Just want AF to arrive so new cycle can begin...

[CaribouCarafe]

AF due in 3 days.

Am sure I'm out this month - negative FRER today and I have the usual PMS acne.

Just want my period to come already so that I can get this useless cycle over with and have a commiseration beer.

Just frustrating as have been taking pre-conception vitamins for months, cut out caffeine, no alcohol during TWW, have DTD every other day, tracked ovulation and with no success.

Anyone else fancy a moan whilst waiting for AF to show up?

[quote LS2020]**@CaribouCarafe* @Ughmaybenot* @mrswilso @AKcheer how are you all getting on? 12DPO and some weird symptoms which have all disappeared again and no RHR at all so think I’m out! Hope more promising for you all xz[/quote]
waves hello - I'm still alive!

Have been in a bit of a TTC grump hence my absence - two of my friends announced their surprise pregnancies over the past few weeks (they both got pregnant within 6 months of meeting their partners) and as everyone said earlier, I'm happy for them but it's also really annoying at the same time.

We didn't manage to DTD every other day this cycle but I think we managed to get the day before ovulation, the day of ovulation and the day after so fingers crossed. I'm now 5DPO and feeling utterly symptomless other than maybe more cervical mucus than usual (but I may just have normally not noticed what my 'regular' amount is).

I'm sorry to hear that everyone is still struggling. @LS2020 am hoping your tests come back with good news, but it's great that you'll start to get some answers soon!

@AKcheer yeah I stopped with PregnaCare too after a few months because it messed with my cycles, but for some reason decided to start taking the pills again this month after ovulation (am convinced my luteal period is a bit too short - I now ovulate on day 17 during a 28 day cycle). Have also used pre-seed this month so fingers crossed.

Am just so done with this whole process!

Sending lots of love to you all xxx

@CaribouCarafe glad to hear you’re still about but sorry to hear that you’re feeling frustrated as well. I can completely empathise, I feel like there’s an announcement a day at the moment and it’s brining me down massively my RHR has fallen dramatically and AF due tomorrow so deffo out. Thanks, had them done Monday but results still aren’t back very frustrating! Get my day 3s and SA done this next week though so nice to make progress. I’ve decided if they come back clear, I’m gonna stop trying for a bit and focus on shifting another stone and see if that helps

@LS2020 not really. I take a few supplements and that because of my pre-existing health issues so I’m a bit loathe to start more, if only for the fact I’d have to do the research into that too.

I feel like we’re all in the same ‘oh fuck this’ boat right now! It gets so tedious doesn’t it?

@Ughmaybenot yeah you don’t want to start rattling when you walk!

I honestly just feel everyone but me is falling pregnant and some people I know have had full babies in the time I have been trying 😢

@LS2020 and @Ughmaybenot - I know what you mean. For most of this cycle I was like "ah fuck it, what's the point, let's not even try this month" but we had a last minute decision to DTD anyway. I think if we don't get a positive by end of September then we'll stop for a little while so we can enjoy Halloween, Christmas and New Year.

@LS2020 Let us know how the tests work out - hopefully they'll be all clear xxx

@CaribouCarafe I think sometimes the body just needs a break! I need to not feel like one of those milking cows and be me for a bit.
Thanks, it’s weird because I kinda hope they find something and they’ll fix and it’ll make it work but then you don’t want something so wrong it’s not fixable!

@ls2020 completely understand what you mean. With lockdown and TTC I just feel a bit like I've lost a part of myself (doesnt help that I'm an expat so am far away from family and my best friends). Am planning to do a trip to the UK in October (Covid permitting) so I can recharge and let go a little!

I’ve said similar to DH before. Nothing has really changed for him, but I’m not drinking and I’m losing weight and I’m taking supplements and tracking my temperature and OPKing and on and on, and I feel a bit.. resentful at times that I’m doing all this and still nothing, iyswim?

@CaribouCarafe I totally understand. I’ve got OH family birthday party so staying with his parents next week, a spa weekend booked after and then we have a week in Lanzarote two weeks later and I just need to get away and recharge. I think a trip is really good. We went to see OH’s nana (we basically quarantined for 2 weeks before we went) The other week and honestly the difference of just one night out of the 4 walls of our house, you don’t realise how caged you feel I think.

