I want another. DH doesnt

[Fishwifey]

I’m aching for another baby. We have 3 DC but it’s killing me not having another. All my pregnancies have ended with very premature birth but all DC are healthy.
I’ve recently talked to DH about possibly wanting another and he’s said absolutely not. No chance. I haven’t dared tell him how I’m feeling as I know this wouldn’t change his mind.
Obviously it’s not an option to leave him for someone else who wants children because we already have 3 and I wouldn’t want a baby with anyone but him. I’m a stay at home mom and babies/kids is my life. I can’t imagine not having another but I’m not getting any younger so it’s a now or never scenario
Do I just forget about this?

Thanks Bandha. That all makes sense x

I do empathise, we all have the urge to procreate and in women especially, this instinct should not be underestimated. But it's important to realise that many many women (and men) have to accept that perhaps they can't have any more children.