I yam what I yam

[Bubblegum89]

Thread 6... 😑

A safe place for those of you who have been trying to conceive for 6+ months and even yams aren’t helping. Come and have a good ol’ bitch and a moan without judgement. Please read the rules before posting!

The Yam Commandments are as follows;

• Thou shalt not arrive one day and post BFP next day

• Thou shalt not give advice to others when TTC for one month only

• Thou shalt not participate in one-up-manship and realise TTC is shit for everyone in different ways

• Thou shall allow posters to be fucked off with the world and everything in it at regular points in the month

• Thou shalt not be offended by strong language

• Thou shalt not tell everyone to eat yams

• Thou shall accept being called a muppet for testing at 7dpo at 9pm at night

And most importantly...

• Thou shalt not symptom spot during the two week wait and must be prepared for a telling off if you do so.

NEW RULE ALERT!

-Thou shalt not post pictures of positive pregnancy tests. We will be delighted to hear about it but no photos, please and thank you

@SoozC I think after miscarriage periods can be very triggering. Or in general when you don’t want to get them I suppose.

Mine is due on Saturday and I’ve planned to meet a friend for lunch and some shopping. Cramping starting already this month.

@SoozC I cried at school once in front of a class when I got my FP and we were looking at Carol Ann Duffy poetry. However I cry a lot in front of kids. It's like a game now I think...

So I'm having a little cry as we speak. [Sad] FP has made an appearance. Had this twinging feeling.. was like oh no.. rushed from off the sofa to the bathroom and was greeted with pink when I wiped. [Angry] I am so fed up of this shit. Honest to god.. this month I tried to be so blaze (or how ever you spell the damn word) about it all.. thinking if I'm calm.. maybe the fact that we only shagged a couple of times in my fertile period won't matter that much . . Coz I'm all relaxed right.. No wrong.. wrong wrong wrong!!! I get my fucking period regardless! Like every other damn month. [Angry]

Sorry yammers.. I need to go before i exploded. Just so fed up.

Sorry fp showed up pinkemi :( that horrible sinking feeling when you go for a wee and see brown/pink/red on the toilet roll is probably one of the worst feelings in the world and it never gets any easier. I’ve been quietly hopeful about this cycle so when fp shows up, I know I’m going to be a total mess. So there’s that to look forward to! Get some wine and chocolate in for tomorrow night, alcohol always seem to help a teeny tiny bit

I don't think it helps that I'm riddled with a cold at the moment.. so feeling lower than normal. Expected to wake up to normal glow this morning.. But I still have just pink when I wipe. (Sigh) just want it to get on with it now.. stop hanging about. Lol

I feel your pain @Pinkemi, after my AF was three days late, and after telling myself NOT to get my hopes up, I of course got my hopes up. I dared to dream. And then AF appeared in all its horrible, horrible glory this morning.

F**k it, I'm buying wine tonight!

@Pinkemi and @FairyAnn I’m sorry FP arrived. It’s shit.

Been asked to pitch in at an antenatal clinic again next week. Just where I want to be these days!

*flow.. not Glow! Gah.. even my predictive text hates me.

@Pinkemi I get a FP glow! Greasy skin, greasy hair, oily looking!

Actually on the topic of pink wiping- has anyone actually ever had implantation bleeding? You hear it mentioned all the time on mumsnet but any of the several BFPs I’ve had I’ve never had implantation bleeding! With DD I had some first trimester bleeding but it turned out to be a non viable twin.

paranormal.
I’ve never had IB. I get ovulation spotting sometimes ( think EWCM with a blood streak in it) but I genuinely don’t know anyone IRL who has had it

@pink so sorry fp arrived, huge hugs. This one has knocked me for six. I feel exhausted and emotional and fp buggered off days ago. Hugs hugs and all the wine.

@paranormal I’ve never had IB but a woman on my baby group had a full on 3 day period and then realised she was pregnant just after. Her story is always what makes me want to test after fp just in case.

Sorry for fp guys.

My one bfp I had no spotting at all leading up to it, definitely not ib.

I have had a couple of moments since last weekend where I was totally convinced I was pregnant (ov'd Sunday). No idea why I should be so convinced but let's face it, it's a load of bullshit to think women's intuition plays any part in this. Ffs, I'm only 5dpo - my body has no idea if anything has happened yet so my mind certainly can't have any inside knowledge.

@MynameisJune interesting, I’ve always thought it might be a myth. So perhaps it exists but is very rare. With all my bfps I’ve felt pretty much the same during 2ww although possibly less irritable. Although as I implanting duds it may just be related to that!

