The one where we all get and stay diffed, and we're brooking no argument about it

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Oh no imps poor you. I'm sleeping badly too, and I do feel queasy if I don't eat all the time... Hoping it's a good sign for you though

beedle try drinking some milk. I'd say it's a little early for preg heartburn but you never know!

Fingers crossed that all these symptoms are a sign of embies settling in for the long haul.

I'm getting hardly any sleep but that is because DD2 has decided not to bother sleeping at night so is up every 1-2 hours :(

I'm trying a cream of chicken cup-a-soup - usually my stomach can tolerate one of those if I'm sick.

Oh dear Pasta that doesn't sound like fun. I suppose it's not okay to give an infant sleeping tablets is it?

Nope, that hasn't stayed down either.

I was never this sick with previous pregnancies so maybe I should be encouraged by it. Or maybe I just ate something dodgy!

But in other news, I have booked a scan for next Monday morning. My ectopic side is feeling quite swollen today, so I thought I would phone and ask if it's normal to have those sensations. They said that as long as there's no pain they're not overly concerned. I said I wanted to wait and see if I was still pregnant at the end of the week before booking a scan but the nurse said "Oh bless you. Let's book you in now though".

Feel like I've jinxed everything now.

yeah for the scan imps boo to the vomming unless its a sign of a super sticky healthy bean in the right Place. You're not jinxing anything, my scan will be booked on Thursday when I speak to the clinic about the BFP I will be getting on THursday am - positive thinking.

So loopy will be POAS tomorrow, I will be pissing on an official stick on thursday, and then the week is nearly over

Oh imps you have not jinxed anything! I wish I could say something to make you feel more positive, unfortunately past bad experiences do make it harder to relax and enjoy.
Sorry your feeling so sick, I have no advice as I was never that bad, haribo sours and bananas made me feel better though if I was feeling rough.

Of course you haven't jinxed it Imps. You have a sticky little bean in there that has no idea if you have booked a scan.

I know - and I know that if any of you said that you'd jinxed your pregnancies I'd be saying that there's no way on earth that that could be true. It is just so so so so hard to be positive though with so many years of nothing but disappointment.

I've tried some pineapple which was very delicious actually. Hopefully that'll stay down.

Sorry Imps, no testing here today, eldest isn't well and no chance to discreetly test FMU today as don't want him seeing the tests as he would tell people if he saw mommy weeing on something!

Probably for the best as even with the boys my hcg took a while to show on tests and thinking about it Frer say 6 days from the day of missed period, mine isn't due to start until Monday so I'd be better testing either Thurs or Fri I think?

I know how ýou feel imps I can manage to be slightly positive occasionally, but only enough to cancel out the worst of the negative thoughts. I'm trying to decide if I should tell my mum on Sunday, but I can't even mange to get excited about telling anyone yet. Hope you have at least managed to keep some food down.

Hope DS1 feels better soon loopy, can't Believe he has foiled your PIAR plans though!

I hope so too beedle, he's come down with a horrid cough, but because of his reflux if he coughs he ends up puking, so puked on his sheet and duvet cover overnight despite having a sick bowl right by his bed that lives there everyday because it happens regularly. He spent most of the night coughing and from 5am he woke up and came into our room and no way I would test with him there. I've protected both boys so far from all the pregnancies/MC's/Erpc/hysteroscopy/going to Coventry, they haven't a clue and I want to keep it that way until such time as we get one that survives to 12 weeks with a positive scan. Am hoping he will shake it off as he isn't coughing as much now he is upright, and otherwise seems fine in himself so much to his annoyance I'm still sending him to school today.

The poor thing beedle I didn't realise reflux outlasted baby hood. Never mind there's always tomorrow to test

imps and beedle I think it's OK not to get excited, it all feels very surreal until much later on, at least ime. For today you are pregnant, and just focus on scan/otd. beedle would you tell your mum if sth were to go wrong? How much does she know of the whole saga? Are you seeing her on Sunday or just talking to her? Last time I didn't tell family till after 7 week scan as I didn't want them worrying too, this time was earlier as they knew we were doing ivf after Xmas so would be wondering

Yes Keep, he will be 6 in November and just no idea if he will ever grow out of it. Consultant is seeing him again in August and has said they will investigate more if he is still like it when he is 7. Until then we have to deal with his body needing to have a clear out every 2 weeks plus him puking whenever he coughs or gets upset. He was admitted to hospital twice in November because he got a run of the mill tummy bug but he can't cope with those. He got so bad that his consultant has now written to the GP to say that if he gets a tummy bug again, we are to be prescribed Ondansetron immediately. He shouldn't really have it as its only approved for patients that have sickness because they have had chemo/radiation, but it's the only thing that finally stopped him vomiting in November once he'd had 3 or 4 doses of it.

Re telling people about BFP's I've only ever told my DH and people online and people in the NHS. Never told my family as I find it easier to deal with my emotions if people don't know as then they don't ask and I don't fall apart trying to deal with the questions! But I know lots find comfort in telling their family, guess depends on how close you are Beedle and whether you would need her support like Keep said?

Oh gosh Loops I sorry to hear about DS1. Poor boy - does he find it frightening or does he cope quite calmly with it?

