Babymad - are you ok? I am worried about you? you seem out of sorts and wired up. Make yourself a nice cup of tea and curl up and read your book if you can (I know you have kiddies to look after). Take good care of yourself today, you need to re-charge and take stock. Sending you big hugs and lots of babydust. You are doing everything right and everything you can, let that be a comfort xx