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[MotherOfBeagles]

Hi ladies!

Sorry I didn't want to lose you all as at the in law weekend so thought I'd start a new one!

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Tee sorry to hear AF arrived early. have you counted back from your usual LP length to see if there a possibility that u ovulated early? Glad you are on a positive note and it might be better to start afresh. Sending hugs your way and hope it hasn't spoilt your Christmas. Have a good drink

Oh no beagles hope you feel better. Not good timing to be getting ill. Hope it doesn't spoil your festivities.

Kate yes I have countryside, right on my door step! so we all went for walk yesterday. Very much sad, and feeling exhausted.
I might see the GP next week if I can't sleep properly still as I keep waking up at 2 ish and can't get back to sleep. She may be able to prescribe something to knock me out. I just want to sleep.

Hey everyone else X

Just read back and seen I mis understood your message durez- u were having nose bleed! Ooops clearly I need sleep. Hope u are ok now?

Glad you had a good day despite af tee hopefully you'll have a more normal cycle this month and be ready to conceive again

Sorry you're not sleeping footy that's got to be the fastest way to feel fairly terrible. Grab some rest during the day if you can. I still can't believe he's putting you through this at Christmas

I've got slightly sore boobs and white cm so have ovulated. We DTD on days 11, 14 and 17 and I got my positive OPK on day 15. Hopefully we are covered! It's half as much DTD as we usually have.

Hopefully can distract myself in TWW now

I'm still spotting today so looks like AF will arrive as planned tomorrow. I feel a little gutted, but onto the next one.

Hey ladies. Hope you all had a wonderful Xmas!!! I'm now 9 days late, I just took a pregnancy teat and still bfn. I'm going to be calling the doctors tomorrow for an appointment because at this point I don't know what to think and I'm starting to freak myself out that it might be an eptopic as they don't always show on a test as positive. I'm my 15ish years of having a period I can never ever remember a time where I was later than 31days as I am normally 29 but can sometimes run over by a couple days. I'm at 41 tomorrow. I'm also extremely nauseous exactly as I was when pregnant with my first dc to the point where it's waking me up in the middle of the night! Does anyone have any advice? I just don't really know what to think.

Oh Young how confusing! Definitely best to make an app with the Doc.
DuRez, sorry it looks like AF starting, we can be cycle buddies this month!
Jam, time to relax now! I came across this article about 2ww. Found it helpful and wonder if you will too. Some quite nice reflection points about how you're carrying stress etc...
natural-fertility-info.com/two-week-wait.html
Footy, how are things today?? Hope Doc can give you something to help sleep. You need your strength!
Beagles hope you get a chance to relax tomorrow!

CD2 AF quite intense, after effect of MC no doubt! I've decided I really need to concentrate on replenishing my uterine lining. Lots of foods with iron going on the shopping list!! Really want a January bfp!!

Young it's prob best to get checked out esp if u feel nauseous too. Unless u ovulated later than u thought, although if u usually are regular then that would b odd. Have u tried a digital test? Or frer? Hope u are ok. X

durez sorry if AF on way x

Tee- i can imagine your AF might be heavier this time. Hope it eases off soon.
I'm not good tbh, we spoke today on phone but feel very much under attack of everything that I've ever said wrong. Even if I agree with everything he says I still think it won't b good enough. Words can't describe how I feel right now. Feel v hopeless as think he has some real big issues in his head and he's being v selfish which I don't think will ever change and don't think I can recover from how he's made me feel.

Really don't want to bring this board down with my misery, so you are welcome to message me instead if you want to. Xx

Beagles - sorry to hear you have been poorly hope you are feeling better or at least on the mend now x

Tee - my first AF after mmc was really painful when usually I don't suffer too much (was also very light and short but I had an MVA to remove everything). Hopefully next cycle you'll have a BFP instead!

Jam - hope the remaining holiday season will distract you, FX for a new year BFP! Sounds like you hit it spot on!

Durez - how are you doing?

Young - hope you are OK it all sounds quite strange, am hoping you have a shy bean who is taking a while to show xx

Footy - if you are happy to share I'm happy to listen. It must be so tough and such an awful time of the year too, just remember to put yourself first and look after yourself. You don't have enough to rush into any decisions, one day at a time xx

So am feeling better about things now sounds weird but first AF after mmc was so short and light but very painful it didn't feel right (sorry if to much info) but this time AF was much more normal for me so feel somewhat cleansed in a weird way. Also fertility dr has been in touch and seems from before BFP and now I have longer cycles so ovulate around day 20.
Usually our advised window is day 10-17 so guessing we shift it now to days 13- 22 ish ?!!

