This is maybe a strange question, but does anyone else get cold feet (not literally
) in this ttc business when you think of the realities of trying to be parents to a new baby? I am having a major attack of that tonight!
It's not the baby thing in general that scares me, it's the idea of timing. We will be moving again next Dec, potentially anywhere in the UK but with a high likelyhood of having to go to the US for three years with DHs job. He is also embarking on a fairly demanding new job and course this month which finishes in Dec, MIL keeps phoning to tell me I must leave him enough time to study, basically she means I mustn't live in his pocket. This drives me mad, given that in the last 2 1/2 years that we have been married, he has spent at least 18 months of that away with his job, with much of that time in Afghanistan, I have never lived in his pocket, our marriage has always very much been about us having our own lives and grabbing what time we can have together. I don't know why though, but MILs words have just panicked me though! I don't want to try to move with a newborn, or live even further away from family than we already do when trying to deal with being new parents.
Sorry everyone, this is just an attack of nerves! Writing it down, I've decided it's actually DH's job that panics me, not the idea of a new baby! And I know that there is never a perfect time to have a new baby. But goodness when I actually let myself think about the practicality of things, it is nervewracking! I remember having a very similar conversation about this with someone two buses ago I think.
Please tell me I'm not alone in thinking "what the hell are we doing, trying to have a baby?" sometimes!?