want to ttc but nervous! anyone else?

[Greentriangle82]

Have been thinking about ttc #3 for a while now and the only thing stopping me is my nerves! Will be classed as high risk after previous losses and complications. Had great care with my 2 children plenty of scans and reassurance. Anyone else ttc knowing they are high risk of ttc and nervous?

Yes we're ttc #1 but have a terrible obstetric history. My mum miscarried about 7 times including 3rd trimester. My sister and her baby almost died as baby had iugr due to placental thromboembolism and then she had a crash section in the middle of the night and haemorrhaged. Baby spent a month on sbcu.
I also work on a NICU so am surrounded by sick and potentially dying babies every day and it scares the hell out of me.