Still spotting, no difference! Just want to get on with it now and onto a new cycle.

I seem to have regular 21 day cycles at the moment so thinking I may ovulate much sooner than I thought.

Sending you hugs and strength footy I hope you stick with us but understand if you need to step away. I hope you find a resolution that will make you happy hon.

Thanks for the link tee I think I do need to take better care in the TWW. I think I'll cut down alcohol even more in the new year. Good idea to focus on getting your body ready.

Kiki do you use ovulation tests to help pinpoint it?

How frustrating durez hope you get some resolution either way

Nope all still the same at this end!

footy sorry to hear you still aren't sleeping, have you booked to go see gp?

jam fingers crossed for you now! Think sticky thoughts! You managing to stay relaxed so far?

durez ugh hate that when you know it's coming but it won't hurry up!

young I was 10 days late before I got my bfp and I know some women take longer. Hopefully the docs will have some more answers for you.

tee sorry AF is being horrible, it really knocks it out of you doesn't it. I've been taking epo this cycle and my AF was a lot easier. Not sure if it's linked.

kiki can you try to just dtd every other day and go that way? Do you track temps or anything? If not I think those days sound about right but I'd add a few more days on the end just to be safe.

Think I've got another bloody respiratory infection. So pissed off. If I have thatll be since September I've been ill with this crap. Ugh. Still no dtd as dh is still unwell. Oh well I've made up for it bus spending a fortune on clothes and books.

Oh beagles you poor love, can you get to your gp? Focus on getting stronger and well, your health comes before BFP!

I'm doing fine, thinking about it a lot. It's this time of year, being around family etc. I want it to happen so so much ☹️ I'm so tired of waiting , I can't believe it was this time a year ago that we started trying, all excited. Never imagined for a second that a year on we would be in the same position. My family are quite good about it, Mum hasn't brought it up over Christmas. She's a bit dismissive of "trying" as she conceived four times without trying at all 🙄 My big sister has annoyed me a bit. She's had a bit of a tough time with relationships and has mostly been single over the last 5-10 years. It can't have been easy seeing me get married. I get a tiny feeling that she's not pleased I haven't conceived - but this kind of sense of feeling glad it hasn't been easy for us? She KEEPS mentioning babies and her friends kids all the time in front of us too, even though both of us go quiet 🙄

Any that's enough rambling from me! What's Christmas without the old family niggles?!

This has been a very strangle cycle for me... I usually spot for 2 days then AF arrives for around 4 days. I have been lightly spotting now for 3 days and it's getting lighter Just want to start our third cycle now

That is weird durez is it just spotting when you wipe or really light?

jam glad your mums been good about it. Although your sister sounds like she needs to think about what she's saying and doing. Can you talk to her? Just have a heart to heart?

Doc won't do anything. I've have 3 mega rounds of antibiotics since October so they won't give me anything else. Just have to tough it out. I know what you mean about the difference a year makes. I write a blog and did a post on Christmas Day about the difference between starting trying and a few months in. It's heartbreaking if you don't fight it isn't it.

Just spotting when wiping at the moment... very bizarre but then nothing is straight forwards in this journey is it!

Durez I spotted for about 5 days before AF which was weird last cycle then suddenly it got heavier now a period that's lasted over a week and only just tailing off now. Might just be a freak cycle? Stress?

Jam- is hard over Christmas I get that. Christmas brings out the emotions of family for sure. Better time for a BFP from now though as your bub will be one of the eldest in their school year! Plus u can pop in cooler climate of sept onwards. Don't lose hope x

Beagles - hope u feel better soon. Take care not to get pneumonia after a few chest infections! Do u think u ovulated yet?

You can say that again durez that is really weird, I hope something happens soon to give you an answer.

footy I haven't got a clue. Stopped doing OPKs because of Christmas and stopped taking epo because I forgot whilst away. Now I'm home and keep forgetting lol. By my temps are a mess, which kind of makes sense my sleeping pattern has been all over the place and sleeping in different places hasn't helped. But it's still really low so I'm guessing not. Doesn't make a difference as it'd be the immaculate conception to get a bfp this month. I know I am really worried about it escalating but not much I can do really just try and look after myself as best I can. How are you doing this fine evening?

