TTC after pregnancy loss. Thread 17. New Year, new hope for all!

[Primrose16]

Oops the other one got full before new one made. Kept the same name to make it easier to find.

@Boboelephant i'm 15DPO today. How about you?

Good luck to everyone!

Ooh @PumpkinPatch000 yes I remember now. I asked you the other day. Did you end up taking a test? If not when do you thibk you will?
Haha I'm only 2dpo! Although it's not far off Tuesday now so almost 3dpo! 🤣🤣

Omg @PumpkinPatch000 have you tested? If not you've got the willpower of a ninja!!!

I'm 8dpo and of course promised I wouldn't test them caved!!! Haha. And of course negative. Woke up mega early around 6am and temp was low. Went back to sleep for 3 hours woke up at 9.15 and temp was sky high. So no idea WHATS going on! So I tested. And of course it was so bright white!! 🙈🤣

That's my pup!!! The little face you can see. He's a St. Bernard, so will only be little for a few more weeks!! Haha!!

@Cakelaur I also tested today, bfn still brown spotting though and got cramps so god knows what's going on, I'll probably test everyday until AF
OMG look at that cutie!! What's his name??

@cakelaur I find temping difficult, especially in winter. I sleep with a 13.5 tog duvet, fleece pj’s and a hot water bottle...I feel the cold. So my temp in the morning can sometimes be dependant on if I’m still snuggled up or kicked it all off!
So much love for your puppy 😍 I’ve attached a photo of our not so small anymore puppy! She has really picked my mood up with all the going ons! They are such a delight!

@boboelephant I have my acupuncture appointment tonight and I’m meant to ovulate thurs/fri so fingers crossed!

Hope everyone is getting on well and sorry if you are going through a rough patch...i find it comes and goes depending on what stage I am in my cycle.

Did anyone have a mid-cycle bleed after MC? Never had anything mid cycle before and obviously it’s starting to freak me out and googling never helps!

Just 7dpo and 4 days early AF has arrived. I thought my body was fixed, the shortest cycle I've ever had of 25 days, anyone else having issues with their bodies going back to normal?

@DaisyMay25 I just wrote a whole different message to you and then saw that AF has showed up. How many cycles past mc is it? My first one after mc was long but I ovulated late around cd19 and then only got to 9dpo which was a shorter lp than normal. Even my second cycle this month is off. I ovulated cd10 which is about 5 days early. Hopefully it'll sort itself out now af is here. Sorry she arrived... sending hugs.

Puppy is gonna be called teddy!! Aka Sir Tedward Bear 🐻🐶

@Claire138 omg!! She's gorgeous!!! What a cutie pie!! Love her little face!!! I can't wait to get our boy. I've wanted a puppy for as long as I've wanted a baby!! Haha! I thought I had the best luck in the world. Puppy in April, baby in August... someone obviously thought that was too many good things in one year!!! 😞 but you never know. March could be the month!! November babies... 🤞

I'm not sleeping very well at the mo, which doesn't help with temping. Keep waking up thinking I haven't temped. Or having weird dreams. I dreamt that I slept with my hubby then sat up and gave birth to a placenta with no baby a few nights ago. Obviously the mc is always on my mind.

@Cakelaur this is my sixth cycle since mc. First three were normal, missed the fourth completely then fifth was fine now this. Last time my doctor told me it takes six months for your body to go back to normal so hopefully it's settle down now. At least I'm on a new cycle I guess. Just gonna take some pain killers and nap it off today.
What a cute name!! I bet you can't wait for puppy cuddles!
I went to a cat cafe the other day, all those kittens brightened my week!

@dulwichdays unfortunately your af is going to be all over the place after mc. But yes stay away from google, it's never good!

Can someone tell me not to symptom spot plesse!

@Primrose16 stop symptom spotting lol.

@dulwich I had mid cycle spotting for two cycles (2nd and 3rd proper cycles after MC). But last cycle nothing so hopefully it works itself out.

@daisy I have had a shorter luteal phase since MC. It's improved by a day or two over 3 cycles. I take b6 and vit C (high dose) to help with progesterone levels, which can be the cause of short luteal phase. I'm onto cycle 5 post MC now, knowing the two fortnight cycles straight after.

I have serious puppy envy now. They are so cute!! When I first met dh he was really scared of dogs due to an incident when he was a child. Now though I think he wants one more than I do!!

