Hut of Gl/Doom tercera- We hate babydust and we don't care.

[duchesse]

I'm imaging this one as more of an Eeyore stick hut type thing. Maybe Eeyore is actually still in residence.

my moods seem to be all over the place, but there's somewhere for me however I feel!

We seem to have swapped our debauched consumption of alcohol and non prescription substances for the sweet stickiness of cake and sweets, recently. Not sure what that says about our mood.

Tuna fish and mashed potato, anyone? Ultimate comfort food, especially if you can get Clover Leaf Thai style tuna, which sadly I can't here...

Beansprout, don't s'ppose you got any dark choc did you? Or Maya Gold? Or even their espresso chocolate?

and- pepperpots, nothing you can say will bring down this thread. It's made of sterner stuff than the average thread. No bottling (up) required either.

Bloody hell, it's been busy here!

Plummymummy - am too fucked off with work. Too complicated to go into, but I was ready to tell our ops director to stuff this fucking job where the sun never shines, because I want to be out of this company before we get prosecuted by the HSE.
Only things that held me back was the fact I'd be leaving my boss (who agrees with me) and my minions in the shit. Plus I need the money on the off chance that I might actually have a baby (yeah, right).
Plus we've had a line fault on our broadband for the last couple of days at work so we've no internet, email, access to the remote databases, and to top it off can't get on the local file server where all my essential files are kept. FUCKING BT!!!!!!

fucking existance!

got a tiny bit of good news, my counsellor has said that he'll write a report to back up my clain for negligence, stating how seriously my mental health was affected by the conditions of noahs birth and the post op complications!

the thing is, i dont want their fucking money, i want my babies!

Morning all.
Duchesse - I have 7 bars of G&B dark chocolate, just for you. And a bottle of vodka. And a nice wrap.

Lissie - in the scheme of things, that is good news, so I hope the report can help things along.

Pepper - if you are miserable, and have git-esque tendencies, this thread is where is at. In the words of Aguilera, "words won't bring us down" Moan and rant away.

I'm on day nine so am coming up to the business end of the month (again). Oh that I could even be bothered to shag, but I appreciate that when it comes to actually getting pregnant, needs must and all that.

Hi Beaniebabes, ta for the choc. Good luck with the duty shagging, gal. Girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do.

I just know that phrase will be ringing around my head when it comes to the crunch!

Oh my goodness, there's a crunch??? No wonder it's only duty shagging. I've heard of lying back and thinking of Laos, but that is ridiculous.

Catbabymummy I know how you feel. It's shit isn't it. I would love to go part-time (not that we can afford it - but if there was any way we could swing it I would)but I want full-time maternity rights which are quite good in the NHS. It's a catch 22 because I am starting to think my job is too stressful for my body to handle a pg as it should. As for the HSE - dread to think what they would make of some of the issues where I work.

Plummy, can you ask to move to a less stressful position in your organisation? Is it worth telling your boss that you are suffering from severe health-affecting stress?

Morning all! Just popping in to say hello and see what is going on.

Catbabymummy and Plummymummy - I am sure that stress has a big effect on your ability to conceive and have a successful pg. With both of my m/c, my stress levels were extremely high (due to finding out what a mess dh had got himself into financially) directly before I m/c. And I had a friend in Oz who had a very stressful job, went away for an extended holiday and fell pg whilst there. She swore it was because she was relaxed. Perhaps you need to persuade your dp's to treat you to a luxury break somewhere warm!!

Lissie - sounds promising in terms of a case against the NHS. Can't remember who said it, but I'm sure you can get them to give you IVF treatment as part of a settlement, but you will need to ensure that you specify successful IVF treatment resulting in a live birth...

Right, I shall take myself off now as I have no doom and gloom to share today - we have beautiful sunshine in London today so it's hard to feel down. Finally feel like winter is coming to an end!

Hmmm, I've been trying to ignore all the comments about stress affecting fertility because I know I'm a stress bunny, who for some reason thought that a good time to ttc would be do while trying to change career (involving doing A levels at night school and getting voluntary work) at the same time as working full time job and trying to be great ever-present mum to a sleep-repellant baby...

Unfortunately, the only thing I'm interested in cutting out of this ridiculous life is my job, and that just cannot be! Unless I come into some money. Hmm, would-you-or-wouldn't-you for a million pounds? I definately would, for far less

Oh Bolllllllllllocks. Period arrived today. Not that there was any real hope of being pregnant. However, being a complete glutton for punishment, my brain still seems to convince me every month that it might happen.

Cried today about it for the first time since we had dd 2.3 years ago. So far I've managed to keep telling myself that it doesn't really matter because we have dd.

Sadly, it really does matter.

Pass the vodka, tequila and champagne. Tequila Royale anyone?

Oh go on. I'm reet fed up this up this evening.

arrives, plonks self down and dunks hunk of dark choc in glass of champagne

I'm halfway through a glass of wine, and have just begun my customary 2W panic phase, during which I convince myself that I don't want a baby at all, until just before the period starts, when I get really hopeful, only to be dashed again when it does start. I don't understand why I spend 2.5 weeks every month yearning for a baby, then ten days panicking in case I am pregnant, then go back to being desperate to be pregnant. Have a nasty feeling it may be hormones playing tricks on me. Am seriously, seriously thinking of giving up trying any more.

I want the hot choc that that 68yr old lady in Carlisle has

AM I/AREN'T I TEDIUM ALERT Feel free to ignore and/or cyber-slap me as you fancy.

Felt all pre-period today. But decided to self-harm myself by doing a pregnancy test anyway. You know, BECAUSE THAT'S WHAT WE DO. No line. Plummetted into despair. But of course continued to strain eyeballs and lo! and behold! 20mins later we see a line. I've had this before, and I'm familiar with the advice to ignore anything after 10mins evaporation lines are out there to attack the hopeful. But this line is fat and pink. But fatter than the control line. It's still there. Still pink. (My evap lines have always been grey and v thin.)

Today is 14 days after my miraculous LH line (god, doesn't that seem aeons ago..?), and now here's another confusion. I'm always 16 days from my tweaks and maximum oozage signs to period, which would be today. But when I used to do the ov tests ages ago the tweaks etc would be same day as LH, so 16 days from LH makes period due Saturday. So I don't actually know whether I should be excited that I'm not yet bleeding, or get my mooncup in the pan ready for Saturday. I know that what a sensible person would advise would be to wait another couple of days, see if I get my period, do another test if not, and try to chill out in the meantime. Pah!! As if I can do that!!!

So ladies, anyone got some non-sensible advise that will nonetheless help me regain the plot somewhat?

try another test 1st thing tomorrow!

fingers crossed for you!

Duchesse, give up. Then you'll conceive triplets.

Wait.

And gnaw your fingers.

I know I am for you now.

passes virtual "fairy cakes"

and then quads! that you wont even know youre carrying

And shall, I daresay, accidentally birth in a mountain stream, and saddle with ridiculous combinations of made-up names.

Wait wait wait. AAaaargh!!!!!! that was only 3 seconds!

Now try the gnawing, girl.