@Ughmaybenot yes I totally do! Tbf this is why I have adopted the drink til it’s pink mantra though because I was missing out so much pre lockdown because I was always like what if. When I had my bloods done, I did sort of admit apart from vits I wasn’t doing all the pineapple and temping etc but I just feel like people get pregnant in one night etc and she said she didn’t find out until she was 20 weeks (she had PCOS) and obviously it hadn’t slown her down and her son was abs fine. I feel like there’s so much ignorance is bliss and I’m quite glad i had a few months before I really got into it so it doesn’t feel as much.
I think for me the worst is my line manager. I adore her but she mentioned something at work just as I started TTC and was like oh you get cramps just before AF as it’s your ovulation and I internally laughed thinking good luck with that and she decided to start trying in new year and was pregnant by April - it’s not fair! 😂

Heeeelp 😭
I've never never ever looked at a pregnancy test after the time but I was throwing a cheap one away that I had done in work on Friday afternoon earlier today and so stupidly opened the box and looked at it...
Any of you lovely ladies have any experience with evaporation lines?? I've never had anything other than a raging blank - but then again, I've never looked a second time at a test and these pics are a full 24 hours after. I think I can see colour but at this point I don't even trust my own eyes 🤣
I don't wanna waste another FRER!! 😭😭😭

@mrswilso I’ve only had one and similar thing, went looking at it a while after and it kinda looked positive (another test confirmed it wasn’t) but I don’t think it was as strong as that. I would say it looks quite dried out so could be evap. Unfortunately only thing to do is another with FMU to be sure - how many DPO are you? Or use an IC if you have one xx

@LS2020 that's the thing - I'm not entirely sure how many DPO 😭 I've had a few peaks this month between CD9 and CD19. I've had highs the past two days (CD21 today) and I'm convinced I've got a dodgy batch of strips...will definitely be seeing the GP if I have a similar cycle next month.
I've been pretty convinced I'm out this month and been quite relaxed about it so I'm annoyed I even peeked today cos now I'm driving myself slowly insane 🙃🤣
Will most likely end up testing with a FRER tomorrow morning...and fully expect a negative...I just thought the same as you: it's quite a strong line for an evap, I'll be quite annoyed actually if it is, will probably avoid the brand in the future just to avoid the confusion.

@mrswilso ah that’s frustrating - how long are your cycles normally?
Yeah I think this is why it says not to look at after 10 mins as can be a misleading result 😂 if it didn’t show in allotted time on Friday, I would assume it’s negative, sorry!

27-28 day super regular @LS2020
Yeah I'm inclined to think the same - have never had it happen before so was curious to see how common it is. Google says it happens a lot...poo ☹️🤣

@mrswilso I think just from the math, you should be about 7dpo if you ovulate at normal time I don’t think you’d get such a strong positive?
Yeah I’ve had on an internet cheapie before, I think I literally started AF before I got a chance to check again 🙁

@mrswilso I have no clue but my god I have absolutely everything crossed for you.

@LS2020 yea I know what you mean. I think I just worry because of all my health stuff, I’m at higher chance of miscarriage and honestly if it took me this long and I miscarried and hadn’t been doing it by the book, I worry I’d blame myself, however illogical that is!
Did another test this morning, CD 40, just to make double double sure and knew it would be negative anyway and still got teary when that second line didn’t appear. It all just fucking sucks, and definitely does feel unfair.

@Ughmaybenot sorry to hear you’re having another long cycle :( but I understand what you mean on wanting to know you did the best possible steps and I think that’s fair given your additional risks - we will get there one day and we’ll have lovely sticky beans 🤞🏻
I’m just waiting on AF today and the feeling is awful. I just want it to come so I can move on to a new cycle which I’m sure you’re feeling too!

Looks like it was definitely an evap ladies 😩 done a FRER with SMU and got BFN.
Due AF next Sunday so I'm just gonna wait it out now but I just have a feeling I'm out this month.

Oh so sorry to hear that @mrswilso. Fingers crossed for next month, hopefully by some miracle we all get our positives next cycle!

@mrswilsoyouve still got a little while yet, hope it’s a positive month for you!

No AF still, keep going to bathroom but no luck :( my boobs are on fire though!

Got my day 21 bloods back, all ok and they believe I ovulated. Apparently my vitamin D is low even though I take a supplement so I guess I’ll just have to go on holiday 🤷‍♀️

That’s interesting @LS2020. That’s really great that there’s nothing obviously ‘wrong’ as such, and it’s reassuring that it’s a level of ‘normal’ still... Altho probably quite frustrating as there’s no reason why not, iyswim?
How are you feeling?

@Ughmaybenot yeah I’ve paid for day 3 privately before so guess it’s good to know all is ok. They checked for diabetes, liver function and a few other things and they all came back fine too. I’ll speak to dr next week on how I can up Vit d if already taking supplement.
Yeah I kinda want a reason but also don’t! OHs semen analysis is friday now so hoping those come back on.

I think normally I’d feel happy about progress and all being ok. My biggest fear is not being able to be pregnant, I would love to do it. However AF is a day late now and no sign of so can’t get my GP day 3 bloods checked. I don’t think I’m pregnant so just want it to arrive!

AF arrived full force this am.. onto another cycle!

@LS2020 wasn't sure whether to congratulate or commiserate you on AF considering your previous post! So "boo" to no BFP, but "yay" to getting started on your day 3 bloods.

My AF is expected any day now so we can be cycle buddies