Can't do anything to lift the general gloom, I'm afraid. Just to update you - I continued to just have spotting all day Saturday and made up my mind I would test on Sunday. However, the bleeding was fairly positively AF by then and has been very heavy ever since.
Still, I got all the upset out of the way on Thursday and Friday, so feeling OK now. It was always going to be an unlikely cycle for me, with so many things on. However, it was a funny one. I had a late ov - according to FF, although I wonder if I actually ov'd on the same day as usual - but even with that, my LP was about 3 days longer than normal. I actually wonder if we were successful in introducing a sperm to an egg this month but it failed to implant. It would explain the spotting and the heavy period and the longer LP.
That's my story and I'm sticking to it - I find it encouraging.
I've decided to stop temping for at least the next cycle. It just makes me anxious. At the end of the day, we know what we need to do and I can still keep an eye on my EWCM. Both DH and I have been so busy recently that we've had our minds on other things. I'd like to use our holiday as a way of 'reconnecting' and I've decided that we're just going to have sex every other day from now until further notice
. Hopefully we'll both just feel more relaxed and more 'together' - and even if it doesn't help the ttc, it should help us.
lbot - I know you're right about appreciating what we have. I was looking at DD today thinking that very thing. I wish I knew for definite whether I was going to have another one or not. That way I could come to terms once and for all with the not having another one and get on and enjoy everything that's wonderful about my life.