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New thread!

I go away for one weekend and look what happens!

Congrats!

@Owlpatrol.

@MichaelKnightsCar you sound so much like me... in terms of the hating work but only staying for the maternity pay.

@MichaelKnightsCar I've had my life on hold for at least a year in The hope of "well we will have a baby soon" and then I decided last week to just get on with it and I've applied for new jobs, taken the liberty of booking a holiday and put all my baby stuff up for sale. If that invokes the power of Sod's law... so be it!

I've called my gp today and she explained over the phone that my consultant won't treat me now but I can still see him if I go private and it might move things along a bit quicker.

Don't laugh anyone but I'm going to see my spiritualist medium on Thursday and see what she says. She told me I was pregnant at about 1 week past conception and a hpt didn't pick it up till 8 weeks!

@starwishing Can you ask your medium when my period is going to arrive? No bloody sign of it FFS, and I've got no idea

@starwishing and @MichaelKnightsCar I totally know what you mean about life being on hold. I have no reason to stay working there it's only stat mat leave!!!! Argh

@starwishing dont think youre weird I am a psychic as well....and into all that kind of stuff!

@WonkyDonk87 Ha! That's like mine! Stupid pcos. I'm day 25 now so it could arrive tomorrow or in two weeks time!!

Day 36 for me. Sore massive boobs, yellowy cm, major grumps. Could be tomorrow or could be in 3 months. Ugh.

@WonkyDonk87. I get yellow cm a few days before my period sometimes. I never get sore boobs though - unless I'm pregnant :-( I'm hoping mine isn't too far away as I'm starting clomid next cycle!

Ooh exciting! My friend got upduffed on the first cycle of that. I was very pleased for and insanely jealous of her My acupuncturist said if it's not here by next week she'll adapt the treatment to try and 'bring it on'. That's pretty much the only hope I have atm. Fucking useless CCG

@WonkyDonk87. I'm hoping it will give my lazy ovaries a kick up the arse! I'm not expecting miracles, especially with DH's morphology but at least it will feel like we finally have some kind of chance.

How can they bring it on? Do they put the needles in certain places? I had it after a bad car accident at 14, my skin is hypersensitive so I found it a very unpleasant experience :-(

No bloody idea! But I have literally nothing else to put my faith in at the moment. Can't go back to the GP until September. Going to try temping on the next cycle to try to self-diagnose the issue but fuck knows when that will start. I make guesses at ovulation by cm/spotting, but then when I pass the date I expected FP then every day stretches on making me feel angry and despondent. Doesn't help we've usually tailed off shagging by this point and then I think I ovulated late and then missed it.

@WonkyDonk87. The same thing happens to us! We are ok until about cd21 ish and then we start to flag :-( The idea of ovulating on or near cd14 is like bliss! I got a bit bleary eyed telling DH lol "Do you know what it will feel like to ovulate mid cycle??".

Poor DH! It comes to something when you're just as excited over the idea of ovulating as you would be of getting a bfp I do get fertile looking cm but I think it goes on for too long, I had it for 7 ish days this cycle, so it's probably just random cm!!

Ah bum! Why didn't I delete my apps!

Just (stupidly) went sod it.. and checked what day I am on. Day 12. The day I normally ovulate (roughly.) We didn't have sex last night (I was knackered) and I'm away from DH tonight. Which will mean we will miss it.. cries we had sex sunday..

Ffs I shouldn't have checked.

Pinkemi that’s why I haven’t had apps for about the last 6 months lol. But if you usually ovulate today and you had sex on Sunday then you should still be covered.

I’m on CD7 and having lots of watery fertile cm so I’ve fully decided that I have no idea how my body works and after 18 previous months of careful monitoring, I’ve come to the conclusion that there’s no such thing as normal. If I’d got fp on time, I would be cd10 today which is when I normally start getting a bit of fertile cm so I’m assuming that we’ve just decided to keep my cycles going as normal but just ignoring the glitch in the middle. At least this cycle will be a shorter one

@bubblegum89 I just couldnt bring myself to delete them! I use Clue as a reminder for when AF is due.. mainly so I dont end up ruining knickers! I then have the Femometer app which I was using to track my BBT in the mornings. Didn't want to delete it an lose the history incase I needed it for.. i dunno.. proof to the doctor or something. And then Ovia.. was the one I checked this morning because its really quick and easy to see what date you are on! face palm I guess in reality I could delete this one.. (Hovers over the app) WHY CANT I DO IT!? face palm again

I know its sad.. but Im beginning to think that I wont ever get pregnant.

