@mollyaimee sorry I don't have any experience of the pill, however I thought the implantation bleeding normally happens a week before AF is meant to arrive (don't quote me on that!)?

If you're getting negative tests after AF is due then I think unfortunately it might just be a weird period, but am very much hoping for a happier result!

@CaribouCarafe @LS2020 @Ughmaybenot @mrswilso I hope this doesn’t come across weirdly but I’ve just spent the last 2 hours reading your whole thread. I’m so so sorry for everything you’ve all been through. I am in tears reading your journeys and I just wanted to say I really hope everything works out for you

@mrswilso are you ok? I can’t imagine how hard the past month was. How are you doing?

I’m quite new on here, had an early mc on Christmas Eve but fairly lucky it was all over quickly. The kind people on mumsnet really helped me on Christmas Day just having someone to talk to. Sitting here expecting AF tomorrow, feeling all the usual cramps and just feeling sad about what I lost. Sending thoughts to you all x x

@Lbiddis not weird at all! I'm a semi-pro Mumsnet stalker myself, so appreciate the company .

I'm so sorry to hear about your mc, what awful timing as well. I really hope that things work out for you very soon - one of my friends managed to have a successful pregnancy the month after her mc, so there's a lot of hope for you

I don’t think that is weird @Lbiddis I think that’s very sweet actually, thank you.
I’m so sorry to hear about your troubles, there’s no such thing as good timing I know but that’s awful timing. Sending love

I’ve nothing to report, really. I’m on another long cycle, currently day 60, and still waiting on the fertility clinic appointment.

How is everyone else doing? X

@Ughmaybenot - sorry to hear that you're still waiting for an appointment and have yet another mega-cycle.

I'm about 2 days away from AF, did a test last night (I know... I know) which was negative, of course. Pretty sure it's not going to be a BFP this month anyway, even though we got all the timing right

I'm just at a loss as to what more can be done - I'm taking prenatal supplements, using Pre-Seed, doing OPKs and timing DTD, avoiding alcohol and 'bad' foods, I don't smoke, I'm generally pretty healthy. Just sick and tired of this now.

On the plus side, I'm meeting a kitten tonight that we may or may not be adopting which will be a nice distraction!

Thanks @CaribouCarafe it’s rubbish isn’t it? Feeling at such a loss as to what else to do. It’s so hard not to get your hopes up every time.
Aaah well if you do, we expect photos 😊

@Ughmaybenot - a little preview of potential kitten, because even just looking at his fuzzy little face brings me joy!

Ohhhh stop 😍😍😍 @CaribouCarafe what a cutie!!

Kitten update - we adopted him and he is just the cutest little thing. He's currently having a nap next to me and life is good again

Aww @CaribouCarafe that’s lovely news, has he a name yet? He’s precious.

Yes he was named last night but it's a bit outing! I'll just let you know it starts with a J!

Awwww @CaribouCarafe your kitten is so cute! How lovely, hope he brings you lots of love and cuddles.

Sorry to hear about your AF arriving, pretty sure mine is too although seems unable to make it’s mind up. Two tests clearly show no luck this month so just want it to arrive already so I can move on, guessing it’s a bit of a reaction to the mc but the delay is making me dwell on what I’ve lost 😞

Eugh sounds like you’re doing absolutely everything you possibly can, just sucks so much, hope kitten brings you joy so it’s not at the forefront of your mind every day. Been trying since Sept and already bored by how obsessive I’m becoming the longer we’re trying.

@Ughmaybenot that’s insane, can’t imagine how you get your head in gear when it’s even more unknown. Really hope the pandemic settles soon so you can get some answers

P.S. there was one particular message that I screen shot as it was as if I wrote it. All about the illusion of spontaneity my other half has. Been hiding a lot of the other OV details from him since Oct because it seemed to affect him somehow and had a couple of dud months where he struggled to ahem ‘complete’. I work so hard now to keep him free from the worries/thinking but sort of means I keep it myself instead

Fair enough @CaribouCarafe pets really are the best. Currently sat in my office with my dog warming my toes 🥰

Yea it’s tough @Lbiddis just praying I get that initial appointment soon. Unfortunately tho I think I’ve probably been hanging too much on it, I think it’s quite likely that I’ll then have to wait for scans etc, which will obviously be a lot longer again.
Gosh it doesn’t half take all the fun out of it!
Aw I know what you mean. Just before Christmas, DH and I have decided to just go back to basics. No OPKs, no checking CM, no symptom spotting, nothing like that. It was just stressing us out too much and for no real reason given that my cycles are so messed up.
I do think tho, that you shouldn’t feel you have to internalise anything... to be fair, that’s where this thread has been a godsend for me. As much as I wish no one was in this boat, it’s nice to know you aren’t alone.

