The Elderberry Pavlovas: sit on the sofa of hopefulness and make yourself a special omelette while prescribing the vomming cat to those that deserve it and observing the lunching of the tactless.

[barkingtreefrog]

It's time for some more grads!!

The smallprint - Berries have a strict entrance criteria (TTC #1, over 30, TTC for 3+months NO instadiffers, must have a special pot)

My hubby hates the pressure and i hate myself for pressurising him too!

CD10 here Bunny and heading towards shag fortnight week as Ov could be any time between cd18 and 23. Hoping tomorrow I'm back to 100% and we can start practising.... But DP is in for his operation on the 6th June (no dtd for potentially up to 4 weeks) which could come 2 days after Ov, or 2 days before. I'm sticking with the positivity, so obviously I'm definitely expecting Ov by cd20 otherwise we can't maximise the possibilities of the post HSG BFP plus me remembering to take the fit b6 every day (bar the one day I was in hospital) to fingers crossed lengthen my LP. And I think if anyone deserves a post HSG BFP it would be me, surely?!?!
Hope everyone had a lovely sunny day, it was gorgeous out there!!

Morning Berries. Had a lovely night away with DP last night and will be exploring the West Country today before heading home tonight for a week of revision and reports
Good luck to all those entering shag week. Barking you more than deserve your BFP after what you've been through in the past week. Somewhere in the 2ww here though not sure where due to the weird OV happenings. At least a week to wait before any pimping opportunities though I think. Have a lovely day all.
PS - anyone seen Pip or Merk?

Morning peeps! Hope you're all having a good bank hol!

Think I might be on the CLOL as well bunny, hence why I've got blind drunk 2 days in a row in my 2ww. Just really don't think I will do this without assistance now. I'm not even massively sad about it, I think I've just finally accepted it. Roll on iui in aug!

happy think pip popped in a few days ago but haven't seen merk for a while. Wanted to tell her I've finally learnt what a merkin is haha

Well girls a momentous thing happened yesterday - I played cricket and managed to hit loads of balls! I always shy out of stuff like this as I'm generally crap and thought all my horrid childhood memories would come back. I finally crack it at 33! Where was my 33 year old self when I needed her at school?!

Keeping my fingers crossed for you barking!

kitty can I ask how long you have been TTC? (lost track of everyone) I read somewhere online that NHS won't give ivf unless you have been trying for 2 whole years! Have you been through all the tests, fannycams (snigger) etc?!?

Feel sick as a dog today, really nauseous, a really hideous IBS symptom, I am so lucky NOT!

bunny 2 whole years, I'm afraid! Hence my negativity! Or acceptance, which ever way you look at it! I think it's time to stop hoping I'll 'get lucky this cycle'. Sorry if I sound depressing! I'm actually feeling strangely empowered that I've finally accepted it!

Oh and sorry to hear your ibs is playing up. Happy to send info re fodmap if you like x

Crikey 2 years is so long :-( Keeping everything crossed for you kitty

Well today I have jumped from the CHOL to the ROR and the SOP, DH has just dropped the bombshell that he is going away for work and will be away for CD16-19 grrrrrrr. Firstly I thought he was going to be away during DTD week but this is just as bad, he will be so stressed about work that I cannot imagine much DTD will be happening

Oh that's rubbish bunny, is there anyway he could commute or you go there?

Re my pregnant friend who Iimited her FB profile, she's just texted to say her grandad died over a week ago. I think she'd wondered why I'd not said anything as she'd announced it on FB. I'm such a horrid friend, I just can't bare the sight of her bikini bump!

kitty I know what you mean about feeling empowered - we've been ttc over a year and I am definitely more laid back about it than I was (apart from the odd pms moment when I feel rather sorry for myself). In fact I'm so laid back this month that I hadn't ovulated by cd20 (according to sonographer/ fanny cam lady - she said I had a dominant follicle so was prob about to ovulate)...

Btw You are so not a horrid friend just because you choose not to communicate with someone / follow their life via the medium of FB.

bunny sorry about your ibs and other half going away mid cycle that sucks. Maybe if I send you some laid back vibes from my ovaries they'll hold off til dh returns...

Thanks aquarius I think I'm going to call the fc nurse tomorrow and ask about privately funding ivf. I've just no hope that iui will work and I'm just wasting my time constantly waiting for things to happen.

Oh no Kitty, you aren't a horrid friend, it's completely up to you who you follow or not.

I've been trying for over 3 years now and I've done the desperate bit, got more and more laid back, been depressed, got back on track and now coming back into the desperate stage. It goes in cycles apparently...

