April TTC girls! Where there's a new baby! Tons of BFP's! And lots more to come!

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New thread girlies!! :) hope this is okay.

Cupcake, you have lovely DS- well usually lovely DS. I know it is sad but you will have more babies. Make the most of DS until then.

Cupcake you will have another one I know things are difficult but try and stay positive. How is h now? And how is ds in his new bed?

Hope u DS slept lulu :) and I know, it's just getting to me now as it's happened twice but both miscarried and it's been almost a year now TTCing.

And thanks Ducky i know. H is okay lol just okay, has his moments where he's so nice like he used to be then he's horrible again lol.
And DS loves his new bed! He's been surprisingly good in it and doesn't climb out in the night. He did wake up at 4am this morning but that's become normal!
How's ur DS this morning Ducky?

You'll get there cupcake, you have plenty of time.

DD is getting very excited about her birthday at the moment. She says she will have a party with cake and candles and presents. And apparently, peas and sweetcorn on Bob the Builder plates . It will actually just be my family all meeting at my sister's on Saturday, hope she's not too disappointed!

I can imagine cupcake, being pregnant but not having a baby at the end is awful. Try and stay positive and you will get there, you will have a beautiful baby

I need to think of something to mark dd's birthday I just don't know what to do as it will be a really difficult day for me I need to get some nice flowers for her grave too

Ds is improving still apparently his cough can last a few weeks though

Bless her Bears!! :) I bet she'll enjoy it tho!

Ducky how about making a cake on her bday and icing it and then putting candles on. Make a wish/a special message for her and blow them out.

Or buy some pink balloons and write some special messages to her and tie them to the balloons and then let them off outside so they rise up to her. Maybe buy a little special ornament or something collectable that u can buy one of each year on her bday?

My auntie and uncle go to my cousins grave on his bday every year and then they all go out for a family meal. They do it every year as tradition.

And good in DS! :) he'll be better in no time.

Talking about H... He's woke up and being a complete tw*t! excuse my language.

I like the balloon idea I don't eat cake

What's he doing cupcake

I think If I ever have to deal with what happened to you Ducky I wouldn't mark the birthday. I know that might sound shocking but I would rather lock that memory in a mental box, tie in with weights and drop it into the ocean of my mind.

Otherwise I would have to keep repeating year after year, when not pregnant I have a photographic memory, I remember every detail and I think it would just be too hard.

But seeing as you aren't weird like me, a cake sounds like a lovely idea

cupcake I just know your time is coming soon, you usually get a BFP a few cycles after your MC and I have a good feeling about this next one. Or you could look at it another way, the statistics really should be in your favour. I remember TTC the same time as you, you started your cycle just before me but we were on the same bus.

Tbh siarie, if it was up to me I wouldn't do anythig just because of how heartbreaking it will be. I should be organising a party not flowers for her grave. But she is my daughter and I think of her every single day and would feel awful knowing that I didn't do anything for her birthday

Maybe take a bit of time by her grave leave flowers/teddy whatever is appropirate . I lost a long term bf a few years back and in a way I am glad I havent made any commitment to marking his memory . Your feelings and emotions WILL change and you dont want to feel in 4/5 years time that you still have to mark her birthday with a set routine. First anniversaries are difficult ,take time to remember her but dont ever feel you cant look forward . She'll always be with you

He's just being snappy! On his man period so it's a takeaway for tea tonight lol!

N Ducky everyone's right, just do what u thinks appropriate and what may give u a little bit of comfort.

Siarie ur right, it'll happen soon :) 3rd time lucky right?

Ducky, I totally understand about you marking DD's birthday in some way, and I think it will be a special way to remember her. Even though your life will move on, you'll never forget her, so having one day a year to do something special to remember her could be a positive thing in a way; she'll always be a part of your life, and when DS is old enough to understand, he might want to join you in doing something to remember her on her birthday. I really like Cupcake's balloon idea. Or even just spending some time at her grave, like Poppet says, and maybe talking to her would feel right.

