Just MC and ready to try again? Pregnant after MC and seeking somewhere safe to hide? Recently graduated from the mosh pit? Come on down to the mosh pit for some serious metalling and cake!

[MarthasHarbour]

Continuation of the last thread.

There's cake for scoffing, backs for patting, and screeching death metal for all your metalling moments. All welcome so come on in and get settled into the plush sofas!

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So settle into the mosh pit, we have special VIP area's for those on the 2WW, the new bumps metalling with segregated areas for the first/second/third trimesters and the club class cocktail bar for those who have just got AF and can get-pissed let loose for the first two weeks!

And we have a recently refurbished Mosh Pit Nursery for the graduates IQ Manda and Blue, we are currently running a rota for babysitting so those three can go and get-pissed have some rest! I have done my bit this week so i need the next volunteer!

sass i really chuckled at "you see a dinosaur" I'm now deliriously happy and mildly freaking out as i now want to feel more, now. Just spoke to dp and his response was, "did you not see the scan we had, it was like a octopus bouncing around"

feeling rotten all day was so worth that

I did some pj sniffing when my waters broke with ds2 at 1 in the morning. I even went across the road to my mums house and woke her up to ask her opinion. in my defence I was only 34 weeks so abit shocked!

Wanted to say something, it's not worth it's own thread so I thought I might just mention it in here but...

I think the term is "chemical pregnancy". Well anyway, whatever it was, it probably isn't now. Period is perioding as we speak. Pissing-sticks still say yes too, which is especially unfair. Someone needs to sort out this design flaw in humans, HCG ought to just switch off with a snap when a pregnancy comes to an end and do us all an nice big unambiguous favour.

I'll be alright in a couple of days, probably. I am just sitting it out till I cheer up again. Y'know?

I'm not telling DP. He'd be really very upset. No sense in causing the man pointless unhappiness.

just skimmed the thread, as havent caught up for a couple of days. we are a chatty lot!

mrspear are you ok? FX it is a blip

squeaky i had my scan on Friday and i was somewhere between 7+1 (they reckon) and 7+6 (my calculation) and i saw a definite heartbeat and an outline of a foetus. so you should be fine.

saffron i have had two CP's so i understand what you are going through, what irks me about them is that you get bugger all support from mothers MIL's and health professionals. This thread however was a saviour to me. So hugs

i am dipping in and out a bit at the mo as the situation with my friends illness continues, it can only be a matter of days now so i am a bit all at sixes and sevens. Normal service will resume soon i promise

Thanks for brekky martha. The situation with your friend must be heartbreaking for you :(

saffron I am sorry you are having a cp :( How pg were/are you? are you sure it is a cp if the tests are still pos (please don't feel you have to answer hat one if you don't want to clarify but just thought if tests till pos could be a nasty bleed ...) have you told anyone?

sass the dinosaur comment from your DS is so funny!

state I think I had some fizzpop feelings around then, then proper little jabs at 17 weeks... felt fizzy in my wombage at like 3am, when you never feel insides doing stuff and couldn't believe it. forgot hbow much you crave that next feeling :) so happy for you!

my waters with DS and the mc both felt quite obvious as I remember! Definitely felt it from, ahem, the wrong hole and was all wet!

hoping for a def pos opk today. NO SHAGGING for me though! I must hold out (struggling, just want to jump on DH and make a baby) for next month when am back to work and a fully functioning human being. Am struggling to attend a rare social event with my nct group on sat as one of them is whiny about her accidental second pg and her EDD is around where mine would have been... And I really wanted and loved mine :( I don't think I could bear to be around her bump. I just want to tell her to fuck off, so shall probably stay away Am I being totally crap?

Saffron :( Hope you're ok, sending un-MNy hugs x

When my waters went with DS, I was on the loo - just as well really. I'd had no contractions so it was a bit of a shock! Mind you, I couldn't decide if I'd done a massive pee or if my waters had gone. Labour kicked in ridiculously quickly though, so I wasn't left wondering for long!!

