Hand holding please

[louistheseventeenth]

I'm supposed to be testing on Wednesday 12th.

I'm finding it hard not to test early, but could risk a false negative anyway so I really need to behave myself and wait.

I've had three PG this year that have all ended in MC, one at 5 months which really messed me up.

I'm so desperate to be PG and don't know how I will make it through Christmas and especially new year if I'm not.

I'm so sorry about ur mc, sending a hug to u.

I find it really hard not to test early, Wednesday is also official testing day for me - had a bfn yesterday coz I couldn't resist poas.

thanks raspberrys....I hope you get your BFP on Wednesday.
Days just seem so long, don't they?

louis it sounds like you've had a tough year, so sorry for your losses. Amazing that uou've been through so much and are being so brave.
Hoping 2013 is an amazing year for you

thank you bugoven

well I've just tested and got a bfn....
Stupid as I'm not due till wed and it wasn't with fmu
Still gutted
I am a danger to my own sanity sometimes

Aw louis don't be too hard on yourself.

Hope you get your BFP soon, sounds like you've still got a chance this cycle! X

thanks bugoven,
I used to be so levelheaded....
I've recrossed my fingers for wed for both of us

I have the tests. Trying to exercise will power until tomorrow morning (CD42).
Also treated myself to some Bodyform Deos so am prepared either way.
Yesterday morning I started reading "infertility" threads and worked up to "large famillies" by the end of the day. Having a little daydream and staying positive

Louis - I also nearly tested this morning - it's very hard not to. Sending u hugs!! Don't be hard on urself, you've been through a lot this year and would like a positive end to it.

We can be poas buddies!! don't let me do it 2moro - there's one in the cupboard!!!! Dont poas till Wednesday!!!
Repeat after me:
I will not pee on a stick until Wednesday!!!

and remind me to buy a cheap test - can't stand the cb ones that say not pregnant - they may as well stick 2 fingers up at u at the same time

Hey louis how did you get on this morning?
I got another bfn. CD 42!
Not testing for another week. Revkon my cycle has just gone off track, it did this time last year too.

Sorry it's Tuesday isn't it?!? D'oh. Looking forward to updates tomorrow raspberry and louis

The vindictive bitch that is AF arrived in the middle of the night - anyone mind if I swear?!!

SHIT FUCK BOLLOCKS

Thanku - needed that!!

It's so frustrating. I desperately wanted this to be the month. I'll go and console myself with a mountain of chocolate and a good cry when I get home tonight.

Have u managed not poas today Louis? fx for u for 2moro.

Sorry about ur bfn bug. I'll share my chocolate if u like??!!

Handholding from me. I NEED to wait til Thurs at Least! AF due any moment now but def tomorrow. Somebody tell me to wait. I has achy boobs backache and frequent weeing.

Hi everyone,

I've managed not to pee this am, waiting for tomorrow now

Rapsberrys, sorry about AF, swear away it is rotten.

Bugoven, fx for next week, it must be such a long wait for you when your cycle is this long.

BrevilleTron, hello. Frequent weeing sound hopeful!

louis you appealed for a hand holding and actually I've needed that so much this last week. Thank you. Still really hoping you get your BFP tomorrow .

I am now enjoying sitting under a Christmas blanket in my biggest pants (honestly they are massive), mulling some and considering a takeaway for dinner. AF got me so raspberry I'll accept that offer of chocolate, thanks.

Glad my body didn't make me wait any longer. I have accepted 35 day cycles but 42 was a bit much!

Still hoping for a 2013 baby so much. I'm getting married and turn 30, it would be perfectly chaotic

Oh Bugoven i'm so sorry it is rubbish.

You sit there in your big pants and have some chocolate. all my pants are massive

YY to 2013 babies for all of us.

I'm in the big pants too. Damn AF regular as clockwork.
Still consoling myself with a good wage packet this week and may even go mad and eat AND pay the rent this month

Baileys for me and fx for the rest of you.

BrevilleTron, I'm sorry.

I've just tested and got a BFN too. I can feel AF creeping up on me.

Grrrrr.

I think thats all of us out this month?

Shall we reconvene next month for a slew of BFP?

Sorry about the bfn Louis

Reconvening next month would be fab!!

Wishing u all a very Happy Christmas, sprinkled with baby dust!!!

Thanks raspberries, I've actually turned insane again as AF is now late (which never happens) so a bit of me is secretly thinking, maybe I'll test again tomorrow....

All three of my pg's I've got a +ve two days before AF, and got a -ve on the day of AF this time, so doesn't seem likely, but I'm still secretlly thinking it...