TTC baby number 1! af due xmas eve!

[lyndsey90]

This is my month number 5 TTC!!

Needing support of so damn anxious! Dreading Christmas because I don't know what it is going to bring for me! Anyone else have xmas eve as their due for af??

I refuse to test before but I'm not feeling hopeful :(

The witch got me....only very very light at the mo, but it's bound to turn into evil witchy nastiness. I am so sad and depressed, I was so sure this was our month! I had 6 lots of swimmers waiting for my pesky egg and yet it missed all of them. I think it's partly my fault, I am 30 in March and had this dream of announcing it to everyone at the party won't be happening now. This TTC mlarky is a real roller coaster huh. Why am I finding this so hard when others fall preggo so easily?
What makes me feel worse is that I got preggo by accident when I was 17 and didn't go through with the pregnancy, I've never exactly felt guilty about it as I know it was the right this to do but now I feel like I'm being punished.

Hi girls, hope you don't mind me gate crashing your thread. Just been reading your thread and I'm so glad there are places/threads to talk to people in the same situation. My DH and I have only just recently started ttc and without these threads I think I'd go mad not having anyone to talk to about it!

The pill has really messed me up. I'm 4 days 'late' since taking it, I've poas TWICE to see two BFN sticking their fingers back up at me so I'm now really confused about my stupid cycle. Who knows, maybe I'm not late, maybe I'm early! Ha ha!

Good luck to us all this year girls! I hope it's not long before we get the BFP!