Sorry for FP girls. I didn't get my ov line till Sunday night so only 2dpo which means I'm still a normal person with no hope 😆

@Pinkemi. @FairyAnn Sorry for FP ladies x x

Sorry for the FPs turning up . Definitely get the wine in.

The one before last hit me really hard as it was the last chance before a year TTC and I spent three hours hiding under the duvet sobbing until husband coaxed me out.
Last one (end of cycle 12 and bye bye 2018 baby) arrived with comically bad timing so there were less tears but it still felt like a "kick you when you're down" situation.

@Paranormalbouquet HAHAH yes quite! perhaps Glow was appropriate after all.

I have never had Implantation bleeding.. but then I have never been pregnant.. so that's probably why. Saying that.. my friends and family who have been preggers never mentioned it either.

@MynameisJune 3 day period and then pregnant? Oh god.. now im going to want to test after this has finished! haha

I was home alone last night so was sobbing under my duvet. Really didnt want to get up this morning. Just seems like SUCH a kick in the teeth.. 4 days late and then "oh hello im here!"

Ironically.. my Accupuncturist text me this morning asking if everything was okay as she knew i was due to start on Mon / Tues. I was like.. "So i was going to test this morning but no point as FP started properly this morning... 4 days late!" Weirdly she told me to keep my hopes up.. because from her point of view.. its quite encouraging as it means we are a small step closer to the prize.

Not quite sure what she means by that..

oh and she also told me to not get stressed out. (She knows me so well!) Basically pick myself up and start again. (Sigh)

Sorry FP got some of you. I'm due today or tomorrow. Just want it over with.

My Mum had what she thought were normal periods for first couple of months when pregnant with me - so didn't realise! It means that even when I get FP there is still hope in the back of my head and I have to do a test to be sure (before hitting the wine!), even though I know it's unlikely!

Sooz I’ve been the same this cycle but I just don’t know why because I know that nothing I’m experiencing right now is at all related.

So I’ve decided I’m not re-ovulating lol still getting loads of watery cm but it’s milky not clear. I genuinely keep thinking fp has started with all the dampness. I think that it’s something to do with my SIS/HyCoSy. I don’t know if it’s possible, it probably isn’t, but with the fact I’ve suddenly started getting ewcm AND a slightly bettter period flow since the procedures, I’m wondering if I maybe had some kind of small blockage in my cervix which has since been cleared as everything seems to be finding it much easier to escape lol. So with all this extra cm I’m getting, it would make sense right? Or it could all be coincidence...

@Bubblegum89 I’ve had lots of creamy CM this month and last too; I’m hoping that my d+c may have cleared some adhesions from my short scarred useless cervix. And have had a better flow for last period too. So I think your reasoning makes perfect sense!

Paranormal maybe that’s good news for both of us then :) I went 16 months with no ewcm then had those procedures done in Feb and in the two months since, I have had ewcm both times. Can’t be coincidence surely? I do know some people conceive soon after a HyCoSy as the dye can flush away any small blockages/minor scar tissue so maybe a SIS or other procedures that start with something being shoved into your cervix and into your uterus can do the same? It would make sense I guess. Not that I’m holding out any hope at all. Last month my period was better (not brown, less spotting, wasn’t on and off but was a constant flow for two whole days) but I also got loads and loads of weird fleshy tissue coming out in the days after my flow so everything is coming out of me that had never done so before (sorry, that’s why I’m the queen of tmi lol)

@Bubblegum89 I had better flow last month too, having had very light periods since DD was born. And here I am using condoms this month!!

This blog has been cheering me up today!:

honestlyinfertile.wordpress.com/

I need to summon all my yammer strength for tomorrow - FP due AND spending day with newly preggo pal.

@bubble did you ask the doc what all the fleshy tissue falling out of you was all about? It sounds like your cycles are much ‘better’ since your tests and you’re free to flow! 🤞 this also means now some swimmers can get up there and do their stuff 😂

Sorry for all the FP ladies. Seems like there’s going to be lots of wine and choc (sugar free for some of you obvs) consumed this weekend 🍷

I’ve just had a massive mini meltdown thinking ive missed delivery of some test result copies from the nhs and it would mean postponing ivf a cycle. This followed an unsuccessful shopping trip to find a wedding outfit. Obviously I left buying a dress until the last minute cause you know, I might be pregnant and need a looser style fucking idiot so now have nothing to wear. 🤦‍♀️