Thanks Boris and DizzyM, I feel so guilty for not being on here often but our puppy keeps us busy - she's been such a blessing and she's helped create a stronger bond between me and DH.
We are going through some investigations before we see a consultant, four sets of blood tests, a cervical screening, an ultrasound and three (inclusive of the previous two) semen analysis. We have also been to the adoption event. Our preference is for assisted conception (or a fix!) if possible.
We made the choice to be open with everyone about our problems; we decided we need support now more than ever from family/friends/colleagues - and to be completely honest, it was a fantastic choice to be open. Everyone has been supportive, and it's nice not to have our biggest struggle hidden.
We have really bad days (like when our next door neighbour brought home their newborn) but who wouldn't? I still haven't accepted that we may not be able to have children who are biologically ours. We try to talk about a life without children because we need to be prepared for the worst, whilst having hope for the best possible outcome.
We have been brought closer together as a couple. The below reading was one form our wedding and it feels to ring so true now!
"What greater thing is there for two human souls than to feel that they are joined together to strengthen each other in all their endeavours, to give solace to each other in times of sorrow, to share with each other in all their successes and to be one with each other in their silent unspoken memories?"
I know whatever happens, we will be fine, but my advice to everyone is whilst TTCing: do not put your life on hold!