Oh @DaisyMay25 that is rubbish! Are you sure when you ovulated? Hope it all sorts itself soon!
Sorry you got a bfn too @cakelaur although definitely not out at 8dpo!! 🤣 jealous of your sleep in! Every day for me is 6am 😪 Hope you sleep better soon though and those dreams stop. Defi your subconscious in overdrive I think!
@Claire138 good luck for tonight. Hope you enjoy it and ovulate soon!
Gorgeous puppies ladies!! ❤❤
@dulwichdays it can be all over the place. I had a mid cycle bleed just for a few hours before ovulation. I heard that when the body prepares to ovulate the cervix pushes down and releases any old blood.
@Primrose16 haha wish I could but I'm doing it at 3dpo. Sneezing is a pregnancy symptom right?? 🤣🤣

Big temperature dip and spotting today, so looks like first AF post-MMC is sadly on the way (cd35). Will try and be positive and think this is my body preparing to TTC again, and sounds like I'm lucky I'm only 6 days late compared to some. But for today, I'm 😭+🍷+🥡+🍫

Can I join the "symptoms spotting too early sub group!?"
3 DPO and convinced the boobs are killing

@boboelephant ha ha sneezing!
Thanks @hidcat

I had some pinky discharge today. Cd 25, af might be on the way. I also think I have thrush! Gah!

Sorry @Llondbol. Enjoy the wine!!
Haha mine too @weasledee!! Defi a sign at 3dpo!! 😂 I know @Primrose16!! I even almost googled it. Seriously lost it!!! When do you think you ovulated if you're cd25? Could be implantation spotting!? 🤞🤞 Although boo for the thrush!

Thanks everyone :) It wasn't the greatest scan ever. Did anyone else have a minute of flashback when they sat on the table for their follow up scan?

They checked me out and there is still "something" in my uterus. It looks like the blood clot is still there (which is weird because that's one reason they wanted the d&c was to make sure that the blood clot was gone?).

So, i'm back in the waiting game. They wont release me because there's still something there so I have to go back in 3 weeks and they'll discuss next steps. It feels weird like i'm stuck in a purgatory of not being able to move on to try and conceive whilst they're still investigating what it could be.

@Cakelaur - St Bernards are so cute!

@hortonlovesahoo 😢 3 weeks, why so long?

@boboelehant not sure maybe around 24/25th Feb but honestly don’t know. That’s if I ovulated. I think you can get ewcm and still not ovulate

@primrose16: I have no idea :( your guess is as good as mine

@Hortonlovesahoo I'm so sorry. Could you push them to redo the D&C?

Hi ladies...

@Hortonlovesahoo that's so shit. I'm so sorry!!!
@Boboelephant sneezing is defo a sign! Haha.
I've given up and I'm drinking wine... 8dpo... I'm home alone.... drinking wine and I've started a blog. Currently writing all the stuff from the last year... then I can go to bed with it all up to date.
It's called ttcabiggerhousehold.blogspot.co.uk if anyone is interested. Although you all know most of my story from here anyway.

@Primrose16 you can only symptom spot if you share.

@Daffodil77 did you have diagnosed progesterone issues? I think I have. Not diagnosed though. was considering a cream but don't want to make things worse.

@Llondbol sorry for af. I'm drinking with ya, even though I'm 8dpo. But I've given up being good!!

@Hortonlovesahoo that's really crap. 😣 I would try and push for a bit earlier too if possible.
Haha @Cakelaur thanks. I'm sure I'll fijnd another ridiculous symptom today! 🤣 Good on you for the blog, it helps to get it all out. Also I hope you enjoyed the wine! I don't think you can do much damage at this point! The doc told me the baby really only starts getting your stuff from 6 weeks so I reckon until that test is positive it's fine. Especially if it relaxes you! The waiting us tough!!

I went to therapy last night and she reckons that I am too hard on myself. She said i try to hard too not have constant thoughts about getting pregnant and said that she thinks anyone in my situation would feel the same. I said that none of my friends have had so much trouble so I didn't think they really got it and only you girls might. So she said I should share some of my worries on here and see if I am alone like I sometimes feel. So here goes...
I worry how much longer I can hope only to be let down. I feel that every month I get my hopes higher and so the fall has to be further. I worry about what happens when I have fallen too far and I can't be optimistic anymore. I feel like a terrible person for begrudging others who fall pregnant and have babies quickly and easily. I dread hearing my friends got pregnant before me if I know they haven't been trying long. I worry that I don't think about anything but getting pregnant all the damn time!!

Please tell me I'm not alone!!

@Boboelephant im so glad tosee this (in an ironic way) as i am the exact same! My life is totally engulfed by wanting to get preg, googling everything to see what will help & the irony is anytime i have got preg its prob been when ive had a f**k it month!! Cant even bear to look at my preg friends at the minute including my best friend & my begrudging i think will damage our friendship as im avoiding her but if i try to forget about them being preg it helps me. So you are definitely not alone i have every worry that you have mentioned 🙄