Durez have you tested?

Beagles that's funny I was thinking about starting a blog today. I'm a bit worried it'll turn into a major rant sad fest of repeated WHY am I not pregnant still??

I cannot believe that we've had 13 cycles of absolutely nothing. The GP says his low morphology result means nothing, but how can it? Is it really normal for it to take this long? I can't believe I've never ever seen a positive line. Big fat nothing!

Gah I'm just raging about it tonight! 😠

Why don't you London? Mines anonymous my dh knows about it but just because I like someone to check my spelling lol. I also have a twitter account and an instagram but that's because I do book and clothes reviews too (just starting out nothing fancy). But it's somewhere you can talk about how your feeling and rant if you need to. There will definitely be others out there in the same place as you and you never know you might help someone else. Mumsnet has a blog section but I struggle to understand it lol - working on it though! If you want any help or advice just pm me

Jam I'm with you there. I was so excited this time last year thinking 'oh yeah, I'm about to be pregnant!' God I had no idea! Kept thinking on Christmas Day about that announcement we were supposed to be making.
My twin was over yesterday and stayed the night with her OH & DD. I felt baby kicking, it was sooooo lovely. My heart could have burst with excitement for meeting him and broodiness for myself. Her bump is so gorgeous.
Beagles look after yourself! When are you back to work?? Hope you can stay wrapped up under a duvet.
DuRez wonder what this is all about? Really hope it works itself out, it's horrible second guessing what's going on!
Sorry you're having such a difficult time Footy, you must still be in shock. It's still all so recent. Take each day as it comes, I'm sure it feels overwhelming to look too far ahead just now. Try and stay present for your boys, and the future will work itself out. Hope you're ok.
Kiki glad you feel better about this cycle. My periods were weird for about 7 months after my first MC (heavy clots, only last 2 days, then spot for a day...), so I was feeling really anxious the same would happen this time. Started off feeling intense (could have been all the Christmas grub!), but actually AF has been fairly normal! 3 days of medium flow, so I'm feeling quite happy and excited about that!! Researched all the best foods for feeding the uterine lining (will attach in case anyone else interested). Had broccoli cheese with brussel sprouts, asparagus and green beans for dinner. Then almonds and pomegranate for pudding, lol! Also picked up a packet of Seven Sea 'trying for a baby' supplements.
Sorry anyone I missed!
Jodders, Radders etc, if you still read, I hope your bumps are blooming! Love to baby Parney! Nim, how are you??

Here's the list!
PS. Jam sounds like sis might be a little jealous, you already have the marriage, she will probably feel left behind when you have your baby, but that's quite a selfish attitude! Competition between sisters can be ugly unfortunately xx

I might think about it in the new year beagles especially when we get our first appointment at the fertility hospital, that's going to be a lot to process

Thanks for the list tee 🙂 that's lovely you share so much in your sisters happiness hon. When's she due?

I would follow you Jam if you blogged. Beagles if you ever want to share your blogs I'm sure we'd all be interested here!
Twin is due 31st Jan, but we think he'll come sooner, he's measuring pretty big!! xx

Hi tee! I'm still here
Keeping an eye on things and how everyone is getting on.
Currently lying awake as I normally do at this time now. Heartburn has hit hard. Starting to swell to with water retention. All fun! I'm 33 weeks on Friday.

Footy sorry to hear you're going through it with your husband at the moment and hope it all sorts itself out soon. It's come at the worse time of year but you're being so strong! Sounds like he's needs to sort his issues out and whah he wants. You also need to think the same.

Tee really hope you get your BFP soon. I know it's different as mine was a chemical but I caught 2 months after that so in high hopes yours is the same. I honestly think it takes a bit of time for the body to sort itself out afterwards and get rid of all the stuff in there. My AF the month after was ridiculously heavy.

Jam - I don't think people understand the pressure of trying until they have to go through it themselves. Even if they're close family or friends. You can even tell people about it but i feel you just don't understand until you go through it. Sometimes people think what they're saying helps and it really doesn't.

Hi to all the newbies on the thread too.

Will keep checking back! Love to all xx