Is everyone in the world pregnant but me!

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Need to rant I believe my 1st AF is on its way since my eptopic and tube removal the end of April 12!!!!!
My emotions are all over the place and I'm now crying as " Gennie in emmerdale" seems to of gotten pregnant without wanting or trying!!! It's a soap! But feel like its happening in real life too!!!!!!

God you're good kitty :)

Its taken a time to become a nut ( hard on the outside but soft in middle) I wait til with Dp on our own have a little cry a cuddle and then do something positive with DD (4 and desperate for a sibling to the point of making up one who we all have to pretend is real lol! )
xx

oh god - poor you kitty!!! I was an only dd and there are benefits though!
I used to beg my parents for a sibling and i wish they'd just told me the truth.... well the appropriate way they could i.e. some people can only have one child and mummy and daddy tried for you., instead they just said stuff like "you never know", or "maybe we will". of course they were doing what they thought was right......

thats really nice to hear berries- as both dp and i are 1 of 3 and loved it so cant see the positives of only child my friend also reitterated what you said so maybe i should relax about that pressure also. How are you doing today? xx

Kitty - you seem like a lovely person whose tongue must suffer alot of bites your SIL sounds like a right moo- moo! ( that what my ds2 calls a cow). So glad your DP and your DD are on hand for loads of cuddles!
Ilove - it's amazing how parents think they are doing and saying the right things but are not! Well they think they are doing right I guess it's the way.

well i am super close to my mum and dad which i think it part of being an only child. they are both playful by nature and we did lots of family activities as a threesome so i was never left alone playing for hours on end. Of course i did play by myself a lot but as a result i like my own company and am pretty imaginative!! When i was in senior school and we went on family hols i was always allowed to take a friend so i had company my own age and Dmum and Ddad could relax. I would love to give my DS siblings but I won't be too worried about him if i couldn't - DCs only know what they have and i was never lonely as an only. Anyway kitty - you may well have a 2nd DC yet!!

plus if i am being really crass - DParents could afford stuff for me which i wouldn't have had if i'd had siblings (namely a uni education which has given me lots of opportunities!)

I'm not pregnant either :(
I had a mc in April, should be 4 months pregnant and looking toward to scans etc.
So many friends are expecting or have just given birth.

Oh dilly sorry to hear your news- take comfort with us and our hand holding!
Berries- i think you are very right there is so much good from being an only one! Your parents sound wonderfu too. I am lucky have a great step dad and mum that are just wonderful, i should really start thanks for what i do have.
Yes with the tongue thing- my parents, friends and Dp all get very cross with how i take criticism and harsh comments/actions and say nothing and suffer with it than say anything but my daughter luckily does not have my bad trait and speaks her mind! I am a wimp when it comes to confrontation its awful, i hate change i really take alot, but i do also then get very stressed from being the one people trust with many secrets that i hold lol what a stress!!!!
How is everyone? xxxxx

Dilly - I'm so sorry for your loss , I lost in April as well! It's hard when your mind keeps on thinking of what you would be doing if you was still pregnant! I look on the December 12 thread and just started to cry!
Now I have to due date 28/12/11 and the 19/12/12!
Kitty - you don't seem like a wimp at all your strength is in what you cope with and deal with others, sometimes speaking your mind makes things worse!!!!!
I have 3 siblings and I'm the youngest,lost my mum in 09 and it was the hardest thing I have ever dealt with even more so then my losses! I guess my head is saying " you will have another child", but mums gone forever"
I really miss my mum and the talks we had! My babies is so different no lasting memories, no scan pictures, no names, nothing bought that was their! For my last 2 all I have is the photos I took of the test sticks and the documents from the hospital! Not the greatest memories to keep hold off!!
More training today and feeling good with it!!!

I should be about 15 weeks now. I did have a quick look on the December board to see how everyone was doing. My name and edd was still in there so that made me a bit :(
We are ttc again so FC it won't take long.

Ohhhh Dilly - your due date is my bday!!!!!!! And it can't even be removed!
And there is about 3 women on there with my dd!
I never added my details because of what happened last year I guess my fears was well founded!!!!! It's horrible! What should be a happy thing is just a constant reminder!!!!!
I have FC that you will be pregnant again soon!
I'm not TTC for now have to wait another clear cycle since the ectopic op so FC for August!

Wow? Your birthday?!
I'm hoping I'm pregnant again by the due date so I'm not too miserable!
I'll be a bit more reserved about jumping on a baby bus next time though.
Here's to August for you, it must be that much harder with having to have an op as well. I also have my bfp pictures on my phone but that's all I have to show that I was actually pregnant :(

Dilly that's how I felt last year! Every month that came with AF was heartbreaking for me! But it got easier and when my dd came it was hard and most peeps in RL forgot as expected why would they remember ?
I took it easy that day and cried abit!!! This time I pray I'm pregnant and have going away to look forwards to!!! I don't want to get pregnant to soon as hols has been planned and paid for time from work booked etc! I would so rather be pregnant ASAP but using wisdom here!!! And thinking of all the praticals!!!!
I actually feel like I'm always heavily pregnant in winter so a summer baby would be good!!!!!
Joining a thread is fun sharing the journey but it is awful to tell people it's not worked out!!!!!

