Rainbow babies- for all of us holding, pregnant with and trying for our rainbows. While remembering all our darling angels

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Hoping the thread brings us luck and that soon we will all be holding our rainbows xx

babyH we loved Euro-Disney. Phebs went on 3 rides we ll definatly take her back in 3-4 years.... the whole place was magical . Cx
Mech to feel negative is normal ... Don t apologise for your feelings , their yours & you ll probably find most if not all of us have felt like that at times... To loose a baby/child will certainly make anyone feel negative ... Take care xxx
Fan beautifully posted , so elegantly put. I wouldn t have changed ever having Georgie , obviously apart from the obvious, as she did such a lot of good : raisiing awareness , raising money, showing me the good family & friends we ve got , so much good....then she opened new doors for us with Phebs... She contributed largely to who/ what I am today... Bless u xxxx
( not in a religious sense ... As u know I m not!!!!)
Love to all of us walking/ fumbling through this awful experience... Xxxx

Mech I also felt I stayed in 1 place for months... It was dark, ; mentally & physically , cold, ( was the winter when wr had all the snow & ice) , depressing, long drawn out days. There was no hope ; it lasted for ages then literally overnight it was spring coincidentally as my mood was starting to lift .... You re still in the very early stages of grief personally , I don t remember feeling any better for about a good 4/5 months ( that's only me though) ... Surround yourself with good RL support & take from them , if u can xxxc

whatever remembering Erin. x

mecha as lovely wise MrsDeVere said on the bereavement thread recently, grief is like a tsunami. It engulfs you, unexpectedly, and there are surprise aftershocks for months to come. Float on top of the huge waves, allow them to carry you into calmer waters. Yes, you will be scared and swallow lots of water, but you will make it through. x

fan thank you for such beautiful, apt words. Absolutely perfect. x

Hello everyone

I have been lurking on this thread for a little while. There is so much love here for the beautiful little babies who came too soon, or left too early. You are all so brave and inspiring.

Yesterday we said goodbye to our perfect little boy, Daniel, who arrived at 23 weeks. We love him and miss him. But we are ok, and very grateful to have our little girl who is full of joy.

I was very moved by Fans words about how our little angels have had an impact on our lives. Fan is right; although our little boy is not here, he has changed us already; we are now so much more aware of how love works, the fragility and beauty of life, and the importance of being fully in moment. Daniel has shown us how strong and resilient we are; he has shown us that we can cope, and that we can be there for each other. Daniel has helped me see the infinite love i have for DD1, and how lucky we are to have her. Fan is right, my little boy has taught me so much in the short time he was with me.. I am forever indebted to him..

Thinking of your little angels and sending you all love and hugs. And many congratulations to those with new little rainbows.

Oh Tayto, I'm so sorry

Your post is so beautiful - and you seem so strong. Am glad that your DP and you are able to support one another, and to hear of your love for your beautiful daughter too.

Thinking of Daniel and Erin today, and their wonderful families

tayto welcome, so sorry to hear about Daniel.

WTW really thinking about you and your beautiful girls today.

And welcome Tayto Sorry to hear about your son, Daniel. I am glad you have your family around you and are surrounded by love. I also love your username, I hope you don't mind me saying! I am an expat exiled to Aberdeen and the only thing I miss more than Mr Tayto is Veda bread!

Thank you everyone for being so kind to me. I guess we have all been through a terrible time and need to be self-indulgent sometimes! I have a wonderful husband and family who love me. I have kind and thoughtful friends. I have the support of everyone on here. And I have my little boy, who has changed me forever and I love with all my heart.

Will be thinking positive thoughts for us all today, hoping we all keep our heads above the water xx

Tayto, I wondered if you'd like to tell us more about Daniel and the short time he was with you ? Only if you'd like to of course x

Welcome Tayto sorry about your Daniel xxx my first dd was stillborn at 41 weeks on 10/10/10 ;Georgie. I ve since had my 2 nd daughter ; Phoebe ... The whole experience is truely sad & awful ... To loose a child is , I think , the worst experience ever... Take care ... We re here for support xxxx
Love to all xxxx

Mech xxxxx

jugglingwithfiverings not sure we have met before, I don't recognise your name, or are you a name changer?

Hi fanjo. I'm just here because I find this thread very moving (& such a beautiful title caught my eye) and I'd like to offer some support if I can - but I do appreciate that the best support is often offered by those who've also lost a child. I was also on wtw's thread last year and was so pleased to learn here of the birth of Holly I know you are all thinking of her and Erin especially today.

I have changed my name slightly for The Olympics - and am planning on keeping it for the Paralympics - was JugglingWithTangentialOranges previously - and various other random objects I've juggled with previously for different themes.
I'd like to reassure you that I mean well, even though like many I don't always know what to say x

juggling welcome, I hope I didn't come across as rude, just hoped I hadn't missed you earlier in the thread. This is such a haven but its also sad to think there are so many of us on here.
Any support is welcome.

:)

Thanks fan (perhaps I'd better shorten it to that ?!) It's good you're looking out for everyone

Hi blue < waves back >

But enough of me. How was your day wtw ?

I'll be lighting my MN candle to remember Erin this evening x

Evening everyone.

