Anyone starting the TWW #2

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Hey ladies, has anyone started a new thread? If so, link it for me and if not here it is!

@Laur89 @Ellsbells112 @Robbo93 @Lauren3118 @Anny27 @Gems7 @Happymumma29 not sure if I missed anyone!

@PrettyTulip ahh I'm sorry girl 😟 that's really crap. When can you see a doctor again have they told you? I've got a smear on Tuesday so things must be going back to normal x

@Missgoldilocks I've got my next appt in July which is a rearrange from a previous rearrangement 🤨😤
Oh that's good! Hopefully your smear goes well x

Morning :) 10dpo now

@Missgoldilocks yess girl! That sounds like some fun ttc sex for a change 🤣🤣 yep relaxed is the way forward!

@PrettyTulip its so frustrating not knowing where you are at in your cycle :( but heres hoping they have some answers in july!

@Gems7 fingers crossed a second capsule will clear up in remnants. The antibiotics you get after rmiscarriage are super strong so there's no wonder the ph if unbalanced afterwards

@anny27 do you feel pregnant? X
Yeah that was good but tonight it was so difficult urgh! I dunno if I can do it tomorrow honestly 😳😞 after this cycle if I'm not pregnant I'm not going to tell my OH when I'm fertile hopefully that works but if not then we might need a full on break!! God I never thought having sex could be such a chore

@Missgoldilocks I just feel like normal pre AF tbh. Bit tired but then again I always am in tww! So we'll see 🙄

Yep it is a chore when ttc! Does your OH feel the same?

@anny27 yeah, he's never had an issue getting hard in our whole 5 years but now it's becoming a bit problem when we are trying.

These are my opks one from last night and one from. This morning, do you think I missed my surge during the night? Yesterday I had loads of ovulation pain in the evening so I did a test thinking I'd ovulated a day early and I've had no ovulation pain since

@Missgoldilocks yeah looks like either just happened or is about to happen!

I just had some brown spotting at 11dpo so that's me out for ANOTHER. BLOODY. MONTH argghhhhhh sick of this shit

@anny27 bottom opk was me at about 2pm. Ahhh I'm sorry, does af always start like that for you?
I'm sitting here like OK I've had no fertile mucus today not even watery and my cervix is low but bouncy/soft? It might be the time of night I'm checking it ill see what's really going on in the morning but normally when I'm ovulating it's high and I can barely feel it which it was yesterday. Trying to get round dtd again lol

@Missgoldilocks oh that's Deffo positive! Weird that you don't have all the other signs though!

Yep always starts with brown spotting so will probably be full force tomorrow 🙄🙄

@anny27 yeah but I'm thinking I probably ovulated already or something? I dunno. I had loads of ovulation pain yesterday I was so sure I ovulated then so that would make sense and maybe the LH surge took longer to show who knows. Normally I get my LH surge at the same time that I ovulate.

Ahh I'm sorry it's soooo shit 😭😩 I'm absolutely dreading of I have to go through af coming again

period arrived. Fml

Hate hate hate this so much! Want to scream and cry and just fall into a depression pit. Dramatic but its true haha!

@Missgoldilocks are you 1dpo now?

@anny27 I know I know its so shiiiiiit and I'm sick of it too!!! God 😩🙄 I'm sorry you're feeling like this 🤗
Yeah I'm 1dpo. Managed to dtd last night so we did it 3 times during fertile week. I don't have much hope but let's see what happens

Hey girls how are we all? @Gems7 @PrettyTulip @anny27??

I'm not gonna lie and Im probably being an idiot but I just feel so sad. Like Im 2dpo and all I want to do is cry because I just feel like I know its not going to happen again its breaking my heart so bad. I just can't be positive anymore and I just feel so sad I can't shake it! My nipples are killing me and that happens after ovulation sometimes but I'm like hoping that it means something 😔😔😭

I am confused because I had definite red blood yesterday and now its just brown again.....so not sure if period is being really weird or not? So I am either 13dpo or cd2 haha 🤣🤣

@missgoldilocks itz heartbreaking you get a glimmer of hope around ovulation and then you are just like ahhh well waiting for AF now!

@anny27 maybe implantation!?