We've already been away this year and don't have any other holidays booked at the moment so it does feels bit like there's nothing to look forward to. Summer babies are good -that's when mine were born

Dilly - I have not returned to work since the ectopic and so having something to look forwards to that's been planned and CAN'T go wrong so too speak! Gives me some control, although just abit! I've checked passports and started to buy bits already putting down!
Spending this Christmas away, just feels great!!!
And maybe just maybe won't be so hard to cope with my due dates x2!

Have a great time away. I'd love to go away for Christmas one year but dh only gets either Xmas eve and Xmas day or Xmas day and boxing day off together. Hipefylly being away and having things to look forward to will soften the blow of the due dates a little.

Dilly - def something to look forwards to but just seems ages away and I really need the relaxing break!!!
I'm taking one day at a time here! Right now today has been good!
Now crying no emotional breakdowns and it's great actually feels quite normal!!!! Yehhhhhhhhhhj

Glad you've had a good day. I'm feeling rather down at the moment, went into town for summer clothes and glimpsed all the lovely baby outfits I should be buying now :(
Also, one of my closest friends - we've been friends over 20 years, has just had a baby. I feel really happy for her but still gutted it won't be happening to me for a while.
My cycles seem like they're all over the place still, the last one was 32 days and they've never been that long!

Ah that's enough of me and my pity party, hope you're ok.

Hi can I join to chat for a bit? I've been ttc for six months now and do already have a ds who is 3yrs. I know I'm very lucky and that also 6 months isn't too long but just got my AF today and I'm feeling so down about it. We conceived ds in a few months without even trying but I'm 35 now and dh is 39 and I just wonder if we've left it too late for number two. My periods are always irregular too, this one was 5 days late. I thought I'd wait a week til testing as I kept feeling like I was due to come on. Last night though I actually let myself get excited that I could be pg then this morning I come on. It just feels a bit cruel sometimes. I'm not charting or using ovulation sticks but I might try now. I'm trying not to let getting pg rule my life, keep chilled out about it but it's not working. It's not very easy to share in rl, friends mean well and say it will happen but it just doesn't always feel like it will.

Dilly I'm really sorry to hear about your loss

Purples - i know how you feel. It's shit isn't it.

I don't think the hormones which come with AF are helpful either! I always feel soooo down when it arrives and then much better a day or 2 after... start of a new cycle and all that!

It's so hard cause rationally you know "you're lucky tohave DS, 6 months isn't that long" etc etc but it still hurts every month when AF turns up. I don't think you've left it too late at all! Maybe try the Ov sticks or the clearblue monitor but in reality if you're both healthy and have conceived together already it probably is just a case of waiting and keep trying. I know that's not what you want to hear though!

At 35 you can go see doc if you've been trying for 6 months though can't you?

Ohhhhhh Dilly- I'm so sorry that your feeling do fragile! You can't help thinking about if you was still pregnant what you would be doing now!
Very hard, take it easy!
Purple - blah AFs are a huge tease when your expecting it and no show your heart leaps as you think just maybe then the flippin witch turns up casting a bloody mood of sadness for those days!
Yes we have to have them but it doesn't cancel out feelings of sadness!
I have not bothered with charting, ov sticks etc! I just tried to work it out and dtd at the right time! I can feel when I'm oving it's painful in my abdo area!!!
Ilove - sorry that the AF witch casts sadness on you at the time, and another month of TTC and then TWW!!!!!

Thank you Count and Berries I'm feeling more positive today, Berries you are so right about the pmt hormones. I watched My Sisters Keeper last night and had a good sob at that which helped. I'm terrible for letting things out but a weepy film helps, though probably it was the worst choice film with the terminally ill child and all that.

I'm not sure when you can do to the GP, I've not looked into it. To be honest the main reason I want to try ovulation sticks is because I'm wondering if we're not dtd at the right time due to my irregular cycle. Also dh is very against going for tests and procedures at the moment. This might change depending on how much longer we try. He thinks if it will happen it will happen. I doubt I'd want to go down an IVF route or anything but I'd rather know if there was no chance of it happening then I'd try to move on. It's the uncertainty I hate, the waiting and wondering.

I wish everyone luck and thank you for being so supportive I'm off to buy more Pregnacare Conception tablets at £8 a time...for all the good they have done

Sorry Ilove, I've just renamed you

purple - pregnacare's are cheapest on amazon! xx