The wheels on the February bus go round and round

[juneybean]

Ta da!

Hair Yoghurts. In all flavours, shapes and sizes. You can dress them up with fruit or honey or Nutella. (I think I may have a slight obsession with the chocolatey stuff...)

Thanks Purdey, I see it as a positive thing and as you say knowledge is power if there's a problem hopefully it can be fixed, if not we'll look at other options. I'm sorry to see you're down Purdey......you're always making everything else think positively so you need to do the same......let's hope we both get our babies soon. How's your Dh getting on with looking for work? Is there much around where you are?

spinning I had a hsg for my tubes which involved a catheter up the cervix pumped full of dye and an x ray taken. Not sure if they check tubes through ultrasound?

I had a happy meal for tea (babysitting with the worst fed children in England)

eskimo genius. Thanks :)

Hair my DS always asks for a pudding - it started with a stint living with my Nan and she always have him a pudding but no effort goes into it. He is told to find something. Whether that is leftover Christmas chocolate, fruit, yoghurt or he goes without.

I had bean chilli for dinner with broccoli

Just realised that when I have my scan I should be about 7dpo. Is this ok?

Pancakes for dinner here tonight due to work getting in the way on Tues. DH has decided he wants some American fat pancakes as well as thin crepe ones, so I'm going to do two courses; American pancakes with bacon & syrup followed by crepes with lemon & sugar/nutella/syrup for pudding. This'll be just greaaaat for my blood sugar levels!

I almost went to Superdrug to buy hpts today but decided if I don't go til tomorrow, I can't test til Sunday morning. Have to say the nearer it gets the less & less confident I'm feeling - I don't feel any different to normal, so how can I possibly have started creating a little person

Purdey I've not been around long but I've already seen you give such useful, honest advice to everyone on the thread. I'm you're . Hope things turn a corner for you soon.

Thanks For the info Juney, I'll give them a call on Monday and see if I still need to book that.

I had lots of cm leading up to this af, I don't usually have that much at that stage in my cycle so it did get me quite excited

I am out this month. Had lunch with my niece and all five nephews earlier & af decided to show up. The bitch sure does have a sick sense of humour.

I feel so upset I can barely speak. Dh keeps trying to cheer me up & it is just making me want to kill him. I just can't handle this any more. Every month I hope and pray & every month it hurts that little bit more when I fail.

Oh nomio I am so sorry. Big hug to you. Please don't kill your DH, his sperm are valuable.... Hope you can have a good cry, eat some chocolate or similar. I have no advice or words for you just a heart full of empathy and a tear in my eye for your pain. Hang on in there kid. Xxxxx

I have barely posted since joining the bus, so apologies. I try and keep up but with 2 off on half term this week especially it has been manic! We were doing a good job dtd but too early in my opinion, then when I thought I ovd (valentine's day!) we had an argument and didn't! I was even crosser because I knew we needed to dtd. He is not much into a scientific way of ttc after a year of if it with dd so as far as he knows we are just dtd randomly! So I was not holding out much hope this month. I have been having niggly pains, like af is due, but it shouldn't be until the end of the month. The weird thing was we had fish and chips the other day and I just couldn't eat it. It made me feel so nauseous. With dd and ds I couldn't eat fish and chips when I was pregnant or for a year after. But it would be way to early I think. Though I have been reading that you might feel symptoms earlier the more times you have been pregnant. Sorry for the mammoth post. 2ww is driving me mad!!!
Congrats to all the bfps so far and Purdey hope Nancy is feeling ok today. Btw have a look at mood gym online. It is cognitive behavioural therapy online. I found it very useful when I had pnd xxx

So sorry Nomio. So so hard to keep going month after month xxxx

Oh Nomio, I'm so sorry. It's just rubbish isn't it? For me, this is technically cycle 1, but TTC for me started in November. Sometimes, things take longer than expected, but we WILL all get there, one way or another, and in the meantime, we are all here for each other

Another Feb bus straggler here Probably not for long though - AF is due this weekend and I'm still feeling crampy and grumpy.

