Excellent Egg Buddies continued! Anyone having IVF/ICSI in Jan, Feb and March 2013 please join us!

[fairypangolin]

We've run out of room on Karbea's Jan IVF thread and it is too much fun to stop! We're all getting into comfy clothes and enjoying the side effects and surprises (and occasionally some hand holding).

Crampy and anxious, thanks for asking

Oh God, delilah, I'm desperately sorry.

I remember from ectopics the blank awfulness of suddenly being stunned and babyless in a hospital bed. Are you in much physical pain?

delilah so so sorry, what a twisted path you've been down, I know it's hard, big love xx

Hello Vall it must be so tough especially with a little one ill. Hang in there.

fairy lovely news btw, well done x

Finally the witch has landed here, 16.35 so 5 minutes after reception closed at the clinic so I couldn't make appt for tomorrow although is this actually CD1 or is there some magic cut off time??

Well I'm having a beer anyway, self medication for the cramps cos there's deliberately no red wine in the house and hopefully it will be my last drink til christmas...

Evening all,

scarlett CD1 is 1st day of red bleeding I think although some clinics have cut off times for when af should arrive by for CD1. Am I right in thinking you will be doing short protocol?

noks the Dorchester childhood memories sound lovely, I'm actually a Wiltshire gal, but prepared to half kill myself driving for hours willing to drive over an hour and a half each way as they are all so lovely at the clinic and it was recommended by a friend

vallinna sorry for cramps and nerves. The 2ww is a real toughie and it's hard to be left on your own after being pro-active with clinic visits etc beforehand

sharon thanks for asking, scan ok, but got to go back tomorrow for another scan and egg collection scheduled for Thursday. Are you getting excited about Thursday when you can start injections?

Hello to everyone else.

Scarlett do you need a day 2 scan? With my clinic if you ring first thing then they fit you in that day, or see you on day 3 (not much difference apparently).

Thanks Sharon DS is miles better - which is almost worse as he is non-stop . Joking aside it is fabulous to see him so much better poor thing. If the brr-baby is sticking then it will have stuck by now IYSWIM!

That's good Vall. Fingers crossed the little one has settled in nicely inside and making himself comfy for the long haul ahead.

Well done Chocco. At least they are looking after you and keeping a close eye. That's encouraging. I'm on long protocol so sniffing on thursday and yes im getting nervously excited now. Only 3 sleeps to go.

Scarlett enjoy the beer!

Hmm I've been very light sporting since last weds, this was sudden full red flow, it is a CD2 scan before starting on short protocol yes, hopefully I'll get hold of them first thing and arrange a same day scan, I know they say CD3 is ok but I responded so poorlyadt find I don't want to waste a day of stim iykwim...

Eh? *so poorly last time. 1 beer

Hi all

delilah I am so very sorry. I can't imagine what you're going through now, having had such highs and lows over the past few days. Am sending you lots of cyber space hugs - it's just so f'king cruel, isn't it ? Noks xx

choco well you can be an honorary Dorcester gal for this. I will ask Grandad Tom and Great Aunty Dolly to look after you whilst you're down there

fairy congrats on your BFP! Well done - you must be absolutely over the moon.

I can't go forward on the thread for some reason so will post this and catch-up on page four in a minute.

I have just eaten a bucketful of salmon and feel like I'm going to pop, depositing fishy bits all over the lounge. I mean, I love protein, but this is ridiculous.

Noks x

scarlett - is is a large beer ? you need to share it with the group so we can all have a little booze by proxy. X

Hi everyone else.

Can't believe it about delilah.

Nx

Scarlett my clinic had a 2 or 3pm cut off for Day 1. I don't really understand it, but thems the rules...

I hope you can get your scan sorted tomorrow.

Val I'm glad your son is on the mend now. Crampy you say...?

choco you're nearly there!

