Emmsy's ladies lets roll into spring together! Bring on some sunshine!

[4everhopeful]

About time I start a thread! Pom poms still shaking, bumps growing, babies and toddlers talk a plenty, while the support, laughs, hand holds and weebling continues...

Hi everyone

I see lots if congratulations are in order! Lovely news MLS and cupcake, well done both of you, and MLS I can't believe he has teeth!! Wow!

4ever SO thrilled to hear about your BFP, and that you've had the treatment. At least you haven't had to deal with the same stress as last time. I have literally everything crossed for you that the next 8 months are happy, uneventful but very productive

[Moon] it's so exciting to hear that your wedding is next week, although I'm sure there will be poignant moments during the day . I bet you can't believe that it's just around the corner now, and that this time next week you will be a Mrs!

Barbie how are things in 'gay Paris'? I hope everything's going swimmingly Sorry I haven't been in touch but things have been manic here, although they must have been more so for you I'm sure! How are the kids settling in? Are you enjoying it? Ds and I are coming to Paris at the beginning of August and I wondered if you might be around to meet up? It would be so lovely if you were!

Hope all is well for everyone else! Blue, how are your gorgeous boys doing? And yours VJay and Louey? Neeko I hope you are well too?

I know I've been gone for ages, and there's a lot I've missed out on, but am sending lots of love to you all, including everyone I've not mentioned above. I really just don't get chance to come onto MN much, although I do check status updates briefly on FB, it's lovely to see what people are up to! All is okay here - had a disastrous second try at IVF which ended up being cancelled due to lack of response, but we've picked ourselves up, brushed ourselves off, and are starting the roller coaster again. Am trying to stay hopeful, but it's hard. DS is a delight which helps Anyway, must dash as got tidying/cleaning/accounts to do, but will try to come back soon I promise!

Lots of love xxx

Monkey my lovely lady! Huge smile on my face to see a post from you! You've been missed, i think of you often and rubbishly meaning to tx, especially last month, which if i remember rightly was your angel boys anniversary? Absolutely everything xd for the next round of ivf, hope to be pregnancy buddies! Can't believe its nearly a yr since we met up!

Moon hugs for your impending anniversary, I'm sure its been a long 3yrs for you but next Friday sounds like an incredibly poignant date to be marking new beginnings and dreams ..

Cupcake glad I helped! Is Ds1 enjoying being a big bro?

Still catching up Barbie?

Hello lovely ladies.
So pleased to see some old comrades returning to the flock.

4ever sorry I wasn't here for handholding but phew for the treatment going without a hiccup. Like Monkey I have everything crossed.
Also laughing at the standard you've set in cakes here. I'll never be uploading a pic of my future creations now!

Buddha soo sorry you're having a hard time. As others hve said, we've all been there. Sending you some calming vibes and a huge hug. Even the stringest of women have a little wobble/weeble sometimes.

Monkey So loveley to hear from you. I'm sorry that the last attempt didn't go well but have everything crossed for you for next time. Glad you are taking soklace in your wonderful DS. Are you still having counselling in rl? I lok forward to the day when all of the lovely friends I've made on here are maternally satisfied as they hold there much loved and longed-for little ones.

Barbie Zut alors you've had a lot to contend with. How's Henry's colic? What's Dolly aka supergirl been up to? How are you feeling yourself? You were mentally quite low before you lost contact and I've been worried about you. Please can you PM your new mob number?

nearlyMRSMoon So excited for you about next week but your latest post really struck a chord with me. I vividly remember your second bfp and your absolute shock and delight that it happened so quickly and remember being devastated for you when it wasn't to be . it's so unfair that you still don't have your dream but I'm sure you'll become a Mrs and will be upduffed immediately. When that hapens there will be one heck of a celebration on here before the wobbles and the hand-holding commence.

Vjay Well done to Pjay and for such a good cause too. What clever boys you have

Blue Isn't it DS1's birthday this week? 6? Hope he has a legotastic time!

Louey Is everyone healthy again now?

Cupcake Speaking of clever boys, DS2 is doing really well with his weight. You're clearly producing gold-top. I bet birthday excitement is reaching fever pitch in your house. Hope your big(ger) boy has a wonderful time.

MLS's DD1 has succumbed to the pox but at least she waited until DS was home from hospital and didn't ruin the photos!