Sorry saffron :(

So sorry safron

((hugs))

Huge huggs saffron

You are not being crap wilde my sil is due a few weeks after i should have been, she was also off hand and disapointed in her pregnancy, also a total bitch about my loss, and I've not seen her since november, and plan to keep away a while longer. Its self preservation. X

thanks state. It feels very shit to miss meeting my friends because of that one person... but generally I couldn't really deal with any more pg announcements or questions about when I want my next one... it is self preservation. When I am pg again i will be totally fine...

state movements sound wonderful! From metalling to movements in 24 hours My boobs are a bit more sore and feeling a bit queasy when hungry....'Today I am pregnant...' Discussed bringing scan forward with DH and we'd both prefer to be together for the first one so keeping it at 8+3...

Poor SILs they get a hard time don't they! I have three, one am great friends with and was my bridesmaid, one wonderfully supportive, and one that I just don't get on with at all, we just have totally different priorities in life, but it really bothers DH that we're not best buds - I think 2/3 isn't bad!

Wild I would tell her to fuck off so you are a better human being than me...

yay squeaky

hehe midget. She can fuck the fuck off.

Haha midge can you come say that to my sil when I eventually have to see her please

wilde please do not feel bad, I'm 12wks and my sil still creates a pang of pain inside me, a stroke of jealousy too. I can't explain it but space helps. X

Not felt any major pops like last night but odd fizzes and 'pressure' its great, I have to concentrate for some.

I had my last session of bereavement councilling since loosing my grandma in 2010, I came away feeling good, like my bad times are finally done with :) My councillors asked me to come for another apt when I find out the sex and when lo is born. I actually believe it now, I may just get a real squishy baby for christmas!

squeaky your doing far better than me, although dp and his family suggested I avoid 2 of mine as they're not very nice at all, the 3rd is dps sister (the one who's pg) and she was one of my best friends until my mmc and her cruel words.

Dp gets it easy my sisters 7, all you have to do is show up with a lolly and she is your best friend.

aw state hurray for you getting closure of sorts and daring to believe :) That's brill. Did counselling help a lot then? My dr is keen for me to go but I feel a bit self indulgent doing it, and silly... and scared... though i would really like it and have a lot of shit to splurge.

I will avoid my friend, and guilt-free now thank you mn chums. I am sad to miss my other friends but really can't see her. Haven't communicated with her directly since she announced her pg (when I was mc'ing though she didn't know this) by saying it was an accident and she was broody before but since being pg hasn't felt broody and doesn't know how it will fit in with their life plans. grrrrr.

Interesting that even tho you are pg state you still feel the pangs... I thought when I got pg I wouldn't but actually, until the EDD has come and gone this phase of grief will stay whether pg or not (then I figure I will enter a new one). The other day dates for a comedian's tour were in the paper and strangely when i noticed they were at the end of the year the first thing I did was see where they would be on my mc EDD. why I know not, I don't even like this person. just the date.

I love my SIL.

My BIL is a nob though...

First off hands out fairy cakes (made by my DS) and tea / coffee / juices

saffron i know that pain so well and understand why your keeping it from DH

state great news re movements

martha sorry for your friend; i really hope she has peace soon. Big hugs for you. I worked with patients at the end in the past and it is so hard; i could never imagine what the family and friends must be going through.

wilde do not feel bad, we have all been there

Well the me me bit now: yesterday was horrible.

Pink blobs then it stopped called doctors. He said i had to have scan and to ring back if i had not heard by lunchtime. I had to ring back and the bloody receptionist (big surgery with back room staff) was just sitting on the referral. Didn't shout at her but got smart enough to make her do her job. Within 20 minutes Tracey at EPU (lovely woman had her for my last mc) called me back. She said i wasn't being silly and i shouldn't have to wait until next Thursday (12 week scan) and i had a choice - come tomorrow and sit and wait for a free slot (could take all day) or come on Wednesday at noon. I choose Wednesday because of DS.
More pink blobs in the afternoon. Plus i was awake last night with cramps. But no blobs again today. DH is in a state too; we went to bed early last night amd he was rubbing my belly crying saying "we can't lose another baby we just can't" . Shit i am so worried about tomorrow.

