Woolly thanks for such kind words. I keep telling myself that.. Spotting with BFP over and over! but, I'm still kinda downhearted and ready to move to next cycle already. I swing between looking at the positives and that I'm another month closer etc etc to eh just pure disappointment! But I think that's natural and I'll be fine. Thank you so much for being lovely! 
hope your headache is better now!!
Juney love, miss your banter! Are you feeling less stressed the boys ain't in the hands of the dreaded DHL this cycle ?!
Dizzymerry hi lovely. Hope you get blood results Tomor. Fingers crossed!!!
mumof1 upduffing hol sounds good .. So all of us, together with our dh right?! Ha ha 
Boris so sorry you sound so deflated lovely. You are so much closer now.. You have come so far..you are obviously determined to be a mumma. Yes the months have passed, and I know every month feels like an eternity when you want something so much. But you are almost there. You will absolutely get there. I understand the waiting is hellish. I also can't for the life of me get my head round not thinking about TTC. It's pretty much impossible. Yes you can be distracted by other areas in your life from time to time, other things happen in the day, good or bad, but it is always there in the background. Always. And I think you are, like the rest of us doing the absolute best you can.relax and it will happen- that's not really an option is it? Even after a month of trying you are not relaxed. You want it and you want it now. Don't feel bad for that. Just keep focused on the end point. It will come. You will get your BFP and it will be oh so glorioussss!! Please don't give yourself a hard time, I'm sure you are an amazing friend, wife and look- if you were doing a shit job, your boss would fire you right? You are feeling so low because of this hole.. Which will be filled. It's so draining but I know you won't give up and your BFP is coming, you are going to be the one giving us your stats soon! Stay strong. 