All ok here. DH left for China tonight until Thurs. I'm quite a wimp on my own so we're de-camping to my parents' house tomorrow until Monday night.
New timetable at work on Wednesday and despite my part-time status I have an almost full-time teaching commitment with some really demanding classes Going to try not to become super-stressed and actually said no to a colleague's request for help the other day for the first time ever! Very proud of myself for that.
Things still very busy for DH work-wise and I'm recognising that I can only do so much and I have to be stricter about my time. I have started swimming once a week purely for me and intend to be extremely selfish about protecting that time. I have even arranged a babysitter so I can go when DH is away.
Long may this PMA last!

Head is f'd, just got 2 BFNs, is this a chemical pregnancy?

Can't believe this, do you think cyclogest would affect result?

Only did 2 BFPs, one last fri, one sunday.. Dunno why decided to test again tonight..

Head is spinning..

4ever Im here right now if you need to talk...I have no answers for you sadly. Is there anyone at the hospital you could talk too. When we took Henry to the Portland they were very good in getting in contact with our doctor even though it was out of working hours for him. Worth a shot?

4ever couldn't read and run. Not sure what to make of your two bfns tbh I did a quick google and a few others have asked but nothing conclusive as to why it's happened. I'm keeping everything crossed but would definately contact someone today to see if you can get any answers. Remember keep the faith x

Oh 4ever any chance they were dud tests? Thinking of u. Hope u get some answers today x

Thanks for words of hope girls but I know its over, before it even truly began.. 3rd Bfn this morning, boots test and first response tests, Dh went late night chemist for first response in case boots was dud.. Clearly not, googled loads, only explaination chemical pregnancy

Has completely fd our heads, 6 previous pregnancies always get to 8/9 wks before anything goes wrong (obviously apart from our miracle Summer, and the 3rd at 13wks) we have scans and apts made, this has never happened this early... I would only be 5wks tomorrow, in some ways if its not gonna work, probably better now than later and yet another erpc and seeing its heartbeat and growing each week..

Devastated yet again, Dh looks so sad, I feel so sad for Summer, I want to give her a brother or sister so much, more hopes plans and dreams, gone in an instant.. Feel like a failure, a freak, my stupid body let everyone down again.. Now we have to tell our parents, family and friends, that we told in faith and hope that this was gonna work, I truly believed it would work this time too, I was so positive, refused to be negative, how very apt.. Even made apt for 1st scan on 19th and put the pregnancy calendar up...

Can't believe we had the £1100 treatment (paid for by my mum) & all the chaos involved in organising it, and unless we're pregnant again in the next 3months, that's gone to waste.. Also changing the holiday, another extra £80, and now yet another hol to 'get over' a mc.. Also, if this is over, cos I've been on the cyclogest, am worried will delay bleeding, and I just want to get back to normal, especially if we are gonna try again within 3months for the treatment window.. I'm also scared of bleeding cos only 1 natural mc where I got took to hospital in agony as it wasn't passing.. All others were erpc...

As you can see my head is spinning.. I'm numb, as usual, not cried yet, and emotions are everywhere ...

Thanks for the vent... Sorry to put a downer on things...

Oh no 4ever that is so . You are being so hard on yourself too, this is not your fault, there's sadly nothing you or anyone can do. Once we get a bfp, as we've all learnt, there's nothing we can do but hope and pray, so please stop thinking its anything you've done.
I'm so for you.
Hold your dh and S, for you've a wonderful family there.
Lots of {{{{{hugs}}}}}

Oh 4ever I'm so sorry & so sad you are going through this again. You had such a fantastic pma & it rubbed off onto all of us. This is just not fair especially with everything else such as the treatment & the cost factored in. I'm truly gutted for you.

I've had several cp's & the bleeding was no more than a heavy period. My cycle got right back on track as soon as the bleeding stopped. In fact Kitty was conceived the cycle after a cp.

Sending you tons of hugs.

Thanks girls...

Bleeding just started...

Thank god i did test so was prepared, otherwise would of been an awful shock... Wierd how intuition kicks in.

Mls your story gives hope, thank you, was looking forward to hearing from you, remembered you had cp's too, what happened with you, was it same thing, bfp followed by bfn? Sorry to ask you to revisit dark times...

Sorry to all of you for stirring bad memories, thankfully everyone has moved on so much from all this s**t..

Think its hitting me now so going back to bed with Dh and Summer while she naps, counting my blessings for what i do have, rather than what i don't....

xxxxxxx

Oh god 4ever I'm so so sorry lovely :( the sadness I felt reading that is just immense so cant imagine how you must feel. Hoping and praying you fall again while the treatment is still valid you must just be devastated.
Thank goodness you do have the holiday now though to rest & recuperate. Look after yourself x x x

Oh 4ever

Heart in my mouth then my boots reading your post. You wrote so eloquently and with such poignancy .

