RESPONSE Trial for recurrent miscarriage: Thread#3

[Marchgirl]

For anyone on the RESPONSE medical trial for recurrent miscarriage, or thinking of joining. Peeps at all stages of the trial welcome!

Link to previous thread is here

Aw thanks Louise, I don't think there will be any good news as I am pretty sure of dates but there is part of me secretly clinging on to a bit of hope which I know is silly! X

March!!!!!! Eeeeeeek!!!!!! Congratulations!! Fingers tightly crossed the steroid protocol works!! Was it prof Quenby that dos the nk test?

How do you think yesterday went Louise? Really lovely to meet you :)
I think they have a really strong chance, they so deserve it, Coventry is an amazing centre and I certainly wouldn't be here without them x

I want to cry. Red smears of blood and cramping. Fuckety fuck.

Gosh march, just catching up on the thread.
I'm so sorry. How are you feeling now?

Still very crampy size. Not feeling hopeful but just have to wait for the bfp to fade again before i know for certain. Why is this happening so early???

Oh no March, I'm so sorry this is happening again. Fingers crossed x

Have your other losses ever been at this stage? It is very early as its before your period is even due isn't it?
Is there a chance it could be implantation bleed?
Sorry so many questions.
Just don't give up hope unless the bleeding gets heavier as cramping wise I had tons of cramping with this pregnancy as things were settling in.
Really f**king hope that you're ok. Honestly life is such a c bomb sometimes. I wish the mystery would get shared around a bit more (not meaning that I'd wish pain on anyone - but seriously, you've had WAY MORE than your share of shit.) FFS.

Thanks size. Last two have been at 4.5 and 4.2 (but fading before that). Spoke to prof brosens about it after the last one and he said it was normal, that this happened to everyone, it's just they didn't test as early so might not know. Made me feel like a right muppet, but i honestly don't think that's true. Maybe testing a few days later might have meant some people wouldn't have known, but i still would have known from symptoms alone and still tested positive on day af was due both times.

Not very comforting advice is it. I've always tested early and shown a positive around 10dpo. Yes, some ladies (with super powers of patience) may not notice and accept it as a later period, but still offers no comfort to the reoccurrence.
Honestly what a shitty pile of old bumholes this is.
I so wish there was a magic cure to ensure a healthy pregnancy. It's just such a lottery and I sm constantly bewildered by the people I see that do manage to have children effortlessly. There's simply no rhyme nor reason.

oh no March I can't believe it. don't give up hope yet as size says it could be implantation? are you going to retest tomorrow or later? How's things now? thinking of you. its so so shit if its happening again x

Thank you ladies. And yes, this whole thing that we're all going through is a shitty pile of old bumholes .
I'll test again tomorrow claire. I had some implantation spotting on 7 and 8 dpo, but no cramping and really just pink cm. This is quite different, but we'll see. For some reason i had convinced myself that this one was different so actually had some hope. If it turns out badly i don't know how i muster that again

Oh March I hope it's just implantation, I've been for my bloods and 2nd lot of prescription today, had a cry at trial nurse that I don't feel pregnant as no symptoms and I want some so I feel it (too which she pointed out I seemed a little emotional which was a symptom) or I could just be petrified! I'm having some cramps and back ache at the moment which has just put me on a bigger downer and to scared to even go the toilet :( I hate all this!!!

any more blood March? are you still cramping. thinking of you xx

Bleeding had tailed off but still crampy and got the heavy pre af feeling. Gaaah!

Sorry you're so worried gen. It's such a stressful time. Big hugs xx

you never know March, it may just be implantation if bleeding has tailed off. I hope so. hoping test darker tomorrow for you. I'm sorry your having this to deal with x

how are you this morning March xx

Thanks for thinking of me claire. I'm ok. Bleeding and cramping has stopped for now, so just going to stick my head in the sand and hope for the best

How are you today? Anything?

glad all has subsided March that's very positive, did you retest this morning?

bfn here again, I'm ok though as know I'm not pregnant x

. Sorry claire. I'm gutted for you. Retest was darker this morning. Even dh could see the line, although still said 'it's a bit faint isn't it?', so didn't help much with the worry!

that's also a good sign being darker I think implantation!! I really hope so for you xx

March that's a really good sign that your test is darker. Not so helpful comment from DH though. (They do have a knack for putting their foot in it - i got very upset a couple of weeks ago when my DH said 'my wife is currently pregnant' - like it wasn't going to last much longer. Aaaargh)
Hope you're able to keep busy this weekend and that things continue to settle down.

Sorry just caught up. March really hoping it was a little implantation spotting especially as it's tailed off. How many dpi are you now?
Fabulous news that the test was darker, don't worry about your Dh, mu Dh never saw any of mine! Funnily enough I've just been clearing out a drawer and found my 9dpo test from this one and can clearly see it but faint, he didn't see it

I'm somewhere between 10 and 12dpo choccy. So I'll say 11 (although that puts ov before the pos opk, but then you said yours was too!)
It def feels stronger than the last one. Felt quite rough this morning (although could be the steroids).

Yes my ov was 2 days before my smiley!!
How's things this morning? Xx