I was so moved by your lovely words FAN your so gifted with words x

WHATEVER: You have been in my thoughts all day.....I am still in the very early stages of grief but was thinking of something my DD said to me....'you wont ever get over this........but one day you will come to terms with it' How long this will take.....I've no idea but ANGELS description of the 'Raw Pain' almost 2 years on gives me a good idea. Thinking of you and your beautiful daughters tonight Happy birthday Erin xxxxxxx

MIA: What lovely words posted from the wise MrsDevere some people have a way with words x

MECH: Its a long road and I'm so glad you don't have to travel it alone. Thinking of you x

Tayto: A warm hello, I'm new here too. So sorry to hear you lost your lovely son. Daniel is a lovely name.

Thinking of you and all our angels tonight xx

PS Fan: thank you for all your advice went the churchyard today. I took some silk flowers for now to put in one of the pots. We have been working the soil and will plant some bulbs as soon as the ground settles I love seeing the crocuses as they pop up anywhere in the spring so would like to plant some x

Feeling a bit sad right now because it's about the time the twins should have been born last year and although I know it's not the same as their actual birth date I still get those e-mails saying 'your baby is one now' which make me sad.

Cammy is lovely and thriving and I wouldn't be without her but my heart will never recover from losing my twins.

I'm so happy that lots of you now have your own rainbow babies and my fingers are crossed for the rest of you. It's not easy to try again and it's really hard when you are pg. And the birth was really terrifying. But I have my baby. At last. And she's lovely xxx

Thank you for your lovely messages. It's been a hard day, but I think we've honoured Erin. Feeling totally shattered now xxxxxxx

Forgot to say Hi Juggling thank you for your kind words and for remembering Erin xxx

As my dd says when thanked for something ... "My pleasure" - an honour to light my little candle for Erin this evening x
Much love to all your girls wtw Hope you get a good nights sleep x

Wtw my thoughts have been with you all day, hope you get some rest lovely
X

Angel ? I am so sorry to hear about Georgie. How devastating to lose your beautiful first child.. and having carried her for 41 weeks...I am inspired by how brave you must have been all through your second pregnancy. Congratulations on the birth of little Phoebe ? such a lovely name.

Juggling - thank you very much for you kind words. You seem like such a lovely supportive person.

Mecha - thank you for the warm welcome fellow ex-pat. I just read back and read about your little Dexter. I?m so very sorry, poor little lad. I?m thinking of you and hope you get the BFP you want soon.

WTW - just wanted to say that i am thinking of you on little Erin?s anniversary xxx.

DiffedAgainDachs - so very sorry to hear of losses. Sending you a hug. Congratulations on Cammy.

Babyh200 - thank-you for the welcome. I just read back and see that you lost your little boy a few days before he was due. I am so sorry, my heart goes out to you.

Fan I also just read about little Ophelia and your subsequent miscarriages. Again, i can?t imagine the depth of sadness and disappointment you have experienced. I am so sorry. You must be such a strong person to be looking out for everyone here despite everything you have experienced.

I have only looked back at some previous posts on this thread tonight and am reminded of what a tough and difficult place this is to be. It is really inspiring to hear about the little rainbow babies, but my heart is heavy reading about the enormous losses that have been experienced. I am not sure that this is the place for me; but i just want to acknowledge the depth of pain and sadness experienced by so many people here before i go, as i?m afraid my earlier post may have been a little one-sided in terms of positivity. I really wish everyone here love and hope for the future.

babyh that sounds great, they will look so beautiful in the spring. A little bit of colour, just like your angel.

tatyo I might come across as strong but I am far from it some days. When you are ready we will be here to listen and support.

dachs so sorry you are feeling down, your babies are always with you. You are a mother of three and that will never change, bless little Cammy she sounds wonderful. Hugs to you.

wtw from your pictures on FB, you really did honour her, they were beautiful.

This month two years ago we conceived Fi after 18 months of trying, we are ttc at the moment, Im trying to be positive but sometimes it is hard. I was looking through her memory box the other day, I have a journal book in there where I have written her story, it was lovely and hard to read. I feel so sad that that is all I have of my beautiful golden girl. A few pictures, a lock of hair, sympathy cards, a couple of scan photos and her positive POAS. I still cant beleive it still says positive.

Fan: Your so brave and strong for everyone. I looked at our little plot yesterday and thought exactly the same 'is this all I have left!'. Your entitled to feel a bit negative at times and I so wish you weren't in this position. I don't know why someone has decided to inflict this hell on any of us but will pray that all your kindness and support is rewarded with a new rainbow soon because you so deserve it. xxxxxx

Diffed: Thinking of the twins. So glad you have Cammy

Tayto: I'm not usually a 'forum' type person either.....but these lovely ladies have supported me so much already. You and your DS Daniel will be in my thoughts. I also couldnt believe how may of our beautiful children are being lost, not only via this forum but through all the sympathy cards and flowers we received. It sadly seems like everyone I speak to knows someone in a similar position. Take care.

Cant get the consultant out of my head, waiting for the letter for the follow up appointment because I'm desperate for answers. Any of the mums whose babies were born asleep and 'unexplained'...did you get any answers?

TIA