Fecking TWW limbo torture

[Secretsquirrelisfedup]

We are currently TTC #3. DC are 7 and 4 going into Juniors and Reception this year. DP has always been on the fence about whether to have anymore until early this year and now he’s as enthusiastic as me that it’s the right thing for us.

Both DC took 12-18 months to conceive and we got our hopes up so many times each time only to feel rubbish when it wasn’t to be. We haven’t been trying half as long this time and yet I’m convinced this month is the month, not for no reason. I had what I think was possibly implantation spotting yesterday evening and I’m crampy but milder than with AF and I feel a bit sick and knackered today.

I know it will take a couple of days for HCG to build up enough for a BFP if this is the case (didn’t stop me POAS this morning and getting a BFN). The sensible part of me is trying to stop myself from getting my hopes up as I know it could just as easily be my body messing with me and the start of AF a few days early but I can’t stop convincing myself I’m pregnant. Arrrrggg

Fingers crossed for you. They all sound like good signs. I feel like I'm getting angry pmt today

Now on CD39 and no AF. Longest one I've had has been 41 days. So waiting anxiously until Thursday... and going to try to wait until Saturday before testing. Hate my long irregular cycles so much. Although it looks like the mild cramps I was having were ovulation not AF and we dtd a lot around them so fingers crossed.

How is everyone? @Bigfatwiggle @Crazybunnylady123 those symptoms sound good! Crossing everything for you!

I did another test this morning and got a BFN. I just know it isn't going to happen, I've literally driven myself mad with the symptoms, can't sleep properly. It's redicculous. I don't think I can do this again next month. It's unbearable. Sorry to sound overly dramatic. Just feels like the story of my life, the good stuff only seems to come with unbearable struggles
I feel like this is the only place I can express it. No one in rl knows or would get it.

@Bigfatwiggle your not out of the game yet.
Have you tried using pre-seed? It does seem to work for some people. I am getting stressed as well. My cycles are all over the place. But this is my longest ever cycle as well. Im so scared to test and it’s negative and I’m just some crazy person. Just trying to keep calm and busy with my little girl. X

I’m on CD35 today, no AF, no BFP, sore boobs and loads of either AF or preg symptoms for the last week which is totally unusual for me and I have had regular 30-31 day cycles for about 2 and a bit years since I stopped breastfeeding my youngest. I’m really fed up now, at this point an answer either way would be welcome.

I feel you.....it's the not knowing.

When I get my af I'm going to order some pressed from Amazon. Think I need to have a very honest convo with dp about how much I want this.

Tested with a clear blue this morning so I'm going to get a frer next. Ovia says I'm due AF on Friday but I think it should be sat so maybe it is still too early to test and get a result.

@Bigfatwiggle
I’m currently 9 days late for af according to the flo app. So this is either my longest cycle ever or I’m pregnant. I have heartburn right now and a sore throat. Is that even a symptom? I don’t know.
Other thing is vitamin d, might be worth both of you topping up. Feeling sick but thinking it’s in my crazy head. But I’m going to be in tears when af comes, this feels so real right now! X

Gosh that is late, have you spoken to a Dr?. I'm CD 25 so got a couple more days to wait. I feel the same. I'm exhausted mentally from this

Well apparently the pregnancy hormone takes a while to build up. So I’m testing Friday and if it’s negative I will go to the drs.
Mum told me she never got a positive on a test but she just knew.
With my daughter I got a very positive dark line after being a couple of weeks late.

That sounds quite positive for you then keeping my fingers crossed that you get a bfp.

I've got raging pmt so I'm pretty sure I'm out. Had a bit of a wobble with dp earlier......he's very much if it happens it happens but also adamant he has low sperm. I think I've convinced him to go get checked so that's something I guess.

Just sitting here cross stitching having really bad acid reflux.
Mines been to the drs to be checked. He was very reluctant. But he went. I just want to complete our family.
Good plan, definitely order the pre-seed though. At least you know I guess.

Yep......gonna order it and give it a go. I'm the same. I have 2 older children from a previous relationship, I had them when I was very young and didn't get to plan them/enjoy being pregnant/relish when they were small. I'd really like me and my dp to have a child of our own. He's amazing with the older 2 and they're totally on board with a younger sibling and getting involved. I'm probs looking at it with rose tinted glasses but like you I feel we would complete our little family with 1 more.

Morning folks. How are you all doing today? X

Feeling sad. I just tested and it was negative, I’m so confused what my body is doing right now.
I think I’m going crazy. I just wish af would bloody show up. I have never had so many pregnancy symptoms.

@crazybunnylady123. Same here. AF is never this late either. I’m going to give it a week in case I just ovulated late for whatever reason then go to the docs if AF is still AWOL and no BFP.

@Secretsquirrelisfedup
Dp just felt my head before leaving for work and I have a temperature.
I’m having a little cry while dd is taking a nap, I just feel so run down by it.
I’m going to have to go to the drs soon I guess, good luck to you.

I'm not due till Friday. I'm 90% sure I'm out.....but still have a sad glimmer of hope in the back of my head that I might be. I've had so many pms symptoms today.

I'm not going to do any more tests until Friday evening/sat morning.

Have to go to a baby shower on Sat which I'm dreading. Loads of newborns will be there plus lots of bumps. Will have to suck it up.

@Bigfatwiggle oh no. You poor thing. It’s so hard
Isn’t it. Be kind to yourself and treat yourself to some nice chocolates or something.
So glad I starting talking on here it’s a good outlet, it’s not like you can talk to anyone other than your dp about it in real life.

It really is good to have an outlet

I really want some fried chicken if I'm honest but I'll hold off as I'm going for a coffee with a friend after work.

I do believe I’m officially out this month but I am really happy for AF to be here so I can crack on getting sorted to have another go. I might give myself a break this month though and just make sure I do everything I can to get my cycle back on track.

@secretsquirrelisfedup
I’m going to have a break as well if my period ever shows it’s ugly face.
I’m now supposedly ten days lates. But with my irregular cycles I guess it could be less.
Only time will tell. for you.

I am experiencing the worst pms.....it makes me lose the plot. I feel like I'm going insane. Kinda adds insult to injury. Drove to work crying this morning.
Due on tomorrow so hopefully this will all be over. I'm not sure I can do another month either. Would be nice to try and stay in touch though. I've appreciated your support this month.

I’m not giving up completely. I just want to give my cycles a chance to get back on track. I’ve been feeling rubbish for half of every cycle for the last few months which I struggled with before I got pregnant with my youngest. This month was a wake up call that I need to sort myself out as it had crept up on me and now I have got the period of doom. Honestly the worst period pains I have had in years. I know I can get back on track with diet, exercise and supplements though because I’ve done it before. Shall we start a new thread to talk to each other till we are in a better place to give it another go?

I’m not giving up either. I’m just getting a bit too stressed over it.
Take a bit of time out to calm down. A thread sounds good.