Fecking TWW limbo torture

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We are currently TTC #3. DC are 7 and 4 going into Juniors and Reception this year. DP has always been on the fence about whether to have anymore until early this year and now he’s as enthusiastic as me that it’s the right thing for us.

Both DC took 12-18 months to conceive and we got our hopes up so many times each time only to feel rubbish when it wasn’t to be. We haven’t been trying half as long this time and yet I’m convinced this month is the month, not for no reason. I had what I think was possibly implantation spotting yesterday evening and I’m crampy but milder than with AF and I feel a bit sick and knackered today.

I know it will take a couple of days for HCG to build up enough for a BFP if this is the case (didn’t stop me POAS this morning and getting a BFN). The sensible part of me is trying to stop myself from getting my hopes up as I know it could just as easily be my body messing with me and the start of AF a few days early but I can’t stop convincing myself I’m pregnant. Arrrrggg

How are you doing? When are you going to test?

I’m waiting till Monday I think. I got DP to hide the tests I have left after the last BFN. If AF makes an appearance before then I’ll have tests left for next month and if I have been lucky this month it might mean I don’t have to squint to see a line 😂

That's probs sensible. I don't know if I can wait till Friday.
I'm just noticing everything at the mo....I'm peeing more, my pee smells weird....like kinda sweet and strong and my lower back is hurting a lot my brain is now convinced I'm pg but I'm scared to get my hopes up.

Oh my word I just typed out a long reply and as I was about to press post I got redirected to a flipping you are a winner spam page. I nearly threw my phone at the wall 😩

Oh for the love of my sanity this time better work. I typed it out again and it refused to post them disappeared.

@Bigfatwiggle I don’t want to get your hopes up either but that does sound like it could be promising.

I think I might be out this month very soon. I have the worst raging pmt I’ve had in years and I’m trying my very very hardest not to snap at DP and the kids for no good reason this morning.

I don't know if it will be......I have imagined symptoms so many times before. If I am then I will have to have a scan at 6/7 weeks to make sure it's not ectopic again.

Had a nice lunch out with dp today but now very light headed so he's gone to mooch round the shops and I'm hiding on a bench.

Fingers crossed it's just frustration at having to wait and not pmt for both of us.

I am going to buy myself a bottle of wine in preparation for AF showing up. Hopefully that will trigger Sod’s law and I won’t be able to drink it 😁

Oooh wine sounds like good plan. I might follow suit!x

Well I'm absolutely pathetic.....caved in and did a test which was obviously negative. I'm not due on till next fri/sat.
There we go. Either not pg or just not far enough along. Must be stronger. I wish men could go through this instead!

@Bigfatwiglle you are not pathetic at all. Have a massive hug 🤗.

Oh wow I can’t type @Bigfatwiggle 😳

Thanks

Snuggled on the sofa now dozing off to crap tv. Dp gave me a mega foot rub as I was feeling a bit shit. Gotta get my head together. I feel redicculous! Haven't told dp about the BFN as he told me not to test yet. Don't think he quite gets it.

Mine doesn’t quite get it either. Probably because they aren’t the ones who have to figure it out then deal with the changes. They do the fun bit then they get told whether they are going to be a dad in 9 months.

Yeah.....it's quite a detached process for them.
I suggested to dp that he get his swimmers checked and he got a bit upset and doesn't want to. He's bad enough about going to the Drs at the best of times because he thinks they re going to say there is something seriously wrong with him. He also said he'd feel like it was his fault.

Arggg men. Tell him the issue wouldn’t be his fault at all if there was one but not giving you both the opportunity to find out if there is an issue and fix it would be.

My aaarrrg men moment today is “if it doesn’t happen this month babe, maybe it’s your body’s way of telling you you’re too old”. A) wtaf I’m 32. And B) it’s not an exact science he seems to have forgotten how long it took for the first two.

Turns our he didn’t know what to say when I felt crap so he picked something at random and regretted it instantly but bloody hell.

I think that's men all over, they don't know what to say.
I'm only 31 too......my dp is older. It is frustrating when they come out with stuff that sounds frustrating.

I had a row with my DH last month and ended up spelling out how much I'd thought about in terms of my career, what would happen to my body, money etc etc etc. Some of it we'd discussed but a lot that was just about me we hadn't and his face after my big rant was priceless. 😂 He still doesn't fully get it all but it definitely clicked a bit for him.

I feel rubbish this weekend tbh. Might join you guys in buying some wine! AF still hasn't come but I know it's going to & I'm starting to worry my cycles are v irregular.

@littledinosaurs I guess we really have to spell it out to them. They just don't get it, how it will affect our job prospects, make us like walking whales, undo all.tje hard work of the diet. I could have throttled dp when he said he wouldn't get his sperm checked. If I have to go get checks they are more than likely going to want to check if my remaining tube is blocked.....not a nice procedures but one id be willing to go through and he's moaning about a bit of sperm in a cup!!!!

I spent all of last night throwing up.....totally self inflicted. I have loads of food intolerances and ate things I shouldn't have. Bad bad me! Back on the safe eating plan today.

When is your AF due dino?

No AF for me either but I caved and tested and got another BFN. God knows what my body is playing at this month. I’m having a glass or two of my wine tonight.

Been really sick again.....if I'm not pregnant this month i'm divorcing my body because it's clearly an absolute prick

@bigfatwiggle me too. My boobs are bloody killing me and I’m bloated as hell. I’ve felt sick for the last week and still no BFP or AF.

Here's hoping they are all good signs. I'm going to try and put off testing till weds.....I should ry wait till Friday.

How's everyone today? I'm fed up.of wishing the days away and scared of another BFN.

I’m scared to @bigfatwiggle my boobs are actually tender today and I’m feeling sick. I can’t believe my symptoms. I don’t believe it took us 6 months only.