Cupcake, you'll definitely have a new DS or DD on the way soon, I know it

I forgot to say congratulations Steph! Another little fellow for the football team I hope you're both doing really well!!

Thanks lill :) I hope so!

And oh my gosh yes! Steph! Can't believe she's had her baba! Hooe ur both doing well! And getting lots of cuddles ! :)

I'm feeling very rough tonight! My head is banging! I'm not looking forward to work tomorrow! I'd love a whole day in bed with cups of tea and a magazine :)

Sorry to hear you aren't feeling great cupcake maybe an early night is in order for you?

I went to get my MATB1 form today and the place I'm registered is a birth centre (which I'm hoping to attend myself). I wasn't expecting to see so many tiny babies! Can't believe I have one inside me.

As much as she kicks I just can't visual the actual end result yet, is that weird?

OMG Siarie, I've been feeling exactly the same!!! I keep telling DP that I can't believe we're having a baby - to the point where he told me to stop saying it because it's getting repetitive
But I really, really can't grasp it at all. even though my little wriggler is wriggling and kicking all the time! I think it's because I wanted it so badly for so, so long that the fact it's happening just seems too good to be true!
For the same reason, I sometimes get really scared something will go wrong

Well out little wriggler has had a boys' night with DH and FIL while me, MIL and SIL went out for a meal and to the theatre.

I came back to find him between them on the sofa quite happy. He has had his bottle and is almost asleep. We are having a nightcap. I am having Bailey's with ice which isn't something I often have but PIL have odd drinks in the house.

Off back home tomorrow after lunch. Grandmas coming for lunch to PIL.

DS hasn't slept all night, and I mean literally all night! :( he went to bed at 8pm woke at 11pm (just as I wws about to drop off) and hasn't been to sleep since. So ive had no sleep at all. :( I have to get ready and go to work in a bit :( :( DS will have already had his nap by the time I'm home so I will not be able to sleep till he's in bed tonigjt :( dunno how I'll do this! :(

What has he been doing all night? Crying? Playing? Was he just wide awake?

Oh lulu he's done everything possible! He sat crying first for hours! So i gave him calpol in case he was poorly or teething. And a bottle of warm milk. That didn't work at all. I lay in his bed with him but he just sat and made this awful moaning sound! Wasn't crying he was just making a noise. Then I took him to my bed and lay him down there, still making a horrible noise. Put in the night garden on the iPad for him to watch as he usually falls asleep to it. Didn't work tho! So I came downstairs and he's been playing ever since. I have no idea how I'm supposed to get through work feeling this exhausted ! :(

I still can't believe he was in me for so long!

Steph did a sneaky birth to surprise us all :,)

Lulu sounds like you had a lovely time!

Cupcake that's crap hope your feeling ok (as possible!)

I woke up to a text from h saying he made a bit of a mess but will tidy it up when he gets back from work. I go in the lounge to find the sofa cushions all over the floor, all his bowl and cup left on the side and bloody porridge all over the kitchen as if I'm going to leave everything like that until he gets back!

It usually takes us about 2 - 2 1/2 hours to drive home from PIL. Took almost 4 today. Nightmare. DS DS was as good as gold. We stopped and fed him at a services and he just settled srtaight back down. I drove and DH kept him amused in the back when he was awake. The snow was awful near PIL - moors in W Yorkshire .

Anyway. How is DS Ducky? I hope your DS gets some sleep tonight Cupcake.

I am knackered from driving and concentrating so hard. DH said he will do the 3 am feed. I have had a bath and am for my bed.

Ducky I hate It when they do that!! DH does it every time im at work n I come home n have to clean! Grr!!

Lulu im surprised u got through all that snow! People went crazy lol! Glad ur back safe :) n I hope DS sleeps too! He's not asleep yet :( playing up again and im dying for my bed! Ive got peanut butter Oreos to get me through it! :)

I have got some cheese and crackers and a mug of tea and a hot water bottle.

He's in bed asleep! But for how long?? Lol! I'm gonna rush off to bed now and sleep as much as I can :)

Lulu I lovvveeee cheese and crackers! Yum yum! :D