The Bumsnet/Angry Pubes Bus

[Mummyofonesofar]

If you can keep up with a bus that fills up in one weekend and chat shit then jump aboard the bus you are never allowed to leave! Trying to set a target for most BFPs on one bus!

No LPBs allowed!

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Aw melons, I'm sorry. What a lovely thing to do.

Aurora, yes keep taking them, I've heard good things about them.

Yay Mrsb, I have everything crossed for you.

Dizzy, maybe you're having one of those cycles where you don't ovulate, I've forgotten the name but I've read that we all have one or two a year.

Abi, sorry for the bfn and haha at Purdeys initiation ceremony

Dp is home tonight so we've had steak and I've drank over half a bottle of red wine, go me!!

It's so quiet here!

Where is everyone? Are you all off eating chocolate?!

mrsb Keeping my FX for you, but equally hoping you feel better soon :)

Abi Sorry for bfn.

Purds Chewing gum??? It's the best I can think of my lovely

DH and I had a row earlier today. I've been feeling really down after yesterday's positive mood. Have been trying to gear myself up to do housework but ended up going in the bath this morning and DH (who had already been at work) shouted up that he was taking the dogs out. I was gutted, as it was a lovely day and I needed a walk to perk myself up. Whilst he was out, I dragged myself out of the bath and decided to put in a load of washing. As I was bending down to pick up some socks and pants from next to the bed, I suddenly found myself on top of the heap sobbing my heart out. Literally sobbing.

After wiping away snot and tears, I thought 'pull yourself together lass' and got the load to the washing machine. Then I went round and collected the dishes ready to do the washing up and filled the sink and suddenly, there I was again, bloody crying into the suds.

DH came in and we had a bit of a fall out over nothing and I tried to explain how I was feeling, but I'm not brilliant at that. He had to go back to work and we had a bit of a cuddle before he went.

It has been a really unproductive day, well week actually and tomorrow I need to drag myself out of bed and get over myself and actually clean the house and do some school work. I have wallowed enough.

On the plus side, I sat down with my calendar today and worked out the 'schedule' for taking these progesterone tablets. If I start to take them on Tuesday for 10 days, 5 days later I should have a bleed for 5 days (this is what happened back in January). I need to call the clinic on CD1 and they will book me in for my HSG between CD7 and CD10. I needed the calendar for this just to make sure these days didn't fall on a weekend! Also need to have CD 21 and CD28 tests, which also need to be on a week day. From what I can work out, these will pretty much all be Mondays if it all goes to plan

Hope everyone else is ok Just realised that this is a bit of a me-oriented post. Sorry

Eskimo: Sounds like you are having a rubbish time lately. Apart from dh have you got any real life support? Do you have any history of depression? If you are struggling to carry out simple tasks it might be worth a trip to your gp to discuss how you are feeling. If you don't feel that is necessary then please be kind to yourself, is there anything you can do for some self soothing (chocolate, long bath, walk round the shops, hide away for a few days with Netflix, go for a run?). Is there anything we can do for you?

sorry about the barrage of questions, I suffer from some serious depression related stuff and can relate completely to what you've posted. All this uncertainty is obviously awful for you, lets hope things start moving in the right direction

Oh Butter Thank you. I don't have any history of depression. I have had moments where I do wallow a little bit. These are usually at the beginning of school hols (of which this is obviously one). I usually sleep for about a day (in this case, Saturday), wallow on the sofa with a reality TV programme for a couple of days (in this case The Little Couple) and after about 3 days I clean the house top to bottom and I'm fine. I think this has been harder with the constant waiting for AF and the ultrasound yesterday, which I'd built myself up for more than I thought I had.

Thank you so much for your kind words. I do have a support network and now that I have let my mum know everything, she is always there.

Hope you're ok Eskimo xx

So sorry you're feeling like this eskimo. It is perfectly understandable given the circumstances and I think most ttc'ers know these situations only too well. I have also been there, many a tear has been shed and I've sobbed my heart out quite a bit too. It is a truly difficult journey and there will be times when we can't see the light at the end of the tunnel, but it is there and you are getting closer to it. I'm so glad you have a support network, please use it. Don't be hard on yourself. Things will get better, I promise. Try to relax and do something which gives you pleasure. We are also right here to support you

I'm sorry to hear you're having such a rough time Eskimo Look after yourself.

