Hello, I am cycle day ten today and have a bit of kind of ewcm but not like full on stretchy (sorry TMI.) Does that mean it is fertile time? Trying not to do OPS so I don't get too obsessive but maybe getting more obsessive by not doing them.
Also took a book from the Library called Bump and Grind. It seems good so far, relatable and friendly in tone, anyone else had it?
Also went out for dinner with a friend and really laughed properly, it was lovely to see her, and we arranged a theatre trip which will be a lovely distraction. I did say I hoped I wouldn't get AF in May, and she told me to prepare myself and DP for disappointment, I was upset as I wanted her to say 'oh, it will happen this month,' but she was being realistic.
@Savvysaz If he's hungover that will be so frustrating. I missed what I thought was fw last month as DP was feeling ill, but dared to hope anyway (daftly.) I find full sugar coke good for hangovers, but sure you know all your DPs hangover cures. From your latest update though does it mean FW might be different? I hate AF being weird.
@mumofbun I know what you mean. I disappear from here for weeks at a time then pop up again when I can. Like you I have bad anxiety and definite OCD tendencies (and I promise I am not bandying that term about lightly, have been diagnosed with OCD in the past) and it can be so hard for people like us, and mean we need to take a step back. Not taking OPKs til six months sounds like a good idea. I might try to stick with you on that one, if I can. It's tough being obsessive like this isn't it. Was actually thinking of getting some TTC CBT to try and chill out a bit. Don't know if this is a good idea though, but it helped with other things like work stress and exams in the past.
@Paddypaws91 which apps are best? I keep reading about them all on here and so confused.
@Charlotte9876 we're both on cycle three, have read somewhere that this is a good cycle for bfps. Don't remember the source though.
@birdshavewings I know what you mean about not wanting to test, before you test there is still a potential baby whileas after you know there isn't and it's gutting. There is something about keeping possibility alive.
Oh @McHelenz - I hate that. It's horrible when DP doesn't want to in fertile time. I felt like a sex monster throwing myself at him last month. It really upset me and made me feel deeply unsexy as well. You are so not a loser. He could be anxious as Paddy said.
Think DP is hugely anxious, while wanting a baby. It's still terrifying for him to think how much it will change our lives, and he has admitted that, though he does want it.
His closest uni friend recently had a gorgeous little boy and I think that while dp is happy part of him is mourning the friendship they had, iyswim?
@Novella12 is right about it feeling like a rejection though.
@limesoda sorry what do you mean by textbook cycles? Mine are between 27 - 29 days, does that mean they are textbook? I always try to DTD on day 14. Would just be really helpful to know. I laughed at your googling randomboob twinges on 5DPO. So will I.
@McHelenz it was good to give him that out, I hope I'd do the same but think it might be difficult at this point. We've waited over a year longer than we were going to due to various health issues/work issues/moving house and delaying again when coming up to 34 would drive me insane.
@birdshavewings AH! just saw update! I am reading thread in a separate window while replying to people and asking questions. That looks really good. When are you home from Japan? It sounds like a beautiful place to be and you can tell your child you found out you were having them there. My parents found out they were having me on holiday in Wales.
@Mylittlebunny that is a great chart, don't use OPKs but like to know when is possible, and that kind of tells me. Day 10 of cycle now, so guessing it is possible I am fertile tomorrow.??
Heading off to work now, and going to try and not check this thread til night. Good luck everyone and sorry for the one big epic post.X