I'm 4dp5dt & stupidly did a cheapo Willkos test at lunchtime which was neg...
I know I know that's too early, and not even first thing in the morning, I'm behaving like a novice
- I'm an idiot for trying at this stage aren't I?? [OTD according to hospital is next Friday ffs!]
Please come and tell me to ignore it and not lose my positivity! Especially if you got early BFNs that turned into BFPs 
After 6 years trying this is our last shot - we had stopped altogether 3 years ago but giving it one last try with DE...