barking I am with you there hon, was (and still is) such a mixed bag of emotions at the start, so bloody awful with what has happened but such happy memories of when I was pg too. Felt like I was betraying them somehow??
I know people say it, and sounds F stupid but it does get a bit easier as time goes by, but still hits you just as hard when it overwhelms - the length of time between these gets longer and the complete inconsolable sobbing episodes are getting shorter too.
Soo positivity!!! well done you on dtd, and having your baseline to start from!!! take it easy over the next little bit though if you can and be really, really kind to yourself.
help!!! I think I may have to start using FF - have avioded so far as I dont want this to be all consuming, but am on cd15 and sign on lh on OPK's. Will have a look at it but I may need some help figuring it out.
happy thats all a bit pants 
when is the wedding? my OH is mostly great, but sometimes he just does not get it! we got engaged in march but did not plan a date as we had our big holiday coming up - he has not expressed anything about when or where he wants to get married - all previous conversations were instigated by me and I know if I told him what i wanted he would go along with it, but sometimes I just want him to 'be the man'!
we have just finished our break from ttc - in trying to be supportive he leaves all the decision making to me, saying I should do what is best for me - this is great but really gives me no idea what he really wants/feels and feel like I an carrying the weight.
RP really don't beat yourself up - have been at this for nearly 2 yrs and am massively still learning - and also until AF turns up you don't really know what is going on. I always thought my cycles were fairly textbook, around 27-29 days, though had a couple that were 31-32 since we started ttc. first 16 months just used calendar to work out 2ww, then used OPKs in month 17 and did not have LH surge until CD19! soo that is when I found out about short lp, panicked and read a bit about vit B6, bought loads and started taking that day.
That was the cycle I then got my BFP (that sadly did not stick), whether it was due to the B6 extending the lp or the fact that we dtd at least once every single day (was exhasting!) I will never know. We are back on the ttc bus and I am not taking the B6 as when I was pg i could not find enough evidence to support carrying on with B6 or stopping once you were pg and how safe it was for the bean etc. this caused me loads of stress so am just going to see what i can manage on my own this cycle.
Think will go to gp for re-referal to fc next month if no BFP - typicaly we were on the waiting list when got pg.