Delilah thinking of you and sending you hugs

fairy yaaaay! a heart beat thats amazing news

val good to hear from you, good luck with your frostie

Got home at 11 last night the fragmin was a killer, i actually had tears. This IVF lark is such a rollercoaster isn't it? Asked the nurse if there was an alternative but there isnt just got to keep going and if I'm up the duff i have to continue until 10 weeks!

I'm feeling nothing at the moment...anyone else on the 2ww feeling the same? I'm thinking surely i should feel something, something not normal, something i have never felt before....but nothing really....i hope its all worth it!

scarlett are you tipsy? what i would give for a beer right now!

Actually to be honest i'm thinking i will have a few bubbles to celebrate DH 40th in New York this weekend, and the odd beer with lunch maybe? is that really bad? how much can it effect the outcome? obviously no hard stuff and not drinking to get drunk, just a nice glass of fizz or 2? I reckon if i am pregnant then its implanted its got its own blood supply and i cant get it drunk...god am i being a bad parent already?

HELP! what are your thoughts?

xx

Hello Honty

I don't know I'm afraid. You aren't being a bad parent but the advice seems to be to do what feels right for you. I've been told to do everything that I think will make me feel better and won't give me regrets at the end of it. If you feel like having a glass of champers then go ahead. If im really honest, I wouldn't but that is my choice and I wouldn't judge anyone for making their own choices. I hope that helps. Sxx

honty, I honestly don't think it will affect the outcome. If you are the kind of person who will beat yourself up over possibilities, then save yourself the anguish and don't do it, but otherwise I would have a glass. I had a cup of coffee with caffeine in this afternoon, after a month of decaf. I don't think it will make any difference and I am certain that I wot look back and blame myself if this cycle fails.

Also, I am also a bit symptomless :( I think it must be related to the passing of the triggershot.

Don't let this whole thing climb into your head Northey - keep the faith. X

I agree Northey. Try to relax and do something nice for yourself. Not long to go now. X

At 4pm on Sunday I had horrible horrible cramps. So bad DH called an ambulance. After gas and air, lots more pain, vomitting, agonising pain, and scans as well as decreasing obs on means the though they could see fluid the did a laparoscopy that turned into a laparectomy.

I had 2 litres if blood suctions out when I was under and was given 6 units. One of the two embryos had lodged on the scar tissue from my salpingectomy, and some part of its growth and stretching had ruptured my uterus.
While I was under DH had to make the decision to sacrifice the other embryo to give me the best chances of survival. He did the right thing! I would rather be with him and babyless than there being a chance come not being around. My uterus has been nicely saved, so pregnancy is still possible but not something I can see myself attempting again. Everyone has told me I can't decide now, but I have had a moment of clarity, I don't want it enough to risk my life again.

Operation was at 1am, I've been on the ward since 7:30am dozing on and off, and have just got out of bed for the first time today.

Thank god for iPhones and Facebook chat!

Ps, doped up on oramorph and diclofenac, hopefully the above us understandable.

Huge congrats to fairy and best wishes for a healthy preg.

Other embryo had to be sacrificed due to risk of uterus rupturing again in later pregnancy.

Delilah thank goodness you are ok. It is a truly terrible situation. Your poor DH must have been so worried. You can reflect on where to go from here once you are strong and well. In the meantime just concentrate on recovering and giving yourself plenty of time and space to heal both physically and emotionally. Sending you lots of healing thoughts. Try to get some rest. Night night xxx

Delilah thank goodness you are ok. It is a truly terrible situation. Your poor DH must have been so worried. You can reflect on where to go from here once you are strong and well. In the meantime just concentrate on recovering and giving yourself plenty of time and space to heal both physically and emotionally. Sending you lots of healing thoughts. Try to get some rest. Night night xxx

Delilah

As Sharonbenn said, thank goodness you are ok. Must have been a horrendous and heartbreaking time for you and DH. Decisions obviously need to be made but give yourself the time and space to make them. I wish you a full and speedy recovery and hope DH holds you tight, and you hold him tight too.

Night night.

Noks x