As you say your intuition led you to test again so the bleeding was at Lear not a total shock out the blue..

It's just not fair that you have your dreams dashed again but we all know how lucky you will always feel to have Summer. I truly believe you will give her a brother or sister, keep the faith lovely and if steely determination and leaving no stone unturned to get there was all that was required you would be there already.

Sending you a big huge cyber cuddle xxx

4ever don't be sorry, I don't think we ever completely move on, we just learn to cope with what's happened. I'm certainly counting my lucky stars & even though I had 3 mc's & what I believe were 3 cp's in 2009 I know I'm well & truly blessed. Hearing what you are going through does take me back to the dark time but that's no bad thing, I just wish you didn't have to go there again.

I'm an early tester so would always test well before af due. On 3 occasions I had a bfp, then would test every day & gradually the second line would get fainter until it was eventually a bfn & then I'd start to bleed. The bleeding was never as bad as any of my mc's. I'm sure someone else on our thread had a cp followed by a successful pregnancy the next cycle.

We are all here for you.

Oh 4ever I am so so sorry, I was so not expecting that, I was there with you with your positive attitude and really thought this time it would be different. I dont know what to say, other than you know we are all here for you and we know more than anyone how awful it is, so post whenever you need us. As for feeling like a failure, please dont, it isnt your fault, sadly its one of those things, which I know is no comfort to you right now, but its natures way unfortunately.... I'm so :( for you all, sending you big hugs, be kind to yourself. xx

4ever What can I say that hasn't already been said I am so sorry that this has happened again, as I said by text earlier, I have everything crossed for you that you will be successful before your treatment expires. Keep the faith my lovely

No birthday bfp for me af arrived 4 days early (again) so at least I get the hormonal emotional dip before I'm back at work

But on a happier note dh finished his first ever triathlon today, the weather was bloody awful but despite this still did amazing times on all three events. I was so so proud of him and they have raised money for our local Special Baby Care Unit so it meant so much to us, as I have no doubt without their skills and help we wouldn't have Ewan with us today.

Well done mrbuddha

monkey good to see you and good luck with your next round of IVF

moon only 4 days to go

4ever how are you this morning lovely?

buddha sorry af arrived again, and early again, I wonder why? Have some and chocs and a very unmumsnetty {{{hug}}}

buddha :( sorry it's not a double celebration for your birthday..at least you can drink lots now though! Massive congratulations to mrbuddha that's so fab.

4ever thinking of you loads..hope your lovely little lady is keeping you smiling x

monkey sorry to hear round 2 wasn't a success, praying this next one is the one. You're so strong, I can't help but admire you! So lovely to see you posting again.

neeko well done you on protecting your you time! Hope things go ok without dh around this week. China hey? Fancy!

Right..I have a cake to make! :)

Hi ladies, this is to be my last post before I am a mrs! We have company staying from tomorrow, so wont be able to get on to post. Dashing about today cleaning the house and making beds, and sorting out as much of the wedding stuff as I can, boxing it up ready to go I cannot even begin to tell you how excited I am hope the weather will be nice to us, its a lovely day here today.

4ever hope you are hanging on in there and you're not getting too much pain or bleeding, try to stay strong and have extra cuddles with your lovely dh and summer. Let the girls here look after you.

Thank you to you all for helping me on my journey, I will be thinking of you all. Will be back very soon as a mrs

Rushes in to wish blue all the best! I loves a wedding I do!

I have a new I phone, will sort out how to work it and let you all know my number.

Back soon x

Moon Have a wonderful, wonderful time. You deserve all the happiness that life can throw at you.

4ever You've been constantly in my thoughts, lovely.

Buddha I'm soo sorry that TEW got you. Doesn't evening primrose oil help to extend the 2nd phase? Very well done to your DH!

cupcake How's the cake going? Is your DS1 excited?

Waves to Barbie and Vjayjubilee

Moon Have a fantastic day
4ever Been thinking if you my lovely

Big wave to everyone else

Masses of good luck to moon can't wait to hear all about it :) hope you have a lovely week..the lead up to it all is almost as good as the day itself.
My little sis just got engaged so I get to be a bridesmaid again next year, yay! Very convenient of both my sisters to get married the year after I've had a baby..gives me very good weight loss incentive!

neeko cake is iced just needs a little decorating in the morning :) ds loves singing happy birthday so every time we tell him its his birthday he starts singing 'birthday birthdaaaay!' :) I can't believe my baby is 2!!