Sorry to all those in same situation. It's cruel that we get these feel-like-shit hormones at the very same time we realise we're not pregnant. Talk about kicking you when you're down.

Tonight doesn't even feel like Friday night either as I am at work all day tomorrow - which I just know is when AF will show up.

Thanks for all your lovely replies. You guys are the only thing keeping me sane at the minute.

After a discussion with my friend Mr Dairy Milk, I am now feeling slightly calmer.

Purdey, I hope you are ok. I am not surprised you are feeling down. You are still a new mum and now your husband has lost his job. Anyone would struggle in those circumstances.

Did your Dr recommend any medication? I know most people with Pnd respond well to a course of antidepressants.

Mummy, I'm really excited about your 7dpo ewcm after what Aenor has told us!

Eskimo, did you enjoy your tea-time barmcake?

Mr Dairy Milk One of my best friends too nomio!

Mr dairy milk used to be my lover but he's changed :(

Yes thank you Purdey-Pie, although my DH arrived home earlier than expected and wacked a frozen pizza in the oven. As he often says (and I believe this is verbatim) 'If I don't cook, you don't eat.'

Evening all

purdey sorry you're suffering from pnd. You are going through it at the mo so it's no surprise it's talking it's toll. Hope you feel better soon.

Our evening meal was Chicken Tagine on toast. I know a sightly bizarre combo but it was quick and easy after a long day at work. Now sitting down to catch up on TV we've recorded this week. At the mo it's Up The Women.

Oo, soz, I missed this last page. You are all gorgeous for pulling my socks up. I am already on antidepressants, Nomio! I've been on 30mg of Seroxat for, like, eva. However, the GP today has increased the dose to the max (40mg ). She seemed amazed that I have 'suffered' for so long on my own and with no input from the mental health team since having my baby, despite being 'high risk': recovering alkie; old; history of depression and suicide attempts (only as a homeless alcoholic did I try to take my life). Anyway, I think CBT will be good

Nomio, I know exactly how you feel; every despairing thought and emotion. I only found my 'zen' when I flew to the Czech R and brought my baby home. I'm not going to evangelise about IVF here because it's not appropriate when some women fear the 'unkowingness' of all that scary science stuff and would do anything to avoid it and fall pregnant naturally. The crash in progesterone is making all this seem more and more futile, but your baby really is waiting for you. It will wait and wait for as long as it takes for things to happen. It doesn't matter how many women around you are having babies or falling pregnant; they are not becoming mums to your baby - your baby is still waiting

DH and I are largely unemployable due to our shocking cv's and criminal records (not to mention the small matter of having been out of work for years due to alcoholism, rehab and recovery). I am beginning to look for work with a view to DH being a SAHD. I cannot tell you how happy this would make him (and Nancy) and I simply want to sit on the till at Asda laughing at scrotes chatting to the lovely customers

Purdey Have you tried writing - you do have a gift for narrative!

One of the great things about the whole interweb revolution is that you don't have to go through a publisher. You can just self-publish on Amazon Kindle. The benefit of which is that you keep 75% of your earnings whereas if you go through a publishing house you get 10% and they get the rest for "admin".

Google it - there's lots of people publishing this way now. You'll get an income and by writing you can work things out of your system. You don't even have to write fiction. You could write a manual about Trying to Conceive, packed with everything you've learned so far.

Purdey you are amazing, what you said to nomio really struck a chord with me too. I feel the despair and hopelessness. I'm sitting here now with tears in my eyes as I can feel that AF is about to make an appearance yet again but what you said is right it doesn't matter what other people are doing, our babies will come and will wait and it will be worth it.

Damn you, Purdey, you made me start crying again!

Seriously though, thank you. You always know exactly the right thing to say. Knowing that you have been through it all and ended up with your gorgeous little girl gives me hope.

I agree with what so many others on here have said-you should definitely write for a living. Either a memoir or a fertility book.