We have had months were we had sex like everyday in my fertile period... (although I was also drinking a lot back then as it was our honeymoon) And then months where we carefully plan to have sex every other day.. and still.. I have NEVER had a BFP. always stark white bloody pregnancy tests... and the end of this cycle will be a year of TTC. (I know I shouldnt complain because most of you have been trying for longer.. but it just seem so bloody unfair!) And try as I must.. i cant seem to lose weight. Infact i seem to be bloody putting it on.

WHY CANT I GET MY ASS IN GEAR AND MY HEAD IN THE RIGHT FRAME OF MIND?!

Pinkemi I get that too. We’ve had months where we’ve had sex every day in FW, months where we’ve done every other day, some months we haven’t scheduled sex because we were trying to be relaxed and so just had sex when we felt like it. Nothing has worked for us and we haven’t had even a sniff of a bfp in 19 months. It’s so frustrating isn’t it

@pinkemi don’t be so hard on yourself- TTC is a total mind fuck. It messes with your head so much. Not to mention your relationship and sex life. I’ve kept both Clue and Ovia but am trying to be far less obsessed with entering all my data, to try and help me chill out a bit. Last couple of months I’ve been a bit better, but only because I’ve kind of lost all hope of seeing a bfp (20 something cycles in). 💐

Thanks Ladies.. This thread is good because it reminds me that I am not alone. Infertility is never spoken about.. so it just makes you feel like you are the only one going through this problem.. you know?

I guess I'm just frustrated with myself for self sabotaging everything! gah!

I think what doesnt help is that Ive been having a really bad stomach issue for the past couple of weeks.. I know its probably just my IBS flaring up again (Its been stressy at work) Or because I have been eating a lot of crap recently, its my bodies way of saying that it doesn't like something Ive eaten. (Im sure i have food in sensitivities)
But.. Ive been googling " Is this a sign of early pregnancy" EVEN THOUGH i've just had a period and am obviously not pregnant. (sigh)

@pinkemi I have food sensitivities also, mostly with cows milk so my skin and guts go nuts when I’ve eaten stuff I shouldn’t have! But cheese is soooooo good it’s hard to resist. 🧀🤣 Plus when I’m super miserable with TTC and FP it’s a delicious consolation!

@LexieJean.. How did you find out about them? just through trial and error?

Yes @pinkemi pretty much. I had a couple of really bad diarrhoea episodes and my skin was awful (eczema and spots) and did a bit of dr googling. I tried cutting out dairy totally and felt a thousand times better, then slowly reintroduced some things. I wonder if it’s IBS and not a dairy allergy as things like chorizo set it off as well. I’m pretty good at managing it now and will have a splurge when I know I can deal with cramping and toilet trips the next day! I mostly have oat or almond milk atnernatives and used to have soya until TTC.

@LexieJean You sound a lot like me! I need to get back to cutting stuff out.. but yummy naughty treats are just too tempting at the moment. (sigh)

I keep thinking about doing one of these: www.yorktest.com/products/food-drink-scan-test/

But i have read conflicting evidence on if they are actually worth the money or not!

Glad to see others feel the same. I'm close to being reckless and jacking in my safe secure job with amazing benefits.

I feel the same about feeling like it'll never happen. We've done every other day from end of fp to start of next fp. We've done several months of smep, we've done everyday through fw

And I've never even had a snifter of a line on a hpt

There has to be something wrong with either me or husband

Oh and I still have Ovia and FF but I only use them to record period days and the days we shagged.
Otherwise I never even open them or record anything else.
The symptoms are pointless anyway.

Next fp due on Friday when we're at a wedding 🙄