Hi everyone x
Gosh Imps, you're having a right old time of it, aren't you lovely? With all that's going on, the one good thing that I can glean is that the loss is all happening naturally. Not that I'm saying to have a loss is a good thing, and for it all to be happening now isn't particularly ideal - not that there is ever an ideal time - which is why I want to give you yet another cuddle ((((( b i g h u u u u u g )))))
Alone-time shopping is awesome, keep 
My period arrived yesterday (in answer to Imps' question) and tbh, I've been feeling a little low these past couple of days. My dds are delicious, which is working with the sadness, for some reason. I was standing in the shower thinking that we really can only give ttc until Nov 2016 because of the age gaps (relating to school years, iyswim). If it works within a year, dd1 will be starting secondary school when a dc3 would be starting nursery and I think that's a stretch in itself. And then I started wondering 'why the fuck didn't I want to ttc sooner?' And I think the nausea I'm having (had more today), just lulled me into thinking we'd done it, so although all my tests were -ve, I had hope, which has been dashed, which is a feeling I'm very used to where this is concerned, which makes me feel sad.
I'm okay, like. Just feeling low. But I'll perk up. I wish I had Imps spirit (you really are amazeballs, woman!). We're staying with my parents this Christmas and I'll recharge and replenish there. I'll be singing Queen songs at the top of my lungs by New Year's Eve 