BFP in 2012 Part 2 - step away from the COD and into this thread.

[WhenSheWasBadSheWasHorrid]

We filled the last one so I thought I would start no 2.

Sorry I sounded so down there. I know we are all having a rough time at the moment. It will get better for us.

You're more than entitled to be down, When.

You've been through a very, very shit few months. :-(

Thanks nicola it just seems to be my body going wrong. A RL friend was so shocked the first one turned into a cp. She had to wait a week to get a very faint positive (which is now a 18 month old).

I feel tonnes better once the bleeding starts its the limbo that I find soul destroying. Part of the reason I really like these threads is hearing about others experiences puts everything into perspective. Fx for tomorrow morning for you.

Thank you. I'm trying to be hopeful, but I'm struggling, for some reason.

Will you keep TTC next cycle, or wait til you know what's happening?

Oh I'm sorry when that's a real shame
Lots of sad stories at the moment - we are surely due some happiness soon aren't we all?? X

Yet Nichola i have never had boobage pain but now it starts about 3 days after ovulation smiley and hangs around until af arrival. When i have been late, its lasted throughout as well

my nipples have started to burn. I have been sobbing all day. Change in cm. Weird tugs and twitches

still about 99% sure am not pregnant though. None of those are symptoms of anything apart from progesterone

In me personally. I get them most months is what i mean

i think complete lack of symptoms would make me believe

Sorry when and nic. Just met a friend for dinner who announced she was pregnant. For the first time I am not jealous, but really pleased for her. Shes been trying for a long time. A little part of me was envious but not much.

I kept saying to myself that I will have my own pregnancy and my own baby.

I had a good chat with my dh and he implanted some practical man thoughts.

We will go at it hammer and tongs next month and then i get fertility drugs

What is it with the pregnancies?!!

Thanks fatas and red

That's great news for your friend Red. You are right you will get your baby.

kick sorry you have been so upset today.

Ditto when. I will get over it soon.. Nothing else for it

Although I don't think I can take any more pregnancy announcements

Just going to bed very sad and sorry for myself. I'd give anything to be pregnant

Yeh me too red. I am having a whiskey and settling in for positively next month

When so sorry. We're here if you need us.
Nic the saga goes on and hope you get some answers soon. BTW, sore boobs for about 3 days pre-AF for me.
Red saw a friend today who's just had a 12 week scan after MMC a year ago. She's been thru the mill so, like you, was genuinely happy for her. Nice, warm, fuzzy feeling. It's good not to feel "grr".

Oh girls- wish I could give you all a big hug- its such a hard, upsetting time.

kitty - so gutted for you, truly. I hope the next few days are ok, you poor thing.

nic - fx for positive news in a day or two.

whenshewasbad- so sorry- what a shit thing to happen again. I definitely think you should go to drs- there might not be anything that they'll do at this stage, but atleast it'll be 'logged' officially, iykwim? Your uterus isn't a piece of shit love, it will carry a lovely baby for you one is these days. I know what you mean about feeling you're letting your oh down, I felt the same when I had my mc. But that's ridiculous thinking isn't it- imagine if it was the other way round, you wouldn't feel let down at all if the shit-boot was in the other foot. Be kind to yourself xxx

All of you lovely ladies be kind to yourself, we will all have babies one day, of course we will x

Faint line yesterday...AF today :-(

I knew what was happening at about 5 this morning when I woke briefly.

I'm also now heading for having AF on my wedding day. Hmmm.

Sorry abt it happening again when get lots of cuddles from DH and treat yourself to some wine and choc.

Gutted abt AF nic you can drink on your wedding day and hopefully have a honeymoon baby

Nic I'm so sorry af got you :(

I still have one shot this cycle before then!

But my app says I'm actually due the day after the wedding as my average cycle length is now 29 days.

Deep breath and carry on.

nic am and for you, can't believe it. Your body must have been on progesterone overdrive the last week or so then. That's a pain about your wedding day - how big is your dress? Is having AF going to be wildly impractical?

Big hugs to when

Hope everyone is feeling a bit chirpier this morning.

Sorry she got you nicola will see you on the sept thread

I don't know how I am going to get through today. I woke up and remembered in the 4 months that we have been trying 4 people have announced their pregnancy, except us.

A lot of crying this morning and the weather reflects my mood. I am not jealous of their pregnancies. I just want mine. I just want a baby. I want to be a mum. I want to talk about 12 and 20week scans. I want to go shopping for baby clothes. I want to just be FUCKING PREGNANT!

I am feeling very and at the same time. Sorry to get the thread down again.

My 3 friends who were pregnant last night were happily discussing ante-natal appointments and scan experiences. They kept checking my face to see if I was okay. The thing is they really deserve to be happy as they have all had a tough ttc journey. mine is nothing in comparison. But I can't take any more of this. I wish I never had the CP and that I was still pregnant and the BFP was getting darker and I was part of the 'happy pregnancy club'.

Right I must pull myself together and stop crying. Just need the day to be over. Sorry for the me me me rant :(

nic I am so so sorry.

red I know what you mean about sad and angry I keep wishing that first chem preg had been ok and I was still pregnant. I have to let it go though.

Hope you feel better soon.

red it's good that you're letting it out. I know exactly how you feel. I am surrounded by pregnant friends, some who've struggled and some who fell pregnant on cycle 1. It is super tough. Really very hard to cope with.

Right, I'm about to head in for my blood test. Yuck yekety yuk...will be over soon right :)