The Elderberry Pavlovas: still chasing that 'copter in the hope of a festive BFP. Thread 16 (the one where Happy was left in charge!!)

[happylass]

Here we go again.....

The smallprint –
Berries have a strict entrance criteria (TTC #1, over 30, TTC for 6+months, NO instadiffers, must have a special pot) and def no mention of baby dust or baby dancing UGH !!! Ooooh aren’t we strict!

I've been awol off mn again. Just been catching up. I'm so so sorry feather and lady. Thinking of you and wishing you well.

Sorry that you had a disappointing appt today sid. It doesn't seem fair.

Not sure if I'm 9 or 10dpo now. Had progesterone test Monday and dh has jizz test in morning. I still know nothing about the thrombophillia as the specialist nurse at the clinic doesn't seem to actually understand what it is/what I need to know/potential problems!

Chuckling at the diplodocus!

sid shame your clinic doesn't also do private work. Lots of nhs ones do now. Also a shame that you didn't whack the idiot next to you...that would have been hilarious!

bunny you will be eating your words come feb time missy!

Maybe kitty I sure hope so!

RP???!?
no I haven't chart stalked and noticed your temp has stayed up at all

What's this I hear? Someone who needs to pimp? RP??

Hi everyone else, hope you're all doing ok? I've been laying low in a small phase of things-are-going-to-go-wrong fear recently. Turns out hiding from life can help for a short while anyway.

Thunder is that a name change? Because if so it is brilliant

Are you okay? May I ask, were you fears prompted by some symptom or just general anxiety? v v much hope all is well

Merk yes but, I have noticed in recent cycles that my temp often drops the day after AF starts, so a high temp today may not mean anything. Also, although I am 13dpo according to FF, my calc makes me only 11dpo, so not time to break out the internet cheapies just yet!!

I have not so far had any AF or pg symptoms but then I often don't have AF symptoms If AF isn't here by the weekend I will test but I am fairly sure I'm not and can't bear the bfn today....

Anyhow, listy?

Bunny - 33, TTC since June 2012, just had lap/hyst, PCO and bit of endo, IVF/ICSI in January hopefully!
RevoltingPea, 34 ttc since May 2013, some, er 'mechanical' ishoos, AF due any day now!

Revolting pea- ha!

RP it's not been brought on by any specific symptom, no. It comes from the general underlying fear following my last mc added to the fact that I've got to the point now that if something does go wrong I would have to go through a delivery rather than a D&C and that idea really fills me with cold fear. Hearing a few stories of people miscarrying at this stage certainly doesn't help!

Will look out for your testing at the weekend then. Fingers crossed....

Hello all,

Just checking in for the first time in a while. Forced myself offline this week to avoid obsessing. I'm alright and it seems I've been 'lucky' in the sense that I've not had to have surgery or methotrexate. My hcg levels are coming down more and more every day - yesterday it was 47 - so no more hospital visits for me till next Wednesday when they want to do a final test to confirm hcg is below 5. I've not been to work all week and feeling incredibly guilty about that.

The fertility nurse called last night and we had a long chat. She says that her personal opinion is that what happened to me was a 'tubal abortion' and that here's no reason I can't go on to have a normal pregnancy. I don't know what to do at the moment - get on the IVF waiting list or give clomid one last bash. Maybe it's too early to make that sort of decision.

ANYWAY. Great to see things are moving for so many. Lots of IVF rumblings which is brill. sid sorry you had such a shit time yesterday. rp fingers! toes and everything crossed for you. lady hope you're ok. thunder loving the name change and hope your anxiety blows over. I'd imagine it's natural to feel the way you do after your experience, but just know that the odds are that everything is perfect.

Will catch up further back on the thread soon. Sorry if I've missed anyone out with major news. to all.

Aaaaaggggghhh my head is spinning! Had my appt with the nurse this morning, we went through all the many many forms and signed them AND I had my injection lesson! She is ordering my drugs for me, I will be on a short protocol.

