morning all, hehehe meggmoo seems your baby decided it was ready for you to try before you did! lol. Anyway congrats :).
I'm on CD30 now, still no AF, woke up this morning feeling very nausious, same as I used to with DS, but ... I did a test, bfn :(.
Me and DH talked and said that maybe it's just time we accepted that it isn't meant to be. We have a beautiful DS, so everything to be thankful for really. There are so many couples out there who are unable to conceive even one child, I have no right to be upset really when I already have what some don't, and will never have.
We talked about having tests, to bring closure if nothing else, but I'm not sure whether more tests will bring closure so much as cause more guilt if only one of us has a fertility problem My DH already thinks that it's because of him, he's a prime candidate really for a low sperm count as he travels a lot to work and back, spends long hours sitting at his desk, always tired because of the long hours he works. When we were trying for DS DH was told his sperm count was slightly low, but it was never pursued because I fell pregnant that month. But 4 years on it's highly likely that it could have reduced signifficantly enough to prevent us from conceiving. I don't want DH to carry that kind of guilt, I don't blame him for me not being able to conceive, any more than he would blame me if I was the cause of our inability to conceive. If we never find out then we can just say that it never happened and leave it at that.
I dunnow really, my head is kinda filled with all sorts of things at the moment, but I do think that realistically, I'm not going to conceive another child, and I think that coming to terms with that is the main thing at the moment.