2WW... The longest wait

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Hi, I was just feeling a bit down in my 2ww and wanted to share a bit. I'm trying so hard not to symptom spot but it's impossible.

Im around 7 or 8dpo, I couldn't pinpoint the actual day as LH tests were inconclusive, CM got very watery one day and the next seem thicker so I'm hoping that's when I ovulate. I have sore boobs, slight backache, weird ache very low down in my abdomen, almost like an internal bruise. If I stand, sit or bend then I feel it ache.

Cervix is high and soft, creamy CM, little bit of nausea but that's probably because I'm working myself up... I stupidly did a test this morning which was a bfn so feeling even worse now!

I know everyone else feels the same way but I wish I just knew one way or another... I'm 35 so worried that's affecting my fertility too.

Thanks, just needed to vent a bit x

@helensss it’s ok to obsess and I’m guessing you’ve googled every reason why sticky jean didn’t quite stick, driving yourself practically insane all the while. I and others on here have been in your position. I’ve lost 4 that I know of, the last three all in a row. Now my first m/c - oh my god, it was absolutely the worst time ever. Like you I had been trying (for 12 months at that time), I have a child from a previous but my hub had none of his own. I felt I really let him and his family down and I obsessed to the point whereby my periods did not return. I honestly believe my state of mind did this because I had my first period exactly 1 month after my father passed away - my mind being elsewhere at that time. I began a three month plan of preparing my body for pregnancy. I’m happy to give details of this plan to anyone who wants it. On the day of my first appointment with a fertile consultant I got my BFP and my daughter was born 9 months later. I’m a big advocate for mental health awareness, the brain is a very powerful tool. But please be aware that after a m/c not only can it cause trauma (cos to me whether I’m one day pregnant, 2 weeks or whatever it’s not an ‘embryo’ it’s a ‘baby’), it is something one should grieve for. Most of us will have the baby’s life planned out, be choosing names, thinking about future plans etc, well before the pee stick has dried out. 😂 I do anyway. 😬 But the odds are in your favour for a successful pregnancy this month/next month or next year, especially after a recent m/c. Xxx

DAMN AUTOCORRECT! *Sticky bean not sticky Jean. 😂🤬😂

Ahh thanks @sauty and sorry to hear about your father. Yes please if you are happy to share I’d love to hear. I know I just need to look after myself mentally and physically and hopefully it’ll happen again soon and sticks. (Maybe even has! I’ll test again tomorrow) xx

Hi everyone how are we all today xx

Not too bad, wondering whether I’m pregnant or not, will do the other test tomorrow morning, The dates wouldn’t work though as I’m pretty sure i ovulated 3 weeks ago so the line would be stronger surely, how are you?? Have you done any others today? Xx

@helensss bless ya I get that Hun. Not necessarily I think that was around the time I did and look at me. It takes anything up to 5 days for sperm to get to the egg and then it can take nearly 2 weeks for implantation to happen then Ur HCG has to build up from then. That's what I'm thinking with me. I have another one will upload pic when I am home xx

Just done this one xx

I think I can see a faint line! Not as strong as yesterday’s though? Maybe try and wait and do a digital? I’ve managed to avoid it today but think I’ll do one in the morning, or try wait till Wednesday if I forget tomorrow morning when I’m sleepy and go for a wee 😂 x

@helensss it's much darker in person and also I not tweaked it at all. Tell u something though the sickness can do one lmao. Well done u i keep trying not to but can't help it lol xx

Morning everyone!

Happy late birthday @sauty!

All my symptoms pretty much disappeared yesterday, apart from the odd twinge in my abdomen. Took a FRER this morning but BFN.... af is due Friday but I'm only 9dpo ( I have a short LP) so I guess I won't know till then really but feeling a little down as I got a little hopeful this month.. OH is also convinced as I've been an emotional rollercoaster which is super out of sorts for me

@autismfamily that’s exciting I hope it really is for you! I did a first response this morning but nothing there 😢 so must just be my cycle playing up since my m/c, id only just got it back to normal in January after coming off the pill over a year before. feeling a bit disheartened today xx

@helensss I inboxed you some info did you get it? X

Thank you @dontthinkaboutit1

@sauty oh I hadn’t seen it but have been taking a read through thank you, I didn’t know about all those tips, crazy! One good thing is I do exercise a lot and eat healthy most of the time. I do enjoy red wine though but perhaps I should just cut it out for a while completely xx

@sauty can u send them over to me please xx

Sent it @AutismFamily

How are we doing ladies? Any more tests? I've got my scan this afternoon, can't wait for it but at the same time absolutely bloody petrified they'll tell me something's wrong. No reason to think that, but just with all the losses I've had before my son I can't believe it could be this straightforward with number two.

Good Luck @peasando!!! Everything will be absolutely fine I’m sure and you’ll get to see your baby fit, healthy and growing fine. Don’t forget to show us your scan picture! Xx

Thanks @Sauty, fingers crossed!! x

@peasando I woke up and u was my first thought. Everything thing will be fine sweetheart don't stress yourself with everything all of us on here go through one of us is due some good luck xx

Good luck @peasando!! Let us know, I haven’t done any more tests as I believe my cycle is just adjusting after m/c xxx

Thanks guys. Trying to work and totally failing! Will let you know how it goes xx

Could you ladies help me please and invert this picture I can see a line in person but can't tell if it has ant colour to it I would really appreciate it xx

@Donthaveaclue1 here you go - not sure I can see anything, how many dpo are you?

I wouldn't no I don't have periods I'm on the depo injection but been feeling weird all week had a dodgy stomach an felt sick on and off that's what made me do a test Its definitly there in person my camera is crap @peasando