BUT don’t get excited my dear Berries, because of the festive period it is likely I will miss 2 cycles! another reason to hate the c-word! grrrrrrrrrrrrr

sorry its all me me me, i'm at work and don't have chance to read back, will catch up tonight

I will also be on the short protocol Bunny. It will be here before you know it so stop that stressing, enjoy Christmas and get your's and DH's bods in the best working order that they can be for when you start.

Hi all, wow there are quite a few teacher berries!

That's good news Feather, how many cycles of IVF would you get? It's good to know it can happen with clomid anyway.

Oh no, Bunny - is starting on the 2nd is still a possibility? How about trying some foot stamping?

Pea still will have FX for you, in the 'good luck' kind of way but also in the warding off evil (AF witch) kind of way.

Hoping Bristowpooch is ok My pooch was throwing up most of Tuesday night, but I'm sure that was down to her penchant for, erm, 'cow puddles'.

Am a bit as someone has just posted in the Infertility section about how they have been TTC for 5 months now and she's not pg yet.

Anyway, I'll put up my updated details tomorrow, after FC appt

feather so good to hear from you and that you didn't have to make that awful decision

rp yes thunder did have a name change. Lets just say the copter thread was very flatus based yesterday

birdy how terrible for her ...

bunny don't stress about the injections. Once you've done one or two you'll get used to it

Evening all!

Hectic work week so been popping in and keeping up but not posting - wanted to make effort today to say hello and wave but capable of nowt else!

I went for my blood test at the clinic today and started crying as soon as I got to reception because the last time I was there I was so happy. They took me through to the counsellor and I'm so glad I got to see her. She said that infertility is like a bereavement except worse because there's no end in sight, and on some sort of psychology grief scale, a failed IVF cycle is one point higher than a stillbirth. So I'm feeling better about feeling bad, if that makes sense!
Good to hear about all the IVF appointments, I hope somebody else gets to be an IVF instadiffer!
Feather, great news that you've managed to keep your tube and hopefully clomid will work again for you.

lady glad you got to see the counsellor and that you're reassured that it's ok to feel as you do. Well, normal, to feel as you do. Take care x

Oh, lady, I really feel for you and what you've been through and glad you got to see a counsellor. Is it something that you can do regularly? The worst thing about my situation is that there was just so much hope for a week. I feel such a fool for allowing myself to believe I was really pregnant. I know I should be thankful for not having to have an op or horrible drugs, but I'm bloody angry. And scared that the tube has something wrong with it and that this will happen again. Going to the gp tomorrow. It was meant to be my first visit re pregnancy, but instead I'm giving her all the hospital notes from the last week.

birdy I get two rounds of free IVF at Hammersmith. Anybody know anything about the place? No doubt it has 2% success rate if my luck is anything to go by (*sorry all. Just wallowing at the moment. I'll go away now and come back if and when I can be a bit more positive).

Gil Ok boss, I guess it will be good to have a few drinkies at our work Christmas party!

birdy foot stamping won't work I'm afraid. Depending on AF things could clash with when main FC or local FC is closed over the festive periods.
And how very dare somebody post in infertility after 5 months

But kitty the needles are scary!!!

Hugs lady

feather don't worry about wallowing, we all do it from time to time, and it's understandable

Oh Bunny poor you! I'm not good with needles and would find that tough.

Feather don't know what to say. But my goodness, you are due a break.

Think AF symptoms are here :(

bunny mine were so thin I just let them rest on my skin until they fell in and it didn't hurt a bit ..promise!! The thought of it is actually worse

bunny mine were so thin I just let them rest on my skin until they fell in and it didn't hurt a bit ..promise!! The thought of it is actually worse

RP are you sure they're AF symptoms? You're late and your chart is tri-phasic

Merk what is tri-phasic, please? :)

I am 98% sure they are AF symptoms. I never really notice much about AF - apart from the bleeding, obviously - I am quite lucky in that I have very few symptoms and before I started ttc I could never tell when it was coming. But I have slight cramping and a 'full' feeling there which I think is pretty normal for me before AF. Also (TMI-TMI-TMI) I feel kind of - er - juicy - down there which is normally the prelude....

Will test tomorrow if I don't get AF today! Am wearing the Pad of Pessimism though.

Arf at pad of pessimism. I hope you are wrong, but will leave you in peace
tri phasic pattern