Hello all
Welcome to eller and chunops
(it's Christmas after all!)
golden you didn't sound preachy at all, everything you said is so true! We all feel down about this whole process at some point or other and I think it's good to be able to put it all in prospective, something that I struggle with when I'm taking clomid but I've found the past week or so that I've been a lot more positive about it all. I'm sure it'll be short lived and once I get back to the clomid I'll be the crazy lady it always makes me into! I must admit I've done the same, panic at the thought of never having children and hope I don't have to deal with the reality of it, we're not there yet though!
mumalah sorry to hear af arrived! I've read that doctors advise a months rest after 3 months, I think it's totally up to you. I've been prescribed more clomid because I had to increase my dose to 100mg, I'm supposed to have 3 months then go back to the specialist but my appointments not until February so I was upset that I would have to miss a month, but now I have enough - I'm soooo tempted to carry on taking it so I don't 'waste a month'. I guess it's a decision I have to make closer to the time 
I've had a little bit of good news today, I rang up for my blood test results today, I convinced the nurse to let me have 2 blood tests this month because of the f*ck up they made of it last month, I was told to go on cd18 and then again on cd22 my bbt chart told me I ovulated on cd16 so I pretty much knew the cd18 result would be that I didn't ovulate surprise surprise i didn't ovulate, so I asked what the result was but they said they couldn't give me that info over the phone!?! But then said that the cd22 result was that I 'well and truly' ovulated!!!! She went onto say that a 'score' of 30 is considered as successfully ovulating (which I already knew and expect you all know as well) and that my 'score' was about 6 times the minimum 'score'!!!!! I'm soooo happy, hopefully 1 step closer! I don't hold out much hope for this month and I'm trying to stay level headed because af is due on Christmas Day - I don't want to be a blubbering mess as a serve up the turkey to my patents, husband and in-laws!
I'm now more sure than ever that I ovulated last month, getting a blood test 2 days after ovulation was never going to be accurate! When I asked at my scan this month if I'd been tested 5 days after that would the result be higher she said 'doubt it' well I think you'll find that 4 days later the results are worlds apart!!!!