Aghhhhh. Just been on to the booking office, def not getting an appointment for a while now as they’ve stopped booking fertility clinic appointments because, and you couldn’t make this up, the consultant has gone on maternity leave. Excuse me while I scream 🤦🏼‍♀️

@Lbiddis aaaw how kind of you! I'm fine now...I think! 😂
I'm on CD 2...I think! (Ha! I just do not trust my body at all anymore haha!) and feeling positive. I'm dying to do another FRER when this bleed stops though as I never ever got a negative test after the MC - I still tested the faintest positive on Thursday last week before I came on yesterday 😂 I just wanna see a blank test now! That's been a total headf**k in itself - wishing and waiting for AF and BFNs is not what I was hoping for a whole three months later 😂 what a saga this has been!

Your story is heartbreaking - so sorry you had to go through that on Christmas Day ❤️ hope you're doing okay with it all x

@CaribouCarafe aaaah that kitten! So cute! 😍
@Ughmaybenot I'm so sorry that it's still dragging on for you - I've had a taste of the frustration of waiting for something outwith your control now and it's a horrible place to be in. Really hope you're keeping okay ❤️

We’ve bitten the bullet and started the private route. Can’t do all this waiting around and uncertainty anymore. 4-6 week waiting list, apparently they’ve had a huge increase in demand since the start of the pandemic so lots of couples in the same boat as us I guess.
Really low today. AF arrived which is good news I guess after a 60+ day cycle but I just feel so flat and teary.

Oh @Ughmaybenot I'm so sorry to hear you're having a tough time today - sending lots of hugs ❤️🥺
It's really infuriating that you've had to take the private route but to be honest, I'd be the same if I could find any way to make it work. It would help me feel like I'd taken back some sort of control over the situation.

Thanks lovely. Feeling a bit brighter today but I just think it’s starting to take its toll now. What I’ve learned is that I’m not good with uncertainty and not feeling like I can improve a situation 🤦🏼‍♀️

Sending lots of love to you all x

@Ughmaybenot

Thanks lovely. Feeling a bit brighter today but I just think it’s starting to take its toll now. What I’ve learned is that I’m not good with uncertainty and not feeling like I can improve a situation 🤦🏼‍♀️

Sending lots of love to you all x

@Ughmaybenot sorry to hear AF arrived, I'm just coming to the end of mine now.

Such horrible luck with your consultant going on maternity leave - that's proper salt in the wound . Am crossing my fingers that you get seen to quickly (and successfully!) by the private clinic.

@mrswilso can't remember the last time I wished someone a BFN (other than during teenage years - remember sitting in a toilet cubicle with best friend chanting at a pregnancy test to make sure it turned out negative...successfully I might add! ), but am hoping you get one soon...followed by a BFP of course!

Hi everyone,

Took some time off mn to try get out of my head a bit abs give myself a break. Not much news from me - due my day 3 bloods next week and have my fertility scan booked in for mid March. Not doing Hycosys at the minute so don’t know how that’s going to delay us but then they’ll call us back and talk options when that’s done.

@Ughmaybenot sorry you’re having to go the private route it sucks so much but we got referral in September, initial appointment in November and now it’s March and beyond for scans so you’re probably doing the best thing. We’re only not because I working up to promotion this summer so I want to focus on that first.

@mrswilso been thinking of you a lot! I did a grieving headspace last month and it was really helpful and had a cry for you too. For the first and only time, wishing you a BFN so you can start looking forward ❤️

@Lbiddis sorry you’ve had to join us and what a heartbreaking time. It’s awful to feel such a low at that point. I had my early mc on the last day of my holiday which I got engaged on so it was like a massive comedown and imagine must have been the same feeling over Xmas, having to pretend to be excited but feeling your own pain.

@CaribouCarafe what a beautiful kitten! Going to have to not show the OH that or that’s what I’ll be getting for my birthday next month 😂 I feel you on the trying - I would say my weight is the only factor I have and I’m only a size 14 so not huge. Been doing all the right things and nothing. It proper peed me off was the only month I have conceived was when i was proper relaxed - we were on a spa weekend - and it’s annoyed me that all that useless just relax and it’ll happen advice is probably right 😩

@LS2020 I've been thinking about you too ❤️ hope you're doing well hun 😘
The wish came true last night - finally BFN and a good strong LH positive so I can breathe a sigh of relief now I think. We're definitely TTC again straight away (so you can bet the deed was done even though I'm only CD9 🤣) but it is still a bit raw...I think at the time it was easier for me to look at it all very clinically and I didn't really allow myself to process the loss so I'm trying to be a lot gentler with myself and let it out. I feel good though, soooo hopeful for a little rainbow soon 🌈