Eggcellent egg buddies - a thread for all those IVFing in January, February and March - Volume 2

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Hi all. As promised, a sparkling new thread that is going to see a lot of action in the next few weeks, I hope!

MP - cyanosed lips on a 2 (?) year old? I'd have lost the plot. Hope he's OK.

Nobeer - Google Kate. See if you're impressed, inspired or irritated!

Thanks res
I'm glad there have been lots of BFPs but I do feel a bit sad.
Going to the clinic tomorrow to chat about next cycle. I'm meant to be meeting a pregnant friend on Saturday and I just don't feel like it. Would it be awful of me to put it off until it feels a bit less raw? Our first children are the same age and it just feels hard at the moment. I'm not sure I can cope.

Ah One I didn't know it had been properly confirmed. That's utterly crap for you both. How are you feeling?

Don't meet the pregnant friend. Be kind to yourself and don't put yourself through that.

I feel not too bad. I wasn't expecting it to work. I don't expect it ever to work. It just doesn't seem possible.
Dh keen to jump back into another cycle ASAP but I don't know. I'm not sure what I want to do. I want another baby but I cannot see it ever happening and because of that I feel reluctant to put myself through it again and waste another £5k.
I'm not keen on my clinic but the next nearest one is twice as far away and I'm not sure how doable that is. I don't think I will have success at the clinic I'm currently at.

Have texted pregnant friend and asked if we can meet in a couple more weeks. Just need a bit of time I think then I will be ok.

One - how easy will it be to avoid the pregnants for a while? For me it was impossible so I gave up. I remember vividly one morning at a play centre when I suddenly realised why I was the only one on the play frame with the children; I was the only one not pregnant or with a newborn in arms. I wept silently in the slide whilst the toddlers looked on curiously .

Hey ladies,

My oestrogen results came back after finding the ovarian cysts and they're boarder line so I have to stay on Buserelin until Monday to check they have gone down before I can take my oestrogen tablets. If they haven't I think it'll be cancelled.

I'm feeling very low

Hugs for all the blue buddies

Wishwash it's better to wait and stay on the buserelin to make sure isn't it? I understand you feeling down though. Hope the cysts bugger off!

One give yourself time to get over this before deciding anything about further treatment or other clinics. You're allowed to feel down before you pick yourself up again. Feel free to rant on here.

Yeah you're right Turquoise. I think it's more the uncertainty that's getting to me. I was so confident on Tuesday! That was the easy bit that all went wrong still. I hope they bugger off too x

(((One))) Do give yourself time to get over this. I thought I was fine and then burst into tears in my review appointment.

I think it's a good idea to check out the other clinic too. We went with the second one we went to, just felt more comfortable with them.

(((Wish))) I hope they do.

Res I'm not sure if I'm irritated, inspired or impressed. A bit of all if that's possible! I'm glad she admitted it was gruelling process. I unfortunately clicked on a DM link, so had to read the comments. Adrian from London made me snigger with "Too much information."

Wish - am keeping everything crossed for you that things work out.

One - thinking of you lots too. Take your time to find a clinic you are happy with but only if you want to put yourself through the trauma of another cycle. And don't feel bad about avoiding the pregnant lot. They will understand and your friend will come round, I'm sure.

Nobeer - how are you? What is a DM link?

Stars - how are you feeling today?

Still - welcome!

Marypops - hope your little one is better now.

I am rubbish at writing all the personals, so hello to everyone I have missed and hope you are all having good Valentines' Days. Xxx

Morning Bad DM=Daily Mail. I try not to click on their links, especially the sidebar of shame!

Wish Fingers crossed the buserelin does the job. Try to do something nice and distracting this weekend.

Brooker Did I see you pop in above? I've been a bit lame on keeping up to date on here too.

AFM, AF 2 days early, hope that won't bugger up Natural FET which I'm hoping will now happen in March, or maybe April. Depends on what immunologist says next month. Going away with DP for weekend so will hopefully forget all about it for a few days.

Happy Valentine's to all Egg Buddies (and lurkers )

So, who's going to be with me in March/April on a cycle? It seems as if the thread might get really quiet soon and I need company!

Wish - hope your levels get to where they should be next week. I have to say that I don't really understand your position clinically but I want you to be able to complete your cycle!

Me res!! Scratch on 21 march, start my cocktail if pills, patches, jabs and Viagra (!) around 25 March x

Possibly me in April if we go for cycle 2 and if I've had a period in march.
I've been off progesterone for four days and no sign of anything. Slightly worrying. Nurse said to phone them if nothing by next Tuesday.

However given that it turns out we have crap sperm and not great eggs (How? How did we conceive ds? How?) combined with my absolute certainty it won't work I'm not sure if we will go ahead or not. I've started chucking out my baby stuff from ds this last week. No point hanging on to it anymore. :-(

Hugs One. How many cycles have you had?

Oh God, One, the baby stuff. The nearest I have come to considering seriously a divorce was when DH suggested about 2 weeks after our first failed cycle that I (not we, I) should decide what to do with it all. He'd already concluded there would be no further need .

Go for cycle 2. You've come this far. It means so much. You owe it to yourself. But change your clinic.

Val.

Maybe Nobeer, too.

Where are Fab and Beetle these days?

And Pip, hello to you if you lurk.

I have a load in the loft res which I fear will stay there forever more. There was a bit in the spare room though - rocker, walker, bouncer. Took it to the charity shop. Also some clothes left in ds's nursery. I can't look at them anymore.

I might contact the other clinic. I'm not sure - it just feels like it will be a waste of another £5k. I just feel that my gut instinct which originally had no basis has been proved correct and so my further instinct of no more babies will also be correct. I just can't see it.
Dh was adding up the cost of it tonight and I'm not sure I want to spend that amount of money again on something I have zero hope in. Dh was talking about looking into adoption but he seems to think you just put your name on a list and then you get given a baby . I do not think it is as simple as that!

Res, I wish! I do want to do my FET with little only ever frostie. So maybe.....

One, oh hun, don't chuck it yet. I understand tho. I have a garage full of boxes of all toys, clothes, teeny babygrows, bottle sterilisers blah blah blah and I'm not sure how I can ever ever get rid if it. If all I have is DS my even more of a miracle than ever, it is all even more precious! Arghhh! I do agree with Res tho, go for another cycle if you can face it, it often takes more than one. But having faith in your clinic is important too. Hugs. Please pm me if you want, as we are in a similar position in many ways (although not ever two cases the same I know!)

On a positive note about friends, I received an absolutely amazing card from a friend today who hasn't been through ivf but said the most moving and amazing things to me. She just grasped how all this felt to me and how others may respond but she was so different. I cried! Obviously! So so nice to also be understood in RL.