2020 Bumps (hopefully ;) )

[Skygirl1983]

Thread number 4!!

So I did a cheapie and a super drug and both starkers. Defo BFNs. I can't get hold of my clear blues until tomorrow so I'll wait til Friday and if that's a BFN then I shall accept my fate.

Getting really fed up of this game already, I'd rather my AF just show up, than it be late and BFN. I think I need to finally put down the tests and just forget about all this until I'm late again next cycle, if I am. I will genuinely lose my marbles if I do this every cycle!

It's not fair :( I've wanted this for so long but never been able to try for one thing or another and now we can try and I have to wait again and I hate it :(

Willing my AF on now because I don't think I'm getting that BFP.

I've got horrific headaches and have felt like crap for days now so Mother Nature either give me a BFP or AF show yourself already!

TTC SUCKS!

Sorry I know so many of you have been through many cycles already and I know this is only my first cycle so I shouldn't be complaining but it still sucks. I just want it to happen now 😭

Rant over haha!

Aww you poor thing @Blondeandbroody. I know the feeling and I was pretty much the same in my first cycle. I think a part of you thinks it'll happen quick and that all this time you've been careful. Unfortunately the body will do its own thing and you will conceive when everything is in good working order. Just trust in your body and look after yourself as much as you can. And that includes not stressing yourself out. If you're stressed your body releases certain chemicals into your blood stream. And when that happens your body spends a lot of its resources trying to combat that issue instead of trying to implant and develop a embryo. I know easier said than done but do what you can to make sure you ease your mind 🤗

Your body

Well said @mellymoo86 😂

Although my stress levels are currently through the roof. Was getting the train to OHs work this afternoon who's beside the airport. Train is cancelled. That's fine I can get a different train and change over. Train #2 is cancelled. Ok times getting in I'll get a taxi to catch the connecting train. Taxi takes 30 minutes to arrive and the helpful switch board just keep telling me he'll be 3 or 4 mins when I call every 10 mins to chase!!! Now on said train waiting to see OH and get dropped to the airport.

Still no AF but is definitely imminent.

VERY frustrating @Blondeandbroody. Our bodies seem to be against us sometimes!! Fingers crossed for your CB but of not just enjoy the holidays relaxing ready to join us all again next month 😂

Thanks girls @CiaraJ01 @mellymoo86 I know I'm being ridiculous and in my head I knew that it was going to take time, I guess the reality of it is just a lot harder than I imagined it to be.

@CiaraJ01 I hate how travel just stops working during Christmas. Do they think people just retire to their homes for the remaining part of the year if they don't have work 😏 Glad you got to the other end. 😊 Have a safe trip and have a looooovely time with family and friends.🎉🎉Don't think to much about ttc and AF. It'll show up or not when it wants.

Had 1 of my shitty ICS left took it I keep thinking there is a shadow of a line but can't seem to capture it in a photo 😠

Just a quick update, been to the hospital today for my gynaecology appointment and I have really bad endometriosis again, to the point my right ovary is attached to my womb and he's not sure if the tubes are blocked or not. He's getting me in for a laparoscopy and tube dye after the new year. Until he operates he doesn't know if anything else is attached to anything.
He's concerned that I've not been on contraception for 10 months and I haven't been caught yet. He said pregnancy would help the best but if that doesn't happen then the op will be going ahead after new year.
Quite a lot of cramping and now brown coloured discharge/blood after the internal scan.. probably going to bring on af which maybe not a bad thing, it'll stop me testing a million times and trying to see a line or not. I'm sure if I was pregnant now he would have picked that up on today's scan.x

Hey all! Hope everyone is well. To update I am now CD28. I had spotting CD24 & 25 then it stopped. I took a cheapie test I found in the drawer yesterday and BFN. Ive had an intense headache and some mild nausea the last 2 days but think I’m just symptom spotting or wishful thinking. AF came last month CD31 but because of the info I’ve inputted my Flo app has changed my predicted AF to CD 33 (25.12) so will just have to see. I have no cramps or swollen boobs so still a waiting game for my AF due date!

@ChampooPapi ok.. totally out of order.

@mellymoo86 @Blondeandbroody @CiaraJ01 @mrsio @Skygirl1983 @FutureMrsSmith @Louu99 @Mangaroo @PrettyGirl5545

Good luck to all your girls, I'm leaving this thread. I'm sorry if I have been a pain. I hope yous all get your BFPs soon.

Have a lovely Christmas & take care 😘

@nt1992 Long time lurker here but couldn't help commenting after reading that post about you. Just nasty. I've got a son, it doesn't stop me being disappointed every month or mean that I enjoy being his mum any less! Post away...that's what this forum is here for. If others don't like it why do they follow?

@ChampooPapi that was unnecessary. The whole point of this thread is to be a safe space where we can let out all the feelings/craziness.

@nt1992 don't go please x

@itsbeenalongtime that has really upset me that someone who doesn't know me at all can comment on my life and my children. I don't feel like I want to be here after that. I'm here for all the members just as much as they are for me. Thank you for your kind words

@ChampooPapi Please back off and leave her alone. Don't be so hateful.

@ChampooPapi 👍🏼

@mrsio im not staying somewhere that people are talking about me. And that's all I'm going to think about now every time I check in😒

@nt1992 don't go!! I have no issue with you posting I post just the same as you but if certain idiots don't like it then they can take themselves away from this thread. Or keep their opinions to themselves.

TTC is hard I'm in my first cycle and just had a big old winge I do feel bad doing it because I know other people have struggled for longer etc but that doesn't mean the way I feel is invalid. The way you feel is just as valid as anybody else. There's always somebody worse off or better off than you but that changes nothing! Please don't go x

@ChampooPapi you're an ass!

Everyone has their own struggle whether they are trying to conveive their first or their 10th! Just because you’ve been blessed with a child already doesn’t mean you can’t express your feelings or experiences TTC again. It’s not fair to expect someone to just suck it up and be grateful they already have a child/children. Then you might as well expect everyone to be more grateful in one way or another & where do you draw the line. Im personally TTC #1 and am around 6 cycles in now and perhaps I should be more grateful to be going through this journey without any diagnosis of any medical condition that could impact my chances of conceiving but that doesn’t mean I shouldn’t share my experiences and worries in my own journey as that appeared to be what the thread was for. We all have our own story and I don’t think anyone should be made to feel that theirs doesn’t matter or that they aren’t entitled to share it. I thought this was supposed to be a support network

Hey ladies i commented on the previous thread a couple of time and have been keeping up with this one. After what i have read today i feel like i need to post. Some of the comments have been uncalled for. TTC is a stressful time for anyone. Regardless of how may children or pregnancies the person has had.
I have read previous threads this particular group have been on and the girls who have been on this for a while are all so lovely and supportive for everyone. I myself have seen other threads and have simply left because i didnt agree with some comments. I would never put another woman down that i only 'virtually know'. At the end of the day we are all on these threads for the same reason. Move on if you are not happy with the discussions.

@nt1992 dont leave because of one comment. You seem quite close to others on the thread. Dust yourself off and continue on being you.
Sorry for the long post!!

Wow! What have I missed?! I can’t see the comment, but can see it was a nasty comment aimed at someone else.

@ChampooPapi you can’t just jump into a thread and abuse other members. Everyone is here is so nice and supportive, I get you might not agree with everything, but you don’t have to be nasty. Maybe this isn’t the thread for you 🤷🏾‍♀️

@nt1992 I didnt see the comment, but please dont leave because of someone that hasnt been with us through numerous new threads. We are all supporting you, and you would do the same for us 😍