Oh perhaps I will just go for it then- I'm feeling like I haven't tried my best for this cycle and it's probably our best shot
I've eaten like a pig and indulged in red wine. I'm a tramp!!!
Is juicy still on here? And maybe? I would love to check in on them.
I fly out to to Brno 2 weeks on Wednesday but then we travel to a clinic in Zlin which is a sister clinic of reprofit.
We have been matched with a donor already- she is 22, 5'4" and weighs 8 stone. She is a university student.
I have had a long acting down regulating injection and I have to start oestrogen tablets on Tuesday to build up my lining. I have also sneakily started to take 10mg of pred a day to kill off those NK cells.
It suddenly occurred to me last night though that even this isn't a given- we have been told that we are guaranteed 2 good blastocysts to put back or we get another go but it could still go wrong at any hurdle. I'm trying very hard not to entertain these thoughts but the fear is there. I dream about bleeding early again and wake up bereft.
Last night I dreamt that I was 9dp5dt and out to lunch. I started bleeding so much that the tin of Vaseline in my pocket was covered in blood and I was frantically wiping the blood off. Does anyone here analyse dreams??!!!
I need to get positive but also mentally ready for the worst- an impossible feat I think 
Res- just wanted to say that I completely understand the pain if a cancelled cycle. I had one cancelled when I failed to down regulate last October/November. The frustration was immense. I think I cried more than when I miscarried! I hope you are ok xxx
Are lots of people about to test on here? Could we have a tiny roll call just so I can catch up?
Xxxxx