Warning: miserable me,me,me post coming up...
So we had a really lovely day yesterday - went to a Christmas fair, then came back and had friends over for dinner and tree decorating.
Until...DH's phone rings and it's DBIL...and I hear his voice say "guess what, we're going going to have a baby!". I think I did a faintly comical freeze with bauble in mid air whilst my face just fell 
I couldn't believe how hard it hit me actually, I literally spent the rest of the evening fighting back tears whilst we had dinner with our friends. DH came and gave me a big hug after they'd gone and said that it made him feel a bit funny too so obviously then I started crying and basically haven't stopped
ridiculous right?!
I hate all these selfish uncharitable feelings but it's just so bloody unfair, they're younger than us, have only been married a few months, and it just wasn't their turn yet, it's OUR turn
I know I'm being stupid, they've not taken our chance from us, they're having their baby not ours yada yada...doesn't help though, not even a little bit. I haven't even sent DSIL a message congratulating her yet because I can't bring myself to do it while I feel like I wouldn't fully mean it 
And I've just remembered we're seeing MIL next weekend so I'm going to have to pretend to be all happy and excited as this will be her PFB gc so no doubt she's ecstatic.
Aaaargh.
FFS.
Sigh.
Is it too early for
?