Hi Ladies,
I haven't been around for a little while because basically I've been in an emotional breakdown situation.
I don't know if you remember but I thought I had a miscarriage after losing a very large blood clot on CD44 when my usual cycle is 31 days. I passed this clot after two hours of severe cramping, anyway a blood test shows it wasn't a pregnancy and the fertility nurse says it must have been just a heavy period. As sad as I would have been at having a MC I was holding out hope at actually being able to conceive naturally, but that hope has now gone and replaced with an emotional breakdown.
I am still waiting for my AMH results to see if I can be considered for egg sharing to fund my IVF journey as we have been told ICIS IVF is our only hope due to PCOS and DH low sperm count. Your news is promising Ellie , can I ask how long between test, the age of DH and did he make any lifestyle changes?
I have had my tracked cycle today and they could see a collapsed area on my left ovary that looked like I may have ovulated yesterday, today is day 15 so it would be early for me so they are re_testing my progesterone on Monday and then hopefully AF (or not if I get a miracle pregnancy) the following Monday. I am.booked in on 22nd May to discuss results and also to follow up on some very unsettling findings today. They were unable to find my right ovary today (the 2nd time this has happened) this can happen on occasion but very rare for it to be recurring so I asked questions as I had a cyst removed from my right ovary in 2014 but I was told the op was very successful and routine and I kept all of my ovary. They pulled up my surgery discharge letter which confirmed this however the clinic notes suggested a ruptured ovary was removed so a conflict in information and I am mortified that I may have lost an ovary and reduced my chances further without being informed by the surgeon. I may have to have a laparoscopy to confirm if I have a right ovary 😢. I'm on emotional overload today. They have booked me in for a counselling session on 17th May as I'm struggling. It's great to come here and vent to fellow understanding peeps, I'm fed up of people trying to put a positive spin on things when they have no clue of what we are going through. Sometimes I just want to let out my negativity with a big cry. I need people to say sorry and offer a cuddle, not unqualified advice!!!
I am turning into a bitter person I do not recognise or like. A lady from work on maternity leave brought her baby into work last week to meet us all and I couldn't bring myself to go over, a cuddle would have set me off again. I messaged her after to explain and thankfully she understood and didn't think I was being a bitch.
Congrats to everyone on the BFP, especially Boggle and summer who have offered advice on my previous posts. Wishing BFPs soon and big hugs to the rest of us struggling. It's shit and puts a strain on our entire world xxx