not much of a hugger but do give a hug to you mrspear. My bezzie had terrible bleeding at 13 weeks, really, really bad but it was nothing to do with her baby and she is 33 weeks now. Was a cyst or something, common apparently. And somewhere else I learnt that about half of all pgs have some sort of spotting/bleeding in early pg.

know you know all this btw. Will be thinking of you tomorrow; we have all dreaded those scans and empathise to the bottom of our hearts so if you need to offload, please do.

x

mrsPear, I am thinking about you. Scans are such horrid experiences. I hope you get sone sleep tonight, and hopefully you will be getting good news tomorrow. It is so hard though. I had a few days wait after cramps, and they were dog days. All was well though. Hope the same for you.

Martha, so sorry for your friend. It is too sad. I fucking hate cancer and all the suffering, pain and anxiety it brings. She will always be in your heart. X

I am in a mini metal. I have had no obvious kicks today. I know it's early, not 19 weeks, I have my fecking anterior placenta, but just want some assurance she's ok. No bleeding or cramps so trying not reach madness.

Oh, Saffron, wanted to say welcome, and finished post too soon. So sorry you are here my love.

Firstly thank you everyone. DH has done hardly any work today judging by the phone calls ... still no bleeding and cramps are absent at the mo. TMI alert: i am very wet which is doing my state of mind no good. DS keeps giving me kisses and reaches out for cuddles.
I know i should be resting but my house is very clean. I always do the housework when not happy ...
I feel sick too- is that pregnancy or nerves?! Probably both. Deep breath.

Jaffa i had one of those placentas with DS and didn't feel a kick (right low down as well!) until i was on the plane at 20 +2 to Albania - just at lift off! TBH i didn't really get kicks (apart from in my nether regions) just a sensation like i had turned into a human washing machine! I so hope i get that again.

wilde It has helped not in a way I expected but It has, just speaking about everything and having someone listen and knowing when I felt desperate and truly sad I had time in my life to talk it through, it made me stronger each visit and each gap between sessions became for manageable. I lost my brother, grandma, dog and home in a year, spent 6mnths homeless, finally settled and lost our baby. So I've had a lot of shit to get out and I feel like all the little holes in me are smaller, if that makes sense, its not accepting something happened for me, its accepting I have to deal with it. I hope that makes sense in some way.

I felt self indulgent, but I think we need to be. I was a mess, had a nervous breakdown before I agreed to go, yesterday, dd was dancing and I felt happy, completely all through me, its been a long time since I felt that, I wasn't depressed, I was sad at what life had dealt me.

The pangs confuse me wilde its like I have to shake myself and say "your pregnant stupid" which I thought would heal me, it hasn't that baby still mattered. And I feel robbed almost that at the time I should have a newborn I'm starting again. My due date passed easily this weekend, which shocked me. In my head aLl my pain is in December when I lost pud I think that will be hardest, my edd from lmp is the day I had my erpc on. Bitter sweet. I have to focus on the fact that everything is better this time, me and dp are good, and life is. And as unbearable as I once found this phrase things happen for a reason sometimes I believe maybe for me it did.

The dates will stick in our minds forever, I used to check how many weeks I should be, and upset myself.

In my opinion wilde councilling helped me a lot, and I'd recomend anyone try, took me 5 sessions before I settled into it.

Anyway ill end my essay. Pm me if you ever want to xxx

mrspear TMI I'm also very wet, so try not to worry about that, even though it does cause frequent knicker checking!

Big hugs MrsPear x

Can I join the mosh pit?

Mc at 6+6 weeks AF visited exactly 4 weeks later aged 41 have a DD aged 9 (edd 19/12/12 was day before her 10th b/day). AF due again Friday fingers crossed she gives me a miss - really worried about the dark hole I was in after the mc but trying to put that behind me :)

Mumtum and goth are how are you both?