Just made a Thai green curry for dinner, didn't make it quite as face-meltingly hot as last time at OH's request. There's quite a lot of chocolate in the house after my boss gave me an egg and OH bought a kinder egg home for me. I'm such a child

Ladies, its the weekend so I am to fully catch up with you. I am sorry I have been absent during the week. I seem to be working a gazillion hours. How is everyone?

Eskimo, I have just read your post. I am so very sorry that you're not feeling to great right now. Please take some reflection time and look after yourself. Have some you focused time. Take care.

Evening everyone, really sorry I haven't been able to catch up, have had such a busy day. I hope you're all ok. Just wanted to say I'm off on hols tomorrow so probably won't be around much for the next week or so. Not taking any opks or my thermometer so there will be no ttc pressure.... We're sharing an apartment with PILs anyway so not sure there'll be much in the way of dtd anyway! X

I wrote a big post and it's gone. Urghhhhhhhh!!

So sorry to hear that you have been struggling today Eskimo, try and take care of yourself and enjoy your holidays. You will get things sorted out with your body and you will get your BFP :)

Have a lovely holiday Sammy it sounds lovely and relaxed, just the way to make a baby

Eskimo: I'm glad you've got a good plan of action sorted, and lots of support. have a good rest this weekend and get your strength back up x

Mr butterchunk has made a tasty chicken and mushroom risotto for tea tonight, I've just scoffed some choccys (which totally don't count because I had my slimming world weigh in earlier today ). 7 dpo today, maybe some womb twitches and aches (probably just gas ).

has anyone got anything exciting planned for the weekend? anyone joining mrsb in getting their bpf?

Thank you ladies, so much. You are all just lovely. Honestly, I'm fine. I think I needed a bit of a blow-out and I feel better after a good cry and a natter on here

Sammy Have a fab holiday!

Oyster I love Thai Green Curry. You know what? I think DH and I need a date night at a Thai restaurant. Is it wrong to have Thai curry on Good Friday?

Tessie, please can I see a photo of your tits chart? I am intrigued

I am in a Very bad Mood. I turned up at my mum's half an hour ago with an Iceland carrier bag containing a ginormous pepperoni pizza and my pyjamas. Why? Because I have left th'usband. Only for one night but still. I've left the tot too. We had an astronomical row (me and him not me and the chimp) about the fact that he has usurped me since losing his job and that I feel he is deliberately making himself indispensable and Superdad-like so that I have to go out to work (this is only partly true: I do want to go out to work and he isn't forcing me but he absolutely has stolen my role as Mummy in the home). He told me he has not usurped me but that someone has to look after the baby 'when you spend so fucking long staring at fucking charts and talking absolute bollocks to a bunch of strangers!'

I cried at the swearing. I know I'm a bit sweary on here but he and I made a vow we would never be 'those' sweary parents who scream 'Fucking gerramoveon!' in Farmfoods or who yell, 'Fuck me! This bastard brew's piping hot!' at home. Anyway, he ranted on about how much I like to nap for the two hours that Nancy sleep in the afternoon and I told him that's because he never has to get up to her in the night and that he doesn't know what it's like to have unbroken sleep. He then laughed in my face (presumably because he thinks getting up twice every single night at precisely 1.30 and 4.30am is a doddle) so I grabbed my coat, jimmies and pizza and fucked right out of there. He has behaved like an unconscionable bastard tonight so he can see for himself exactly what parenting through the night feels like. Fucking animal.

Eskimo, only if a trafficked Thai prostitute is serving it off her tits.

Oh Purdey. I'm so sorry. don't want to say anything patronising so I'll just send a

*broken sleep

Oh dear purdey I'm sure by morning hell be grovelling at your feet and begging for you to return

Melon, go on...patronise away..

That's the plan, Oyster. Seriously though, I am flabberghasted he has had the nerve to talk to me this way tonight. He knows how short my fuse is; how violent I have been in the past (hell, I have a suspended prison sentence for twatting someone for less); how never ever to talk to me with disrespect. I can only think he has bumped his head today and forgotten The Rules.

Ok here goes......I love a hug so I'm hugging you! And I frequent the word 'love' far to much so you can have a dozen of them. Hope he sees the error of his ways , the plank.