Have 2dc aged 4 and 2. One of each. Dd took long time to get. Ds happened quickly. Have spent last year persuading dh into another one. Recently moved house and he got new job so space and money make it possible and he agreed. Ditched contraception last month. Am in 2ww now with some early symptoms but only 11dpo. Also I know from past experience that I ha symptoms every month for two years when ttc1 and it bore no relevance to the month I got my bfp at all.
Anyway now I am a few days off af I am totally worried it may be bfp and whether it is what I want after all. Always envisaged a famiy of three kids but am so tired with 2, pelvic floor is buggered and relationship only really just survive four years of resentment over dh not having boobs or ever waking up at night (seriously, he has slept through a police raid next door and our burglar alarm let alone babies screaming).
What do I want?