Ttc after late miscarriage. Let's support each other. X

[molly29]

I was finally pregnant with my third child after 5 years of ttc. I was 22 weeks when I had a bleed and found out our little girl was dead.
I am 33 and desperate to fall pregnant and trying to grieve.
Just wondered if anyone else is in a similar position and we could help each other along?

[AgainPlease]

Hi Kimble and all the other lovely ladies. We are doing IVF this month and have embryo transfer on Wednesday. Not holding out much hope because I just feel like I was lucky already with my son and I won't be lucky enough to get pregnant again (let alone try and carry to term this time around!!)

I know I should be excited but I'm not at all

[kimblesj]

Good luck again! Fingers crossed for sticky embryos for you x

We are coming to the end of 2ww, tested today 11dpo and it was negative but then noticed it wasn't an early response and said to test on first day of missed period. I'm due on Thursday/Friday I think.
I have been ill with this bloody cold virus thing which is horrific so no specific signs, fell asleep twice today but totally could be because I have been ill and was home today. Otherwise no specific symptoms. Just hoping. However it has taken us up to 2 years to conceive before so not holding my breath!
I am however now a stone down, so feeling like my body is on the right track and I also have a job interview for a job I have wanted for about 5 years but hasn't been available. So good things are happening

[AgainPlease]

Wow Kimble that's amazing weight loss!

We had one egg transferred yesterday so I am officially pregnant until proven otherwise.

I'm having a break down though - I don't want a baby born in summer/being the youngest in the year. I want my son back who was to be born this December. I'm furious with the hospital for not doing their job properly and I had been let down by the system.

Will I love my summer baby as much as my first born who was due in December??

I know I'm being totally unreasonable but that's how I feel DH snapped at me this morning and said the most important thing is that we have a living baby to term this time around and I know he's right... But everything was perfect before all this happened/before we lost our son early.

... Uh

[AgainPlease]

Kimble have you tested again?! Any news?? xx

[kimblesj]

I completely understand your thoughts, but you will love this baby just as much.
Tested again today with same brand of test and another negative so I assume af will appear at some point.
Will wait until Feb to try again and in the meanwhile focus on being healthy and getting myself a new job yay!
I have a diabetes appointment on Wednesday as I had severe early onset diabetes with Finley which didn't disappear properly so probably a good idea to get that sorted first too. Can you tell I'm trying to console myself a bit?

[AgainPlease]

Hi everyone... I did a HPT this afternoon as I couldn't help myself even though I am only 11dpo. I had an ever so slightly faint positive. Will poas every morning next week to see if the line gets darker!

I'm excited but what I'd rather have is my first born in my arms and alive. I'm dreading the questions when I start showing "oh so is this your first?" What does someone who has been through what we've been through say to something like that?!

[kimblesj]

Oh Again that is great news! Did you test again this morning? I'm so pleased for you.

Answer the question however you want to. I sometimes say I have 3 sons and sometimes I say 4 depending on who asks me and how.
Maybe something like... this is our second pregnancy but we sadly lost our first. Or whatever you feel comfortable with depending on who it is.
Really happy for you. I greeted af again at the weekend so I'm out again x

[AgainPlease]

I did test again this morning and again only such a faint line it's almost invisible. I don't think AF due till the 5th so I have a few days left to worry and fret.

I was out to dinner last night with a big group of girlfriends and they asked why I wasn't drinking, I said "we are trying for baby no.2", some girls who I know well know my story but others were like "I didn't know you already had a kid!"... Hmm. It's a tricky one

[kimblesj]

Fingers crossed the line keeps getting darker xx

[AgainPlease]

I'm out :( never have I seen such a negative pg test. I think it was another chemical pregnancy as the line was coming and going during the week.

Wasn't overly keen on a summer baby so we will take a break and relax (what's the bet I get pregnant during that time when I'm not stressing about it!!) and get back to ttc in January xx