Thread 21 TTC #1 - The one where all our cycles went haywire but we DID NOT GIVE UP

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Calling all clomid-ers, OPK-ers, temp-ers and anyone else on the TTC Bus.

We are long past cervix prodding (in fact we know where it is at any given time just by closing our eyes) and we have ditched the Gregorian calendar in favour of the TTC Cycle Day calendar. We don't do baby dust, or baby-dancing, we just keep legs spread and fingers crossed (LSFX) We love a baby bomb from a prior bus-mate, but if we get told to 'just relax and enjoy it' ONE MORE TIME you will get a punch in the face. You get kwick-cake if you behave, and talked down from the ledge when you need it.

Hop on board, post your stats and prepare to be dazzled by the wealth of TTC knowledge we long-timeys have to share....

Hep sorry to hear about your papi - hope he will be on the mend soon

Oh Jesus, Eurostar is rammed and am sitting with a young family... I just need to sleep!

So excited as only 2 days until I can open up first window on, little luxury to myself, Beauty advent calendar!!!!

Alexia the Femara side effects sound terrible - what is it supposed to do again?
Thank you so much for letting us know about starky! Boy I miss her so much!

This amazeballs news kavan CONGRATULATIONS!!

Kav!!! Yaaaaaaaaaaayyyyyyyy!!!!! Finally another BFP! That has really lifted me huge congrats

Great news for starky a boy hey! Hope you are all doing well - if you are around!

Sorry to hear you've been feeling shit alexia those side effects sound awful. Hope they subside quickly and help you back to a BFP

Earphones in kwick!

Had an awful evening, big row with DH. He's getting cold feet over the flat, scared of the mortgage commitment, wanting to go over and over the details. My grandma is back in hospital and my mum is stressed and upset. I'm stressed and upset about TTC and just need his support and he's crumbling. We had a horrible shouting argument and he said I fucking hate you sometimes He apologises profusely afterwards and said it was the heat of the moment but I didn't accept his apology said I was appalled by his behaviour and lack of support and made him sleep on the sofa bed. TTC is putting so so much strain on us

Oh kav, congratulations. Just the news we needed!!!!

Well. CD2. Cycle 3 here I come. I didn't temp this morning. Not this cycle. I think my body is just so messed up with coming off cerelle and all my other problems I think I'll be here for the long haul. I'm totally ok. 33 tomorrow. No nookie. FML.

Thank you ladies for yesterday. Really, your support stopped me from having a total meltdown.

Wanting, FX for a BFP for you!!!!!!!!!!!

Sorry about AF mouse fx it's third time lucky for you

Ooo Kwick, I wanted one of those Decleor calendars but have been trying so hard to save lately, just ended up getting a Where's Wally one!

Sending you huge hugs Jam. My relationship with DH was under a lot of stress until recently because he was out of work so long. We struggled through it and I'm sure you will do too - the stress of TTC is real, though.

As for me, I'd come to a grim acceptance that I was never going to get a bfp- so when I poased this morning I was totally expecting bfn. Then though I saw a squinter, but I've thought that so many times before. Then it got clearer and I damn near cried right then and there!! Pulled out the Clearblue which I've kept just in case I ever got a frer positive, just so I could see the definitive "pregnant" - and just lost it when it popped up.

Gathered it together again to go into the bedroom where DH was waiting- I'd warned him not to get his hopes up - showed him the frer, and as it was dawning showed him the Clearblue. Cue biggest grin ever on his face and the best ever happy crying hug - followed by "we're going to be parents", followed by "what have we done?!" Heehee.

Walking on air. Have no clue how I will concentrate today.

Aw what great news to start the day! Congratulations kav! Let's hope that's the start of many more to come!

Sorry you had a big row Jam it's a stressful time just TTC let alone all the other things you have going on, hope it gets better for you

kav that's wonderful news! Congratulations!! Hope you're floating on cloud 9 for the rest of the day!

How many dpo were you?

Congratulations kav !!!!

Sorry geeup, just saw your questions - only DTD twice in the fertile window, once on cd 9 and once on cd 11. I ovulated on cd 11. Today's 14 dpo - AF was due tomorrow. Long may she keep her distance!!!

Argh. Ovulated on cd 12!

Awww yay kav congratulations!! Let's hope your lucky BFP brings many more to the thread soon!!

C O N G R A T S K A V ! ! ! ! WOOHOOO!!!!! ok I am pretty excited for you over here!! Seriously though, just enjoy this amazing feeling

Jam that really sucks, all of it. He really fucking loves you, only real, deep love can spawn that heat-of-the-moment hate that we have all been guilty of on occasion, it just doesn't always get said. Be patient with your man, like you said - he's crumbling. Go over the details, ease his mind, remind each other how much you love each other. Then, when you can, go and have a cuppa with your mum, give her a massive hug. And then, do something just for you, have a bath or book a massage. Maybe you can focus on your family for a bit, not stop trying but just shift your focus. Except FW then go hell-for-leather DTD. Whatever you decide to do, take good care of yourself. TTC stress is sort of manageable on its own, but when family starts to fall apart it is nigh on impossible to hold it together. Massive hugs to you.

