I have a conundrum. So I'm four days late, I have a twitchy achy tummy, really low down, like period cramps, but not quite. I've had slightly sticky discharge all week (TMI, my apologies) and I feel ever so slightly naseaus, have done all week on/off. I'm spotty and my boobs hurt. It feels like I should be on, but it's not happened yet. I'm going mad because the chance of it not being my period is slim, but now I'm symptom spotting. And I'm probably going to post this and immediately come on my period.
But, in the spirit of being insane, I saved my morning wee, in a tiny tupperware, it's in the back of my wardrobe. (Told you, insane!) I have one of the cheapy strip tests. One. I have been put off having a go, partly because if I use it, it means I'm going to get a bfp, and I'll be gutted, and then immediately come on, and I'll feel stupid for wasting it. And I'm sort of playing a waiting game, waiting for this period to arrive and go "haha! Now you're not pregnant AND a bleedy hormonal cow," in a way, I don't want to test fate and KNOW I'm not, and wait to come on. It's not like I can't get more tests, but that one upstairs being smug in the drawer feels sort of like admitting how much I want to be prego and I'm going to cry when it says no. My dsis is here, but is going out shortly, Dh is asleep.
If you're still with me after all that, I thank you. Should I wait longer, or test and get my bfn and get it over with? I'd sort of mentally made the decision that if I'd not come on by the end of the day that I'd test, but now I'm doubting my own decision and feel like I should just wait it out till I do come on. I'm going slowly mad. 
😢🎢💐