BFP in 2012 Part 2 - step away from the COD and into this thread.

[WhenSheWasBadSheWasHorrid]

We filled the last one so I thought I would start no 2.

Whenshe my dr gave me an internal examination to check that my uterus & ovaries feel normal and to see if there is any particular tenderness or painful areas. Swabs were taken to rule out infection. The results came back fine. Apparently my uterus feels normal and no infection was found. Thankfully one tick off the list!

newbie that's good news about your results and uterus. Fx everything else checks out ok too.

winkle sorry you are taking a break. You are right to protect your relationship. I love my dh to bits and we have a great relationship but you have to keep working on it to keep everything running smoothly.

Best of luck concentrating on you and him (we will miss you if you are not around as much).

I wasn't sure if I should keep trying in Sept but the GP said to keep trying while everything gets investigated. I got the impression he thought I was a neurotic hypochondriac who has no real issue but should just chill out. please be right

Thanks Whenshe my DH thought we could have a result while I'm being checked out but i'm really keen to keep going :-/

Sorry I meant rest not result...have results on the brain!

Whenshewas you have a dd already right?

That's right kitty she is 18 months old. Part of me thinks you've done it before and you will do it again you know you can carry a baby to term.

The illogical paranoid part of me thinks either my dd was a fluke and I have a major issue or somehow something broke after having dd. By far the most likely thing is that I have just been a bit unlucky. Chem preg is horribly common.

The GP pissed me off a bit when he said that in the old days women wouldn't have known they were pregnant until about two missed periods and then suggested I just don't test for two to four weeks after a missed period. Completely unrealistic. I pointed out that I am never late and get implantation bleeding so I always know when it is happening.

Honestly can't believe he thought it was sensible not to poas for a month after a missed period.

So you had no problems before dd? Apart from the time it took me I had no mc ( that I'm aware of etc either) I don't know what's gone wrong now either, logically I think well I've done it before but now feel like is 2 in a row more then bad luck so I know how you must feel, the epu more or less said the same to me with this one although I pointed out that I actually had been over a week late with + test and and felt pg, that aside I would still have gone to the doctors after bleeding for over 2 weeks as that's definatly not normal for me, I literally had normal af, 3 days fine then have been bleeding for 8 days now ontop!!

Oh kitty that extra bleeding sounds awful. My heart really went out to you this month. At least with my last two cps I knew straight away it was going to go wrong. It wasn 't great but I didn't feel like it lost anything because I knew it was going to fail.

You were in limbo for do long it must have been hideous.

It was, it was so much worse then my previous mc as I wasn't expecting that and atleast when it went it was one day and I just knew, this time I thought it was over time and time again but kept having conflicting things like darker lines and hcg rising, what I worried this time was as the pregnancy seemed to be trying to progress that my progesterone is maybe low? I don't get any symptoms before af etc and this was the only time I had pg symptoms I just worry that may have helped but ofcourse they will not test etc until I go through it again, it just seems unfair especially as while I was bleeding and levels were still rising it was just a shrug we don't know, they wouldn't examine me or anything. Surley a blood test can't be that expensive??

Hi when kitty - so sorry you're both unsure about what the hell is going on. k limbo land is THE worst. I was in it but when I came out of it, it transpired that I had had a blighted ovum so I've never really wondered what when wrong; it was just there was nothing healthy there to grow (altho' the body kept on trying until week 10). I agree that when you've done it once, logic dictates that you should be able to do it again but I'm beginning to wonder. Watched a young boy get off the train today to be reunited with Mum, Dad and little sis. Little sis was chanting his name over and over. I got to the car then wept like a baby.

I know what u mean when. I sometimes fear I will never have a successful pg. I read here about these women who miscarried 9,10 times and I don't think I have the strength to carry on trying if it happens again and again.
Kitty yeah I really feel for u Hun. Those increasing levels gave all of us hope. But don't be scared. U made one good baby and will soon make another I'm sure. Hugs x

Thanks
Lcb try not to worry. I think these thoughts plague us all but half the TTC battle is being able to get pregnant so we atleast have that to start with, one day at a time and hope for the best!
Hi 10things I think I know who you are but ofcorse I'm likely to be wrong, thanks I know there were alot of good wishes for me I wish I'd had a happy end to the story, finding it hard as with each month I think god is it almost .... Months allready since we started?! Would be over 20 wks now without the first one now back to square one!
Got to decide on a girlie night out in sept for a reunion of types but 3 of the girls are pregnant, 1 a few weeks before I was first time, the second a few weeks before last and one pg with twins!! I know she's had a hard time and they are ivf babies but it will be a hard night
Resipia, sorry you had a hard time of it yesterday but don't give up, you can do it and you will, my dd dotes in her cousin, he was her first word so Want the same but my mum told me to greet each month it doesn't happen as a positive if I can, that dd gets one to one time with me to really allow us to spoil her and love her without being tired etc etc, It's not ideal but at the same time everytime she laughs or does something new my heart does swell up, I tried before she was to make the most of being free for nights out and hollidays and for the most part I can look back and think we had some really good years even though TTC was a bumpy ride

I'm still in the COD had a tough weekend hanging out with the bumps my pregnant friends. I am also not feeling any different so just preparing myself for AF to arrive. I feel that day when I'm pregnant is just goin so far far away. Don't think I'll ever get there.

Thank you 10storey!
Hopefully my made up symptoms will turn into a bfp as well!
Congrats. Is it your first one?

Congrats 10storey (good name, Stone Roses are excellent). Best of luck with it all.

red sorry you are feeling down. I too have spent the weekend hanging out with bumps. I thought I was doing well but I came home and sobbed in dh's arms for half an hour. I think a lot if that was wine induced though.

Thanks when I hv been sobbing in dhs arm all weekend too think he's getting fed up of me being this way but he keeps telling me it will be ok which helps. Just want this 2ww wait to be over now and just want to know

10story surely your good friend will now know its you as you've just pointed out that she has just joined!? I can imagine all the newbies on this thread now wondering if their good friend is you

Good point newbie!
Red why are u feeling so down during tww? Apart from the obvious is there anything else going on to bring u down?

Are you feeling any better red. It is do hard keeping sane when ttc, my mental state is clearly unstable - I had a sex dream about Tom Cruise last night, very disturbing stuff.

Yes watched Garfield earlier which cheered me up a bit! Would love to get a fat ginger cat

at your Tom cruise dream

My god, When...that's the stuff that nightmares are made of!

Feel very emotional still and can cry at the littlest thing! Not like me but not wanting to think its a symptom either. I'll know by this time next Sunday.

How you been when?