I know I really hate this ☹️ I just can't be happy till I know I am. Once I'm past fertile week I'm just depressed thinning I'm not pregnant

@Annny27 I'm the same as you hun, had 1 day where I wiped brown mucus then nothing, next day was red mucus but nothing after the one wipe and then the day after that was one wipe of brown again (and then nothing today!) WTF is going on with us 🤨🤣

Sorry you're all feeling shit girls 😟
I'm not much better just in a different position.
Fell out with OH and we didn't speak for most of the weekend, we are okay now but it's just been a rubbish few days, it's hard sometimes, we both have different mindsets. He's quite logical and methodical and calm in life whereas I bulldoze through it and say exactly what I think and my emotions are always out there for all to see, plus We are both grieving at the moment, it's just so shit. Was supposed to go to his parents on Sunday but I didn't go so now they probs think I'm a massive bitch too 🙈
I honestly thought nothing was worse than going month after month with no BFP but honestly at the minute I think this is worse, getting your BFP and feeling those emotions that we all dream of only to have it snatched away again and miscarry.
I'm probably talking shit and in a few months will be moaning my arse off every month about not getting pregnant again 🤣
ITS ALL JUST SO SHIT!!!!!

Waiting for first AF still this Saturday will be 4 weeks since the surgery. On a brighter note though my vagina feels okay again, the thrush has gone woohooooooo 🥳
And me and OH DTD last night for the first time in over 3 months woohooooooo 🥳

@Annny27 @PrettyTulip you girls had anymore bleeding/ brown discharge this morning?

@Missgoldilocks big hugs, count to 10, fingers crossed FW flys by

Xxxxx

@Gems7 @anny27 @PrettyTulip we just all are having a shit time with it aren't we! Sorry to hear about that gems 🤗 me and oh fell out too, he said I was sad all day which I wasn't I was trying to make jokes etc and have a good day but yes I'm sad because I feel like I'm not going to get pregnant without ivf. I don't understand why that's so hard to understand? I'm not allowed to be sad? He can be a right prick sometimes. Anyway last night I dreamt I got a bfp 😩😭😭 I did three different tests, 2 was positive and the digi was negative. I was soooo happy 😊 then I woke up 😞

@anny27 has your af properly come or??

Need to rename this thread "sick and tired with no hope" 🤣🤣

@Missgoldilocks no AF hasn't arrived properly yet and its kinda giving me false hope that its implantation now 😬😬 will test tomorrow if she hasn't arrived, I will be 15dpo then.

Omg the positive twst dreams are the worst because you wake up like ahh what if its a sign....its never a sign haha. Yep its fathers day on Sunday too so will be feeling sad that DH isn't a dad 💗

@PrettyTulip its annoying not knowing where we are haha

@Gems7 i am glad the vagina is feeling back to normal:D bet your OH was pleased haha!

Yep miscarriage is cruel cruel cruel, but also so is months of bfn, bfn, bfn.......aren't we lucky that we've got to experience both 🙄🙄😬

period arrived.....gah atleast its here now but still frustrating!

@Annny27 😩☹️❤️ sorry chick xx
Get your oh to give you a massage, I literally felt like breaking down all day (I did have a cry in the morning) then I asked him to give me a belly massage and send good energy in there lol I feel better x

@missgoldilocks I am Deffo gonna ask for a massage haha! Deserve one

Thinking of going private for my tests, found a local consultant whose charges are like £200 per consultation. Its not too expensive but obvs it all adds up

@anny27 ahh I'm sorry 😞🙄❤️ onto the next bloody cycle! I'm seriously considering acupuncture, would you get it?

@Annny27 hmm would you try holistic first? Acupuncture like I said above? I think because you've been pregnant you know you can get pregnant and your tubes are obviously clear, maybe you should start with a Chinese herbal doctor a bit of acupuncture maybe some herbs that help build your wall for the egg to nestle into?? Just a thought a little cheaper perhaps xx

Yeah that could be something! I know I ovulate every month, DH obvs has working speed because I got pregnant so perhaps I just need a helping hand with getting my body in tip top condition!

Not sure about acupuncture. I have heard a lot of people talk about it but I don't know if I would be scared of the needles haha.

Gonna do some research whilst I am on my period for best steps for next month!