You're all going to shake your heads at me but I've been so anxious today and absolutely certain it's the beginning of the end, so I peed on the CB Digi that I was saving for Friday and thank god it still says 3+ weeks although I did absolutely freak out at the fact it seemed to be taking longer for the result to flash up than usual. It's done a little bit to reassure me but not as much as I'd hoped.

I need to chill the fuck out but I just can't seem to. Can you all please give me a slap? I'm just so convinced that I'm going to lose this one too.

Does you mum know about the IVF/previous MCs Beedles? I don't see that there's any reason not to tell her if you trust her and would want her support in the event of another MC (which WON'T happen btw). I will not tell anyone until I have a 12 week scan - other than Mr I, you guys and medical staff of course.

My mum knows about the 1st mc, but not the one last month, and she knows that we're still trying with ivf but absolutely no deatils recently on dates or anything. So she doesn't know that I might be diffed if that makes sense.

I Think I'm the same as you loopy its much easier to control the sadness if people don't know. Plus I obviously mainly speak to my mum on the phone, and much easier to hide emotions on the phone. Also I want it to be a happy announcement not a well I am pregnant but we have no expectation of a happy ending. Its all just crap really isn't it, I want to be happy and excited like normal people.

Well imps you managed 1 day without PIAR so that's a step in teh right direction. Is it next Monday your scan? So only 5 Days to go? You can be convinced that mine is going to be fine and I can be convinced that you will be fine and together we'll both get there. ((hugs)) How's the vomming today?

loopy poor DS1 I hope he grows out of it soon

It is crap that we can't be happy and excited. When I told my instadiffer sister I think she thought I was mad as I said basically I'm telling you this, but please don't be excited... But that's OK, there will be time for excitement later. And when you have your babies and they don't sleep, or they have reflux or temper tantrums you will take a step back and remember how precious, wanted, and perfect they are. You have both dealt with this all so admirably.

I think I might wait in your situation till your scan then beedle as you say easier to not say sth on the phone, and you will be more optimistic if still cautiously so after the scan

imps sorry you're having a hard time. You WILL NOT lose this one, all the signs are good. 5 days till your scan. I don't think there's much we can say to help except you're what 2/3 of the way from bfp to scan - the home straight!

Imps he is fine with it when he is awake, but if it comes up through his nose he screams horrifically and is hysterical. He used to be fine if it happened in his sleep as he'd just lean over the bed and aim at the bowl, but this week he is very angry. His cough is worse tonight and he has been sick twice so far tonight, and he was screaming and lashing out and refusing to blow it all out of his nose. Think he might have not been fully awake, not sure but hoping this phase doesn't last!

Re you I hope so much that this one is the one, the sickness bodes well! If it continues happening after everything you eat then you might have HG? A friend set up HG Warriors on Facebook if you use it at all?

OTD and 2BFPs. The CB line came up immediately, and the ic line is a bit darker than Tuesday. So I feel a little reassured, though my boobs are less sore, aaaarrggghh

Fabulous!! Let us know what the clinic say :) :)

loopy hope there wasn't too much more vomit overnight

imps I was wondering if you feeling so worried was actually partly a symptom of your pregnancy - a sign of you hormones being all over the Place. Not that you don't have a right to be worried. I was feeling quite tearful on the way home yesterday and then once I got home I was fine. How is Everything today?

Oh Beedles fabulous!!! Let us know immediately what the clinic says and when your scan is booked for.

Loops did you manage to test? Your poor boy - is there a chance he will eventually grow out of it? It is just DS1 or does DS2 have it too?

I am feeling a bit better today. I had a nice night out with Mr Imps last night which I really enjoyed. Yes, I guess there are lots of hormones flooding about at the moment Beedles - it's not like me to get so wound up. Have been sick a couple of times this morning (luckily it stopped after lunch time yesterday) so will take that as a good sign. Am feeling very damp down below though and have had some thick yellow pant snot. Not sure if that's normal or not.

I had plenty of pant snot when pregnant Imps so don't worry about that.

Woohoo Beedles!

Yay for your BFP's again today Beedle.

Lots more vomit here, he cleverly bounced out of bed last night and decided to be sick on the edge of his windowsill, ran down the wall and over the skirting and onto the carpet, anyone got any ideas on how the hell to get rid of the smell when it's in between carpet and skirting?

Thankfully it is only ds1 that has it, ds2 has no issues on that front, his problems are to do with his chest, ever since he had bronchiolitis he is prone to chest infections which is much easier to deal with! I'm not convinced ds1 will ever grow out of it, I'm just hoping when he turns 7 they can do something to stop it for good.

So I POAS, not true FMU as had wee in the night when dealing with ds1 but not a BFP, if shine a torch there is a shadow of a line but nothing visible from the front. I'm sort of 11 dpo although it wasn't until 11am I got the positive on the ov test and I ovulated later that day so not actually 11 full days until tonight sometime so may still be a chance of the hcg just not being high enough yet. Still getting crampy feelings and uterus is swollen and I can't lie on my front without feeling uncomfortable so just got to wait and see whether anything did implant and bed in or whether it's back to trying again next cycle.