Thunder, photos are up now

tally it's prob just because I'm approaching the 2 year mark next month. Know what you mean about cycles, yes I am generally worse in my 2ww but I also think I'm just being realistic. When is your appointment?

It's on the 11th, so next tuesday. No idea what the doctor will say, but hoping a test or two. I know my tubes aren't blocked but they mentioned a hycosy, to check for infection maybe.

Evening all. I think I will just forget about June and concentrate on hopefully being referred this month to the FC.

kitty you aren't a bad friend at all, I think us berries know exactly how you feel.

Evenin' all

Hope everyone's had a good bank holiday weekend?

Not much to report here. Managed the Manchester 10k yesterday without collapsing in the heat, so still wallowing in 'I'm so healthy' smugness. Oh and the dog tried to commit hara kiri by chocolate last night and cost us £140 in emergency emetics. Drama! CD48, no sign of AF as yet the contrary witch

All the berries who have been trying for a long time - I think I can sort of understand what you mean although obviously I'm not as far down the line as you guys. Having been an emotional wreck for most of the past year, I feel like I'm just starting out with the acceptance stage. I'm pretty sure now that between the random cycles and weird uterus, this isn't something that's going to happen au naturel despite the MC (I'm convinced the hormones from the implant had something to do with getting pg that time). Just hopeful that we get some sort of intervention sooner rather than later. At least it's taken the pressure off in the bedroom, dtd has got a lot more fun since I've abandoned all hope

bunny if you need laid-back ovary vibes I have them in abundance, I'll add mine to Aqua's for you! Rubbish when life gets in the way of the most carefully laid plans (HA! That's a joke. laid - geddit?) Hope your IBS eases off for you x

Kitty good luck with phoning the clinic. Perhaps going private will give you that control that we all clearly crave and which is very sadly lacking in the NHS system! And you're not a bad friend for FB blocking, FB isn't really an appropriate place for announcing sad/delicate news if you ask me or for posting baby bumps

Can't scroll back any further but hi to all other berries!

Oh, yes, we had a ferret emergency today and had to take one in for hydration. and blood tests. and antibio's. £300 later he's home but we need to take him back in tomorrow for more fluids. . Still don't know what's actually wrong though.

tally not long then. At least you know you can get pregnant once the docs work out how to get them to stick.

bunny a month off might give you sometime to relax anyway. Get back on form in July x

Ps Anyone seen charming recently?

Flipping animals eh Tally! Good job we love em. Hope Ferret Tally is on the mend soon (BoomDog is giving me the evils from across the room - unappreciative of having her life saved, clearly)

Hey boom and wow, doing a marathon is amazing! Sorry to hear about poorly pooch and the poorly ferret too Tally.

Thanks for get well wishes, I'm sure IBS will ease off once I eat a bit better, pigging out on holiday didn't help!

Is it just me or is it time for a new list?!?

Bunny - 33, Just started cycle 13, awaiting DHs jizz test, FX then referral to FC. Heading into DTD week!

Helloooo! I'm here! Cd54.....
I too am beginning to accept that we will not conceive without help. Feeling a little calmer. Still avoiding fb and babies of mothers who go on and on about them.
Hope the dogs and ferrets are ok. How are the cats? One of mine had a good sniff of a fox cub in the garden the other evening. Must do flea treatment......

Yeah, I've lost track of where everyone is a bit!

Bunny - 33, Just started cycle 13, awaiting DHs jizz test, FX then referral to FC. Heading into DTD week!
Boom - 31, ttc just over a year, long cycles (40-80days), awaiting jizz test results, need hycosy if AF every shows up, back at gynae clinic to discuss results 21 June.

Yey I love a list......

Bunny - 33, Just started cycle 13, awaiting DHs jizz test, FX then referral to FC. Heading into DTD week!
Boom - 31, ttc just over a year, long cycles (40-80days), awaiting jizz test results, need hycosy if AF every shows up, back at gynae clinic to discuss results 21 June.
Happylass -35. Cycle 10. AF due 2nd June-ish though maybe later due to late OV this month. Had initial blood tests with GP.

Oooh hi Charming! Thought I hadn't seen my crazy long cycle buddy for a while Glad you're feeling a bit more zen. I've got to agree, avoiding the friends with baby-related verbal diarrhoea is definitely beneficial. CD48 here, chugging along...

Can't speak for blind's amazing vomming cat, but my two are fine and dandy. Tried to worm them the other day, one was fine but his sister was an evil ball of claws and teeth. I still bear scars!