Amazing news kav! YES!

Any news from you wanting?

Hep hope your dad is doing ok. And London, what a shitty evening It's awful when everything happens together. Really hoping everything gets better for you

So sorry you've been suffering alexia Hope you're feeling better soon

Mouse can I join you in the crying corner? After feeling so distinctly weird last couple of days I confess I was really hoping for this to be the month. Had DTD more than ever in FW and was on holiday, relaxed and not focused on TTC. But looks like I just had weird PMS symptoms (joy) as have had some browny CM this morning and my usual AF sign of vulva pain has started. Just want to curl up and sob!

Kav - CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!! Yeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeah about time we had some good news in our little group. Hope that it all goes well - I'm sure it will xx

So sorry binky I suspect I may be joining you soon though. Af was due yesterday but is yet to make an appearance. We only dtd twice during fw so I'm sure I'm not pregnant.

Ah Binky so sorry. Shit isn't it. Let's eat cake together!!

I'm going out for my lunch today. And I'm going to have a hit of nespresso later. My 50 day cycle and then a 23 day cycle kinda leaves me scratching my head. I'm never going back on those damn pills. Ever. Again.

Also why is it when AF comes I get briefed on baby related things at work (I'm a designer). It's like Mother Nature likes to remind me about these things. AF in full effect today.

Kwick here's what Dr Google says: "When the enzyme aromatase is inhibited by the letrozole medication(Femara), estrogen levels are suppressed in young women. This results in the brain and pituitary gland increasing the output of FSH (follicle stimulating hormone). In women that have polycystic ovary syndrome or anovulation (a problem with ovulation) the increase in FSH hormone can result in development of a mature follicle in the ovary and ovulation of an egg. Doctors call this process "induction of ovulation." I never expected it to be so bad! How are you lovely? Are you testing soon?

Jam massive hugs to you I know he doesn't mean it but it is hard to forget words like that. You will be fine. The stress of TTC is real (and house moving) and it sucks! Let him make it up to you now and take you somewhere fancy Hope your grandma is out of hospital very soon Congrats on your product too

Oh Binky I'm so sorry lovey and to everyone else who got AF. Mouse skipper Skip Gee EJ - may your next cycles lead to your much deserved bfps

Huge congratulations Kav ! ! !

Good luck with the opks Star. I was very happy to read yours and Jam's fab scan news.

wanting twice is enough, look at Kav. Fx for you

Mouse sorry to hear you've been struggling so much with your body Have some cake to get you through the today

Welcome to all newbies and good luck to those testing soon. Sorry if I've missed anyone, it's not intentional.

Aw sorry to hear that Binky

Wanting still have fx for you, I think kav said she only dtd twice in fw so you never know.

mouse I'm with you on the stupid pills, my cycles are all over the place too. I'm annoyed with myself for never researching what it would do before trying otherwise I would have come off it much sooner. Hope cycle 3 is lucky one for you

Yay kav and starky!!! Delighted for you! We've needed a bfp on this board.

I'm still fed up waiting. Decided to hold out till jan as planned but seriously struggling! Was at the inlaws at the weekend and could tell they wanted to ask us if we were trying but didn't - kept bringing up other people who are pregnant and their friends who have grandchildren!

I'm going to concentrate on partying in December to take my mind off it!

Wanting, I was absolutely sure I wasn't pregnant, too - and yes, only did it twice in DTD. I had no pg symptoms at all until yesterday, though I hadn't had my usual AF cramps either, which I generally get one or two days before AF is due to hit. The symptoms I did get yesterday were so mild as to make me think I was imagining things ... sensitive sense of smell - I could smell me which sounds weird, and I smelled unusual - the ever so slightly more tender boobs than they usually are before AF - and they're usually tender before AF, so I thought I was imagining it - and the sensitive teeth thing. That was a new one on me - eating my lunch yesterday properly hurt my teeth.

Other than that nothing. I was tired, but I often am. I was hungry, but I often am. I was thirstier than usual but not so much it stuck out as obviously a symptom.

I'm just relieved beyond words that my body's confirmed I'm capable of this - I've not had a sniff of a bfp in 11 months and being 37 I was worried about the age factor. I'd actually booked in with the doctor to go talk about booking in for fertility treatment. Guess I can make that a trip to go get official confirmation now ... the parts of my mind that aren't singing and dancing now are in slight panic wondering wtf I do now!

Fingers crossed you're not out yet Binky - and hope your cycles settle down soon Mouse and Miranda. That has to be frustrating :(

... is it possible for baby brain to hit this early? only DTD twice in FW! For some reason not very concentrated atm ...

Ah kav you're getting my hopes up! No sign of af yet. Had funny tummy pains on and off since approx 3 dpo. She was due on sun so I'll test maybe tomorrow morning or Thursday. It's only cycle 2 ttc, 3rd off the pill, so may well be my cycles still settling down.

I have loads to say to various posts which I will do later but I just have to leap on to say how have you not poas wanting?!?!